I became a Mom in 2012. I wanted to be different from my parents. More loving and nurturing. More affectionate. More positive. I didn't want yelling and spanking and fights.

I have sailed through motherhood so far looking down on those whose kids don't sleep, don't listen, don't act like mine. I thought I had this Mom Thing down. I would see people spank their kids in public and I was all "Oh my goodness! WE don't do that! WE do just fine without that!" And to be 1000% honest, I thought I was above it. I thought I was too educated, civilized, ABOVE "those" people...

And then....

Three happened.

Or it's happening in a few days. And the past several weeks - it's like a switch flipped. She's nuts. She's possessed. She's not the child I've known since December 4, 2012.

At least once daily for the past few weeks, she has had a temper tantrum SO BAD, that it leaves me stunned. It's like a freak show. I try all kinds of reasoning, time out, even bribery. I try calming her down by hugging her or just being loving and trying to reason with her. Nope. All logics and previous behavior are thrown out the window.

She had a tantrum today so bad that she wet her pants. Because she wanted candy as soon as she got up and I said no.

So guys. Not out of anger. Not because I lost control. Just because I honestly didn't know what to do. I spanked her. I'm not proud of it. I don't want to be that person. But I exhausted all options and I still had a screaming, snotty, kicking asshole, writhing on the floor.

We sailed through the twos. But the threes are going to double my Zoloft dose.

What do you do when absolutely every reasonable discipline or even negotiation doesn't work?