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@DesertDreams88: That weather looks wonderful! I'd love for some warm weather right about now!
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Ladies I'm feeling sad and very anxious today. I don't have a reason for the anxiety that I'm aware of. It very well could be PMS or possibly my thyroid acting up again but this is unusual for both of those scenarios.
Today is one of those days where I'm on edge and everything is making me upset. I got to work today and I had forgotten my lunch from Friday in the fridge. Apparently the power was out to the fridge at some point this weekend. Now the kitchen smells like old food......and this made me tear up. Then after that, all of things/people that never bother me in my office are making me even more upset/sad/"rage-y".
Also, today is DH's first day on the late shift at his new job. He won't be home until I'm in bed. I know this will be a transition for us but up until today I've been ok with it (not super happy, but ok). I usually don't mind being by myself for some quiet time. Today I'm having a mini meltdown in my office because he won't be home tonight or any night in the foreseeable future.
What is wrong with me today?!? I can't vent to DH because he's already upset about this late shift and I don't want to add to it. I knew I could type it out and "vent" to you ladies without judgement. Thanks for "listening" ladies
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@HappyBluebird: I am so sorry
I felt similarly on the way to work today. I burst into tears for absolutely no reason. (I should be Oing soon, so I, too, am trying to blame hormones.)
DH works off the wall hours, so I get the frustration with not knowing when you'll see him. Does yours have a set schedule? Do you know which nights he'll be home/off? My anxiety is lower if I can find out at the beginning of the week exactly which days he'll be around so I can be sure not to plan anything then and we can spend time together.
Don't forget, mini meltdowns are ok, and you can respect the funk
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@MaryM: Thanks
He'll work this schedule every weekday and some weekends. We'll have the weekends he doesn't work and the morning on the weekends he does work for spending time together. I'm trying not to be upset about it because it really is good for us in terms of money and benefits. I guess today is when I stupidly realized he really won't be home at all in the evenings. On top of everything else that is making me whiny today. I try to remind myself that there are worse things happening to other people and that I'm lucky we both have good jobs but today I'm having a hard time. But you are right, I do need to respect the funk I'm in today.
I'm sorry you were sad for no reason as well. Stupid hormones!
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@HappyBluebird: In some ways, I think it's easier for us because DH has always (ever since I've known him) worked these crazy hours...except for when he took time off when we got married, and honestly I got sick of him them!
But we do try to plan to have a decent dinner together at least one night a week (as in not take out!). It frustrates me because I'm constantly having to ask him when he'll be off during the week, but like you said, at least we're lucky enough to have jobs and not be too worried about money.
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@MaryM: I do think we will make plans for a decent dinner on the nights when he is home on the weekends. And I know we'll both adjust to this new normal. I imagine if this is PMS related the rest of this week will be a crappy one . AF should arrive on Saturday and then hopefully my hormones even out!
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@HappyBluebird: But this is an AF to be celebrated, right? Since you get to TTC next cycle!
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@MaryM: Yes! Very true!
It's been awhile since I've celebrated AF's arrival!
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Now I need to vent
I love my doctors. They're so kind and thoughtful and really make me feel comfortable.
But they are so freaking disorganized (as an office)!!
I left a VM Monday about needing to reschedule the appointment I made when I had to cancel my Tuesday appointment because of snow. they didn't call me back that day, but I figured, ok. They're probably busy rescheduling everyone.
I called back today. I was put on hold for more than 5 minutes and then was disconnected. When I called back, I got voicemail, again.
I'd really love to just make a simple appointment without spending a week doing it!
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@MaryM: Ugh! I have a doctor that I really love but his office is absolutely horrible. He's just a GP so I only see him once per year usually. Sorry you're having such a hard time, especially when its an important appointment! Hope they get back to you soon!
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@HappyBluebird: My favorite office person (my doctor's wife) did end up calling back. She's more an office manager than a scheduler, so that proves they're overwhelmed!
The last time it was this bad was when I was KU. That time I actually lost it on some poor unsuspecting guy they had answering the phone at the time.
I'll be going in midday March 4.
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@MaryM: glad you got a call back and made an appointment!
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Having another down day. I was so positive yesterday, hearing that the cyst has gone... and praying we'd get a period. Woke up this morning with more pregnancy announcements and tests, and I just feel like I've been kicked in the guts. I'm actually getting terrified that this just won't happen for us. This is so unfair.
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@jaguar: I posted to you in the other thread, but
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@jaguar: I get Story People emails each day, and some days, they really help me to refocus and be more positive. If you'd like to get them too, you can sign up at the bottom of this page http://campaign.r20.constantcontact.com/render?ca=78000d78-9b82-4ea1-8642-b5e678350ffa&c=36c94100-cc17-11e3-bbbd-d4ae52753a3b&ch=37ae49d0-cc17-11e3-bc16-d4ae52753a3b.
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@MaryM:
Thank you for this! I can't resist cute animals! It put a smile on my face last night!@jaguar: I'm so sorry you had another down day. I hope that you were able to do something nice for yourself and that the next day is better than the last. So much
to you!
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@HappyBluebird: I knew the dogs would get you!
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@MaryM: I'm a sucker for cute pups!
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speaking of cute pups, I found out last night my brother's family is getting an old english sheepdog after easter.
that's my happy place today. I dare you to google image them and not say aww.
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@MaryM: Too cute! My grandmother had a dog that looked like an old english sheepdog. He was from the pound so we never knew what he actually was but he was the cutest!
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i have a soft spot for all sheep dogs. our most favorite dog ever was a mix (but his mother was a sheep dog of some sort). He was so incredibly smart and kind
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I LOVE puppies! My (not so little) Spencer pup always makes me smile
So, I have to say.... I was hoping AF would be here by now. My last pill was on Sunday, and it's Wednesday here. I will lose my everloving mind if this is a no show again.
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@jaguar: What kind of dog is Spencer? Our pup is "not so little" too.
Hoping AF arrives soon for you!
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@HappyBluebird: Spencer's a golden retriever. A big, gentle giant.
Still no signs. It's been four days now!
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@jaguar: adorable! Our neighbors have a golden and he's such a happy dog!
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@HappyBluebird: Such an amazing dog. We brought him home after our first IVF failed, and he got us through some really tough times - and has been a good cuddle monkey over the last year of disappointment too.
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@jaguar: I swear our dog knows exactly when we need a good cuddle. For both DH and I, she's been the best cuddle buddy when we're having a bad day.
Ugh and I'm sorry AF hasn't shown herself yet. I really hope its not a drawn out thing for you
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Period! Period! CD1!
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@jaguar: woo hoo !!! So happy for you! I'll be CD1 tomorrow probably!
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@jaguar: YAY!!!
Anyone doing anything fun for the weekend? I feel guilty leaving our house (it's a complete wreck...we got the basement, kitchen, and master bed and bath painted this week). But I haven't been home since Christmas and I need to borrow a smaller coffee table from my mom, so I'm heading home since DH works all weekend.
Plus my 7 year old niece texted me this week asking when I'd be visiting because she misses me. How can I say no to that??
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@jaguar: good job uterus!!
im having an ughhh day. was rushed off my feet yesterday and had a cranky toddler, family things have had a bit of an impact. major anxiety attacks all through the night, DD kept waking up and screaming muuuuuum! hubby was supposed to be home today (was meeting some friends for lunch) and he got called into work even though he said he would be away today from last week. he was PISSED. i'm finding I cant stop my heart from racing to calm down and rather teary.
my opk was also being stupid. 2 days ago had "low", yesterday had "high" (CD10) and then I went to test again and its got a static smiley face as if its "peak". wtf happened there I don't know, but won't read my pee stick now. so I did it anyway and I suppose you can kind of tell the result by looking at the lines on the stick. meeeeeehhhhh.
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@jaguar: Yayyyy!! You too @happybluebird! A new cycle, a new chance, a fresh start.
I posted this in the March POAS thread, but I know some of us don't venture ofter over there very often for good reason. I am super hopeful that I ovulated a day or two ago! CD 20 or 21 I think, which is a huge improvement from day 31 & 34 of the last cycles!! Even if I don't get pregnant, I'm just trying to be very thankful for the fact that at least I ovulated semi on time. I think it was the extra B vitamins in my prenatal, so I'm switching brands. And better yet my husband and I were actually able to enjoy trying, rather than getting tired out and frustrated. so Currently I am quite thankful.
As for this weekend, I'm getting together with some ladies from church to talk and pray about life, going to yoga class, and having DH's coworkers over for a party. @MaryM your neice sounds sweet and fun, texting at age 7!
@fannymae: ugh, that sounds like a bad combo of things! I hope you can find some more relaxation this weekend!
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@HappyBluebird: Yay! We're almost cycle buds. xx
@MaryM: I think a visit sounds great!
We're having a birthday dinner for my MIL here tonight. Lemon meringue in the fridge cooling, and I'm doing a roast later on this afternoon. Hopefully it works out! @FannyMae: *hugs* Keep breathing lovely. Those stressful days are HARD. Have you got any cheapo sticks you could try instead?
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@DesertDreams88: That's brilliant! Man, I'd kill for ovulation at any point - so I think having it earlier is a total win. Hurray!
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@FannyMae: major hugs to you dear. That's a lot to handle.
@DesertDreams88: good luck! My niece started texting me short messages (from her mom's phone) when I was there over Christmas. I love it! I didn't engage much at first beyond the random "hi!", but then I figured it's probably good for her to write more. It's been so fun!
@jaguar: lemon meringue sounds awesome!
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@jaguar: lemon meringue you say? I could inhale half a cake today.... maybe I should sneak off to the supermarket for something sweet
haven't got any cheapy opk's, and I honestly can't be bothered with it now. I think you can still "manually" read it on the pee stick that you insert as it has 2 lines like the cheapies. went out for a late lunch/shopping with hubby once he got home, so that made us both feel a lot better.
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@FannyMae: I KNOW. I have a roast pork cooking in the oven, about to put some veggies in... and I'm STARVING. This AF has made me hungry, man. And I would love to eat the dessert first!
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Just checking in with my ladies. How are you guys doing?
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@jaguar: been slammed at work today with first of the month paperwork (I do book keeping for our business). absolutely exhausted. still confused with my OPK, stupid thing. Pretty sure I ovulated after CD10's peak, could be wrong though. Feeling lazy with dinner tonight, might just be some chicken tenders and potato salad. my kid has passed out on the couch as soon as we got home, which means a troublesome bed time tonight arrrgh
He'll work this schedule every weekday and some weekends. We'll have the weekends he doesn't work and the morning on the weekends he does work for spending time together. I'm trying not to be upset about it because it really is good for us in terms of money and benefits. I guess today is when I stupidly realized he really won't be home at all in the evenings. On top of everything else that is making me whiny today. 
Thank you for this! I can't resist cute animals! It put a smile on my face last night!
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