https://boards.hellobee.com/ Pregnancy, Baby and Parenting blog, by Hellobee en Fri, 24 Apr 2026 09:21:32 +0000 https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644987 Sat, 29 Oct 2016 19:20:00 +0000 catomd00 2644987@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@Silva: so interesting! I definitely wanted to gnaw on my baby's hair when I would kiss her head! lol. So bizarre. </p> <p>I def had some mild PPD/PPA type thoughts with DD1, but they were normal baby blues stuff and resolved quickly on their own. With DD2 I started out fine but gradually got worse around 6 weeks PP, but I had s lot of other external stressors going on. I was already in therapy at that point and after a month or so we decided to try meds. Couldn't be happier with the result. I have always had on and off depression/anxiety so it wasn't a big surprise. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644931 Sat, 29 Oct 2016 12:59:42 +0000 Silva 2644931@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>This article has a theory about the biting thing, which is fairly common<br /> <a href="https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/why-do-we-want-to-bite-cute-things-like-adorable-newborn-babies/" rel="nofollow">https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/why-do-we-want-to-bite-cute-things-like-adorable-newborn-babies/</a> </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644930 Sat, 29 Oct 2016 12:54:01 +0000 DesertDreams88 2644930@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Definitely. At 9m PP I think it's a little late and pricey now to get therapy (especially considering how much better I am doing) but next time I get pregnant, therapy is on the top of my list mainly in regards to anxiety.</p> <p>In the past, I have slept-walked and/or taken off my clothes in the MOTN without realizing it. So I had this horrible fear that I'd knock over the RnP or throw blankets / clothes on it and LO would suffocate silently. Lots of fear about sleep safety.</p> <p>I also had paralyzing fears about germs. Sneezes &amp; coughs without people covering their noses/mouths, husband not washing his hands when coming home from school, not cleaning the pump parts or bottles well enough, breastmilk going bad, etc.</p> <p>I didn't / don't like taking LO outside at my house because of our open pool (we have a sliding, pressure-sealed, self-locking door that can only be opened from 4ft up), possible scorpions (never seen one at my house), xeriscaped yard (little rocks), and poisonous plants. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644871 Sat, 29 Oct 2016 07:38:11 +0000 Miss Ariel 2644871@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@Mama Bird: there was, I remember that thread too! </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644869 Sat, 29 Oct 2016 07:31:45 +0000 Mama Bird 2644869@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@Miss Ariel: Yes, I think this must be it! That is just the worst realization to carry around every day. And I think those intrusive thoughts might just be a weird way our mind reminds us to be extra careful.</p> <p>@sapphire: @SweetiePie: I heard my pump taking to me too! I think there was a whole thread here a while ago about what people were hearing :silly: Sometimes it was creepy stuff that gave me an extra reason to hate pumping. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644867 Sat, 29 Oct 2016 07:22:13 +0000 avivoca 2644867@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>It was bad in my last pregnancy. I worried a lot about H getting hurt and me not being fast enough because of my belly. A big trigger was heat related death, I obsessed about it and constantly checked my car even though I knew she wasn't there. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644866 Sat, 29 Oct 2016 07:15:01 +0000 SweetiePie 2644866@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@sapphire: I also heard my pump talking to me. I heard various weird words and phrases. I eventually had to always wear earbuds and listen to music because it was driving me crazy. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644865 Sat, 29 Oct 2016 07:13:19 +0000 SweetiePie 2644865@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I had images of awful accidents happening and being afraid people would think I hurt him on purpose. Like you said with knives, I'd have a crazy fear that somehow I'd accidentally drop a knife and it would stab him but everyone would think I did it on purpose because they knew I was struggling with being a new mom. Which is crazy because I'm not even sure in what scenario I could drop a knife and it would come close to him.<br /> I told my therapist at the time and she did say it was normal. As long as I wasn't envisioning hurting him on purpose. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644859 Sat, 29 Oct 2016 06:49:57 +0000 YogiRunner 2644859@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@Miss Ariel: YES! That was the source of a lot of it for me.<br /> @tinyperson: So I actually did fall down the stairs when he was 2 weeks old. He was fine, but I bruised my back and went to the ER that night to get checked out. I asked the doc to look at the baby, but he said if he was acting normal he was totally fine, that my cradling arm protected him. So it helped a little to have a fear come true and come out the other side! But I still only told 1-2 close friends about it. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644857 Sat, 29 Oct 2016 06:45:44 +0000 YogiRunner 2644857@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Ah yes the fear of impending doom. It's like you can't stop your brain from picturing all the possible bad things and in way too much detail :bummed: Like others I was (still am) afraid of car accidents. I particularly HATE the highway still because people drive like idiots and accidents can happen so fast. I also watched Game of Thrones which was a BAD idea for a lady with PPA with one particular scene that made me sob uncontrollably. </p> <p>But I think it's important for moms to know they're not crazy or a bad person, and there is no shame in asking for help :heart: </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644842 Sat, 29 Oct 2016 04:59:56 +0000 Miss Ariel 2644842@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I think for me it's a realization of how helpless they are. Like if I wanted to do xyz I could and there's nothing they could physically do to stop it </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644838 Sat, 29 Oct 2016 04:35:55 +0000 tinyperson 2644838@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I was afraid of stairs with my second. Like what if I trip going down the stairs and she goes flying down to the tile floor. That one was recurring. It didn't stop me from going up and down but it did invade my thoughts usually while nursing and thinking about what I'd be doing next. I think I was so paranoid about it because I had a really bad fall face first in the street at 8 months pregnant that scarred my face and broke my glasses (but could have been so much worse). </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644833 Sat, 29 Oct 2016 03:06:40 +0000 mrschickpea 2644833@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I had terrible PPA that completely caught me off guard. For the first 2 week of DD's life I was so so emotion and petrified of everything. I thought when DH left for the night at the hospital, that he wouldn't come back and I didnt think I deserved him or DD. The range of emotions and ideas that popped in my head was astounding and so scary. I did recognize it as PPA and it gradually went away around 2 weeks PP. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644805 Fri, 28 Oct 2016 21:33:02 +0000 sapphire 2644805@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I didn't really have anything like the above but I did feel like my pump was talking to me, and usually it was something really negative that I was hearing over and over again. Didn't help my output because I could never relax while pumping because I was hearing negative messages. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644787 Fri, 28 Oct 2016 20:57:14 +0000 ShootingStar 2644787@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I don't remember if I did with DS. But now with DD I have random fears about accidentally hurting her. I'm a pretty clumsy person and I'm sometimes afraid I'll accidentally break her. Like her neck, or even just a finger. She likes to get her hands out of her swaddle and the placement will make me nervous. </p> <p>It's weird because I'm not afraid to dress her or hold her or anything. I'm just afraid of being careless. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644771 Fri, 28 Oct 2016 20:26:48 +0000 petitenoisette 2644771@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@Anya: @Mrs. Sunshine: another vote for biting. Glad to realize I'm not the only one! I figure it's just another intrusive thought. </p> <p>I have some other dark intrusive thoughts too but I won't even write them down because that would make me nervous. Thankfully they only pop up every once in a while. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644663 Fri, 28 Oct 2016 16:02:22 +0000 Chuckles 2644663@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>It's reassuring to know that these kinds of things happen to other moms, too. I didn't have many intense, intrusive thoughts, but I had a weird recurring thought about pushing my finger into his soft spot. Not exactly an urge to do it, just like, that would be a bad thing to do. We also had a balcony two flights up and I was paranoid about standing anywhere near the railing with him in case he suddenly flung himself out of my arms. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644648 Fri, 28 Oct 2016 15:27:23 +0000 Cole 2644648@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@catlady: That was me too! I didn't realize that it wasn't quite right either until really recently, I almost patted myself on the back for being a "proper mama bear." </p> <p>Closer to her first birthday I read the phrase "fear of impending doom" and was like it all clicked that this wasn't normal stuff I had (and sometimes still have) this enormous fear of impending doom. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644642 Fri, 28 Oct 2016 15:23:24 +0000 Cole 2644642@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I did, it was always when I was sleep deprived so I kept telling myself it was that and not postpartum related but it's all so intertwined. I'm not even pregnant yet with my next child and I've already started a list of ways to avoid that next time because it scares more than anything else about having a newborn. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644639 Fri, 28 Oct 2016 15:19:38 +0000 twodoghouse 2644639@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I had some weird thoughts the first 12 hrs. I didn't really believe B was my baby. I thought he was an alien or something. He was so tiny (a couple pounds smaller than we expected) and weird looking. And we had a difficult time with his delivery and I didn't really believe he was ok. They kept telling me he was but I just didn't believe them. I was on a ton of drugs because I had an emergency c section after my epidural failed repeatedly so they gave me everything possible to calm me down and make sure I wasn't feeling pain (I was freaking out that I would feel them cutting me but I really couldn't feel it). So I think I was just in shock from all the chaos of delivery. Also, I kept accidentally calling Blake by the nice anesthesiologist's name. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644634 Fri, 28 Oct 2016 15:12:31 +0000 youboots 2644634@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@LAZB: :heart: </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644630 Fri, 28 Oct 2016 15:08:16 +0000 LAZB 2644630@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I had some anxiety with my first, and definitely had it with my second. A lot of that was because our first passed away when he was only 6 weeks old, so I was paranoid about the same things happening. I'm pretty sure I'll feel the same way this time, but fortunately we have a very supportive pediatrician. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644620 Fri, 28 Oct 2016 14:41:38 +0000 youboots 2644620@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Yup. Good thing I had a therapist already. I struggle with anxiety though. I still worry she will die in her crib sometimes especially when we are traveling but the invasive totally unreasonable fear has been gone for awhile. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644619 Fri, 28 Oct 2016 14:41:06 +0000 catlady 2644619@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I had mama bear thoughts if someone else was holding her, especially if it was a another woman around my age. SIL or friends would ask to hold her, and I'd politely let them, but inside I'd be raging that they would dare take my baby from me. For weeks, I wouldn't leave anyone alone with LO except DH. I also got crazy anxiety about SIDs until she was about 6 months old. She never slept that well in the early months, so the few times she actually did sleep well, I'd be terrified that something was wrong. For my next baby, I am definitely going to get one of those monitor things (owlet or snuza or something). </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644613 Fri, 28 Oct 2016 14:34:41 +0000 MrsKoala 2644613@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Yes, I imagined the worst things happening to the point where'd i'd lose sleep over them. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644612 Fri, 28 Oct 2016 14:33:05 +0000 Mrs. Lemon-Lime 2644612@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Yes, even now I have awful thoughts. I would never share them with anyone. Sometimes I think they could have been much worse if I didn take placenta pills. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644579 Fri, 28 Oct 2016 13:57:59 +0000 oliviaoblivia 2644579@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I was afraid to leave the house after my second. I was terrified that she'd get sick and die.<br /> No problems with my other two. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644571 Fri, 28 Oct 2016 13:50:26 +0000 Mrs. Sunshine 2644571@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I was worried about sexual abuse. It was keeping me up all night and I started obsessing about what "really" happened with DD1 at my parents house after having DD2. I didn't want my dad or brother near the girls, even if I was in the room with them and I couldn't even hug my dad because I was so disturbed by the thoughts in my head. None of those fears were based on anything valid. I also (still) struggle with some post part in depression after DD2 </p> <p>@Anya: I want to bite my kids sometimes too. I'll even salivate. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644565 Fri, 28 Oct 2016 13:44:48 +0000 GreenThumb 2644565@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I was specifically paranoid about getting into a car accident every single time we went out, especially when I was driving alone with her. Like I would actually picture her hurt, it was terrible. These thoughts actually started when I was pregnant, but got much worse after she was born. Definitely PP anxiety that I never really talked about. Gotta watch out for that this time around. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/did-you-have-crazy-thoughts-after-the-birth-of-your-baby#post-2644561 Fri, 28 Oct 2016 13:39:15 +0000 travellingbee 2644561@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Yes I did for the first week. It was weird and I felt totally crazy. :( </p>