https://boards.hellobee.com/ Pregnancy, Baby and Parenting blog, by Hellobee en Sat, 23 May 2026 13:01:41 +0000 https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/an-unexpected-end#post-1885082 Wed, 01 Oct 2014 22:45:52 +0000 LovelyPlum 1885082@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@MamaPhoenix: oh my gosh, Mama, I'm so sorry. But you are one STRONG lady. What an incredible accomplishment. Hang in there these next 9 days, and good luck with your surgery :heart: </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/an-unexpected-end#post-1885080 Wed, 01 Oct 2014 22:39:18 +0000 MamaPhoenix 1885080@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Thank you everyone for taking the time to read my post and for all the wonderful responses. I don't feel like I am any better than any other mom out there. Whether you breastfed or not, for a short time or a long time, Or just strictly formula. I just want to share as much information as possible. I pray that no other mama's out there have to experience what I've been through this last year. But if they do then I hope I've helped in some way, shape or form.<br /> On a side note, Dh came home from work this morning to inform me that today was indeed Oct 1. Today was the day I had to start my med for surgery. I thought I had 3 more days, but I was wrong.<br /> I nursed DD one last time this morning and cherished every last second of it. She seems to be handling it well so far. It was a little sad at bedtime because she tried to pull my shirt down. I just held her close and rocked her. ( she had a bit of water from her sippy cup just before)<br /> This medication (Iodine) is horrid. It makes my mouth taste like metal and my tongue feel burnt. I spit profusely after ingesting it. 9 more days of this. :bummed: </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/an-unexpected-end#post-1884945 Wed, 01 Oct 2014 19:54:04 +0000 artsyfartsy 1884945@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Hugs!! Thank yiu for sharing your story. I'm sorry it has to end. I know I would feel the same way </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/an-unexpected-end#post-1884929 Wed, 01 Oct 2014 19:39:29 +0000 Vegmama 1884929@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@MamaPhoenix: You are amazing. Thank you for sharing, so we could tell you how strong you are!!! I hope your surgery goes smoothly!! Do you have any photos of your LO breastfeeding? If so, I've had other mamas tell me to print them in a photo book to look back on once nursing is done. Whether it's 1 nursing session or 1,000, you gave your baby such a gift. Be gentle with yourself, and I hope you can look at this as the beginning of a new you! :) </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/an-unexpected-end#post-1883754 Wed, 01 Oct 2014 07:04:35 +0000 catomd00 1883754@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I can only imagine how emotional this time is for you. You should be so proud of yourself though! You have come so far. Baby needs her mama healthy! Best of luck with your surgery. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/an-unexpected-end#post-1883748 Wed, 01 Oct 2014 06:59:10 +0000 Mamaof2 1883748@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Huge hugs mama! You are amazing and when lots of women would have just given up you pressed on! You should be super proud of yourself! Sorry its ending on someone else's terms but you need to take care of you too :heart: </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/an-unexpected-end#post-1883742 Wed, 01 Oct 2014 06:52:10 +0000 spartysammy 1883742@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>As someone who has also struggled with BFing I can only imagine how it feels to be taken from you and your baby. Many hugs for you. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/an-unexpected-end#post-1883714 Wed, 01 Oct 2014 06:20:10 +0000 Orchid 1883714@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@MamaPhoenix: you should be so proud! You fought so hard to breastfeed your babe and you did it!!Now you are doing what's best for her and you! I can only imagine what you must be feeling. Hugs to you! </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/an-unexpected-end#post-1883693 Wed, 01 Oct 2014 05:05:29 +0000 Mrs. Coral 1883693@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Hugs! You are such a great mama!!! </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/an-unexpected-end#post-1883661 Wed, 01 Oct 2014 01:14:26 +0000 Mrs. M 1883661@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Hugs! </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/an-unexpected-end#post-1883650 Wed, 01 Oct 2014 00:13:26 +0000 birdofafeather 1883650@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>You're a rock star mama, not only for BFing, but for taking awesome care of your baby while you were sick yourself. Cherish these last couple days of BFing but know that the next adventure with your girl is just around the corner. Your wellness and health is important for you and your family! Best of luck on your surgery. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/an-unexpected-end#post-1883649 Wed, 01 Oct 2014 00:11:45 +0000 MrsMccarthy 1883649@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Sending lots of love your way! You are amazing for working so hard to make nursing work for your baby. It's above and beyond what most people would go through. You did everything you could for your baby and she is healthy and soon her momma will be too. She will love you and need you just as much as ever. Don't worry. Enjoy and document this next few days with a few photos and maybe a journal. But don't worry you have a lot of wonderful things ahead. Weaning my son was so hard, I had to do so to become pregnant but in the end it honestly worked out best for all parties and my son is now more attached to me than ever. :heart: </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/an-unexpected-end#post-1883645 Tue, 30 Sep 2014 23:54:25 +0000 HLK208 1883645@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Oh my gosh! What a struggle--but an amazing accomplishment. You should be very proud of yourself! &lt;3 I'm sorry it had to end so abruptly :( </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/an-unexpected-end#post-1883644 Tue, 30 Sep 2014 23:42:20 +0000 Kemma 1883644@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@MamaPhoenix: hugs to you Mama and good luck with your surgery! </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/an-unexpected-end#post-1883642 Tue, 30 Sep 2014 23:36:02 +0000 MamaPhoenix 1883642@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>10 years ago if you had asked a 22 year old me if I was gonna breastfeed, I probably would of laughed in your face. I wasn't a huge fan of kids let alone one hanging off my breast. Then 5 years ago my sister had a baby boy and slapped him right on the boob. It was my first and brief introduction to breastfeeding. She lasted 5 months. She quit so she could start smoking again. ( a whole other story for another day). She never talked about what it was like or what she struggled with. I was so wrapped up in my work that I never took the time to ask either.<br /> Fast forward to the week before baby phoenix was born. People kept asking, as if stating "your going to breastfeed right?" I had not made up my mind. I knew nothing. I knew it was the whole "fad" right now. Was I going to jump on that band wagon or not? I did not know. I was totally squirmy just thinking about it. Breast where sexual objects to me and that was that.<br /> But I was open to trying at least.<br /> The day came when she arrived. Within the first half hour of her life multiple nurses had my breast man handled and contorted to fit her tiny mouth. It felt weird. I had no Idea what I was doing. Within the next few days I got more and more comfortable with the idea. I was really enjoying these moments with her that I knew were just for us.<br /> Then things started to go downhill.<br /> She didn't gain her birth weight back for two weeks. We where constantly going to the Doc for weight ins. At four months old baby phoenix was not gaining like she should. She was crying and screaming, pulling off the breast and screaming only to re-latch and do it all over again. She had one bowl movement a week.<br /> I had remembered that when we were in the hospital a nurse had mentioned in passing that baby phoenix looked tongue tied. I brushed it off because I saw nothing at that time and forgot about it. I meet up with an a Dentist I knew about after having a long talk with 3 different lactation consultants. Dr.K took one look and saw a posterior tongue tie and a lip tie. The next day DD had both laser'd. Her latch had improved immediately. I thought it was all over and we would have smooth sailing from there on out.<br /> I was wrong.<br /> At 5 months baby phoenix had not gained much. She began with the pulling off screaming, arching, re-latching all over again. I went back to the lactation consultants. My supply had dropped drastically. Now you would think that with having the latch fixed and proper nursing happening my supply would become efficient. Here's where things get complicated. Because of my graves disease (hyperthyroid) I was taking PTU. This medication slows the thyroid hormone production down. It also caused my milk supply to plummet.<br /> I was at the Doc's the next day.<br /> I started my regiment of 9 Domperidone, 9 Blessed thistle, and 9 Fenugreek pills a day while still continuing to take my 3 Ptu pills and a horse size prenatal a day as well. My supply shot back up. I was a pumping machine. I could get 10 oz out of one boob after little miss nursed. I felt relief that this was it. I would finally be able to nourish my baby and she would grow!!!!<br /> But it wasn't over.<br /> Months went by and baby phoenix grew and gained. She was thriving and I had an amazing supply, but I started going down hill. I wasn't doing good at all. Some days I struggled to get out of bed. All my graves symptom came back with a vengeance. My disease was out of control. My blood pressure was high and my heart raced at 116bpm. I didn't know what was wrong. I was still taking all my meds. Why was this happening?<br /> I come to find out that because of the Fenugreek my thyroid was unable to absorb the Ptu medication.<br /> I needed to stop the fenugreek asap. By this time DD was 8 months and eating solids and I knew it was time to let whatever was gonna happen....happen. I dropped all the meds except my ptu and a prenatal. I started to feel better as each week went on. DD was still thriving and I still had milk. An ok amount, it had dropped a bit. Her eating solids helped contribute there too.<br /> So life went on.<br /> I was given a date for surgery and baby girl kept nursing. She is now 11 months turning one on the 18th. yay!!!!<br /> I was giving a prescription to take everyday 10 days before my surgery.<br /> Iodine (Lugol's solution)<br /> To soften the thyroid and prepare it for surgery. It helps with blood loss too.<br /> It also passes into breastmilk and pools in the tissues.<br /> If baby girl ingest this she will kill off her baby thyroid.<br /> I'm being forced to quite one of my biggest accomplishment (aside from creating and birthing her) In a very sort time frame.<br /> I have 3 days left before it all ends for good.<br /> I'm very emotional and sad about it and there's nothing I can do to change this. I almost feel robbed. I worked and fought so hard for this. I wanted it to end when SHE made it end.<br /> I am proud that I made it this far. I can only pray that with Lo#2 I will be given the opportunity to end things Our way.<br /> If your stuck around and read this whole thing.......Thank you.<br /> I just really needed to get it off my chest. </p>