I don't remember being anxious when TTC DS (3rd cycle trying, 1st on monitor), aside from First-Timer cluelessness.

But now that we're officially past the 3rd active cycle (all three using monitor, 2x with good timing, and a CP in cycle 2).... I go through waves of emotions that I was not expecting!

Most days I'm fine, but then other days something triggers my insanity and I get so mental about TTC, needless worry about secondary IF, etc.

Anyway, I've been going to the gym and doing more around the house to keep myself distracted. DH has been super sweet too which always helps me stay focused on today instead of wrapping my life around the whole TTC/BFP process. I'm really trying to let go, and letting God, as for me, I know it is all in His good timing.