So we found out yesterday that we are having another boy, and I am definitely struggling with this. My whole life I pictured having a girl, I have had dreams about her. Both my husband and I really wanted a girl, and waking up today just felt kind of stale. We both have lots of boy grandsons in our families, so we are both not excited to announce to our families, because we know everyone wanted a girl.

I am 39, so this will likely be our last. And my son as a baby and toddler was EXCEPTIONAL, always smiling, happy, and just larger than life with personality. I fear that I will always compare the second boy to him, since he left some big shoes to fill.

And lastly, along with that larger than life personality has now come a HANDFUL of a 2.5 year old. I am scared! I don't want another handful! Boys definitely are a lot of work.

Ugh, anyone else go through this? Any words of wisdom would be greatly appreciated right now. I HATE that I feel this way, I feel so guilty and shameful that I even have these thoughts!