https://boards.hellobee.com/ Pregnancy, Baby and Parenting blog, by Hellobee en Tue, 21 Apr 2026 10:19:36 +0000 https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/2ww-internal-dialogue-drama-how-do-you-deal#post-1303372 Fri, 27 Dec 2013 15:29:00 +0000 HolisticMama 1303372@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I'm learning to come to terms that I can just feel my feelings- not pass judgement. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/2ww-internal-dialogue-drama-how-do-you-deal#post-1300942 Thu, 26 Dec 2013 09:05:59 +0000 lunarsongbird 1300942@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Our morphology is grim and DH's sperm count is low. The reproductive endocrinologist speculates I lost many eggs during a surgery I had to remove a ovarian dermoid cyst a few years ago. The ovarian assessment report pegged my fertility as someone in their mid-40s. -_-</p> <p>He wants me to go back in next month and see what my egg count is doing. Hopefully I'm not rapidly losing eggs. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/2ww-internal-dialogue-drama-how-do-you-deal#post-1300326 Wed, 25 Dec 2013 03:04:59 +0000 CatchAFallingStar 1300326@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@lunarsongbird: Why only a 1% chance? Baby wishes to you!! </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/2ww-internal-dialogue-drama-how-do-you-deal#post-1295871 Sat, 21 Dec 2013 15:57:01 +0000 Snowdrop 1295871@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Yes come and join us on the POAS threads :happy: </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/2ww-internal-dialogue-drama-how-do-you-deal#post-1295821 Sat, 21 Dec 2013 15:22:51 +0000 LovelyPlum 1295821@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Yes times a million! And if you'd like to join in with other ladies who are in the exact same spot so you can all go crazy together, introduce yourself here:</p> <p><a href="http://boards.hellobee.com/topic/a-magical-month-of-bfps-aka-december-poas" rel="nofollow">http://boards.hellobee.com/topic/a-magical-month-of-bfps-aka-december-poas</a></p> <p>That thread exists so people don't lose their mind while in the TWW (and before, and after). Don't worry that it's late in the month, they'll be glad to have you! There's a new one for every month.</p> <p>Also, if you'd like some perspective of some people who are also dealing with REs and other infertility related things, feel free to check in here as well: </p> <p><a href="http://boards.hellobee.com/topic/if-check-in-1219" rel="nofollow">http://boards.hellobee.com/topic/if-check-in-1219</a></p> <p>Either way, yes, the TWW is completely brutal. But you're in good company. Good luck this month, and welcome to the bee! </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/2ww-internal-dialogue-drama-how-do-you-deal#post-1295750 Sat, 21 Dec 2013 14:03:59 +0000 Greentea 1295750@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Back in the day even when preventing every once in awhile I would be late and start freaking out. I made a rule: assume I am not until I actually for sure am! </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/2ww-internal-dialogue-drama-how-do-you-deal#post-1295703 Sat, 21 Dec 2013 12:54:53 +0000 lunarsongbird 1295703@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I also think that one of the problems is that for the last year- preparing for TTC HAS been my project: <a href="https://www.facebook.com/lunarsongbird/media_set?set=a.10100294242387990.1073741831.29901698&#038;type=3" rel="nofollow">https://www.facebook.com/lunarsongbird/media_set?set=a.10100294242387990.1073741831.29901698&#038;type=3</a></p> <p>I have no idea what to do with myself now. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/2ww-internal-dialogue-drama-how-do-you-deal#post-1295700 Sat, 21 Dec 2013 12:53:17 +0000 lunarsongbird 1295700@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I don't know why I didn't realize that 2WW would be so difficult and that I would feel so conflicted. I told DH yesterday that a large part of me wish that we didn't do any fertility testing before even trying. He responded, "Sometimes ignorance is bliss." </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/2ww-internal-dialogue-drama-how-do-you-deal#post-1295683 Sat, 21 Dec 2013 12:42:40 +0000 Mrs. Confetti 1295683@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I hate hate hate the TWW. I have found that the best way to deal for me is staying busy and distracted (so only right at bed time do I let my mind go crazy....). Burying myself in a project keeps my mind from doing exactly what yours does 80% of the time. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/2ww-internal-dialogue-drama-how-do-you-deal#post-1295679 Sat, 21 Dec 2013 12:39:18 +0000 lunarsongbird 1295679@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>My DH and I have embarked on Cycle 1 this month. Like many here, I have always wanted to be a mom. I'm also fascinated by birth and have considered becoming a doula someday. So I set out this year to completely ready myself for this part of our lives. I lost 50 pounds and completely changed my lifestyle. I've been taking care of my health and that's also why I ended up in a reproductive endocrinologist's office. Three years ago I had a ovarian cyst removed and afterwards my hormones were unbalanced. So I wanted to get them checked this year- and he wanted to do ALL the checking. Thus- DH and I found out that we only have a 1% chance of conceiving. </p> <p>And here we are at our first 2WW. And it sounds a bit like this in my head: </p> <p>__Angel on my Shoulder:__<br /> Wow! We could really be pregnant! This is so exciting! The moment we have been waiting and preparing for. I know we shouldn't be symptom spotting, but you have been having cramping and your sense of smell is that of a freak now. Maybe that's a good sign? Besides- what's so wrong with getting your hopes up? It's not often that you get to experience so much hope in a moment. </p> <p>"Hope is some extraordinary spiritual grace that God gives us to control our fears, not to oust them." ~Vincent McNabb</p> <p>Even if you get disappointed in a couple of weeks- the magic of hope is pretty special. </p> <p>__Devil on my Shoulder:__<br /> You are a ridiculous woman. You have a 1% chance. ONE PERCENT. And you only DTD THREE days ago. There is NO way that you can be feeling ANYTHING. Prepare yourself for disappointment, lady. </p> <p>__Me:__</p> <p>:: sigh :: What's a girl to do? Will this get easier? AM I possibly pregnant? That would be amazing. And those negative thoughts simply aren't healthy. </p> <p>__________</p> <p>Have you ever experienced this 2WW battle? How have you learned to silence it? </p>