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@periwinklebee @mrs. oreo @marfi: Feel you guys on this one SO HARD. Today I was in quite a mood when I went for my CD2 blood draw and I told the nurses that it sucks that the RE's office is INSIDE the women's hospital, because you see all these babies and pregnant ladies on the way to the office! It's kind of cruel.

@marfi: Oh sister I'm sorry to hear that, but there are interventions you can pursue to get pregnant still! Good luck w/ the next steps.

DH was being a real pain in the ass this morning. He has this habit of not flushing the toilet when he pees as a way to save water. Which is fine when we're both home and it's going to get flushed more regularly. But I've asked him not to leave it for long periods of time - like overnight or when we're at work - because it makes the toilet bowl dirty and I'm tired of cleaning it so regularly. I've been saying this to him for almost TWO YEARS now. And this morning, I went into the bathroom and could *smell* his pee in the toilet bowl even though the lid was down. I raised the lid to check, flushed it, and then was like "Hey, can you please flush when you know it's going to sit? I've asked you a hundred times." And he was like "Okay, short leash." I was like... "Ummm excuse me?" Rude as hell! He is definitely NOT on a short leash. He just bought a motorcycle even though we NEED a second car and he doesn't even ride the damn thing. Meanwhile I am saving up $3k to install air conditioning which benefits BOTH of us, the motorcycle only really benefits him. Then on top of it I just paid $1k for HIS tax liability (he WILL pay me back) because he didn't have health insurance the whole year (which yes, I reminded him of a million times and he would just get pissed off that I was being naggy) and then also he doesn't have his employer taking enough $ out of his paychecks. Plus he basically does whatever the hell he wants whenever he wants to. I am not a naggy, controlling wife! I told him if he wants to see what a "short leash" is really like I'd be happy to show him. And then I'm somehow the jerk in all this for following up the conversation by saying "Just so you know, I knew there was pee in the bowl because I could smell it. I'm not checking up after you pee to see if you flushed." Like to give him some context, and make him realize it's not a "short leash" issue. He was like "that was just a joke" and then got all mad at me cuz I kept "harping on it." I'm like... no I'm not harping I'm explaining myself because you seem to think I'm following you around to see if you flushed! AGGGHHH! It's so stupid and it put me in a terrible mood at the beginning of my day.

And since I was about to leave for the RE's office I'm thinking, dude, do you even realize how much I've done? Dozens of blood draws, half a dozen ultrasounds, over a thousand dollars spent, getting up extra early to go in before work or having to leave work for appointments, not to mention the physical toll on my body and all the emotional side effects of the medications I've been on. Like how about a little freaking gratitude?! He wants a kid just as much as I do, so I'm doing all this shit for BOTH of us. Jeez. /endrant

I wanted to share this meme with you because this is seriously how I feel sometimes. Why are men such a pain in the ass?! My DH is even a feminist but somehow we still fall into these stupid gender roles where I do most of the cleaning, cooking (he claims to love cooking but rarely does it), grocery shopping, preparing for entertaining, laundry, etc. etc.

@mrskansas: What the eff is that supposed to mean?! Why are men so thoughtless with their words sometimes?! Like does he even realize how hard this has been for you?

@marfi: Are you worried about the expense of IUI or IVF?