https://boards.hellobee.com/ Pregnancy, Baby and Parenting blog, by Hellobee en Wed, 20 May 2026 09:39:10 +0000 https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2909440 Sat, 01 Feb 2020 18:40:01 +0000 erinbaderin 2909440@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@CatchAFallingStar: I’m so glad you’re reaching out for help but your posting your personal phone number in a public forum makes me nervous - can you come back in, say, 48 hours and edit it out? </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2909434 Sat, 01 Feb 2020 16:58:05 +0000 CatchAFallingStar 2909434@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@Mrs. Champagne: wondering if I can contact you outside of Hellobee. I’d love to hear more about what you went through. If you can text me, my number is 541-337-7724 </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899827 Thu, 17 Oct 2019 09:48:53 +0000 graceandjoy 2899827@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@CatchAFallingStar: :heart: Just want to send you a big virtual hug :heart: </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899756 Wed, 16 Oct 2019 16:48:03 +0000 Littlebit7 2899756@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I wasn’t trying to be harsh, more of just a gut-check for you. When you aren’t in control of your mental health and spiraling, things that you’d never do might happen because your perceived reality isn’t actual reality. And your brain isn’t being rational and making good decisions. We all care about you, and have seen your repeated cries for help in your posts...we just just want to make sure you are getting the help you need. Glad you are considering changing therapists and the intensive outpatient program. I am actually looking for something similar for a family member. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899733 Wed, 16 Oct 2019 11:10:57 +0000 psw27 2899733@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@CatchAFallingStar: Sending you lots of love and support. I'm so sorry you are going through this. It is terrible the way the mind can make us feel sometimes. I'm sure you know coping mechanisms that help you - for me it is exercise, fresh air, meditation, focusing on minutiae (I am present in this moment. I feel my body on the chair. I am breathing deeply) to pass the anxiety and panic. I hope your insurance comes through and you can start the new program. :heart: </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899702 Wed, 16 Oct 2019 06:45:58 +0000 erinbaderin 2899702@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>It was very brave of you to ask for help, both from us and from the people in your world. I’m glad to hear your update, I hope you’re able soon to start feeling better. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899699 Wed, 16 Oct 2019 06:03:08 +0000 cyoung 2899699@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@CatchAFallingStar: I’m glad you are doing better!!! Kiddos to you for looking for a new therapist. It’s not easy to make that decision sometimes. When it comes to mental health it’s the small victories some days. I’ve been dealing with PPD so I understand the feeling. I know when I’m pregnant my hormones got wacky with my most recent baby. I’d never hurt myself or my kids but some days did seem dark.<br /> Glad you could update us. Sending virtual hugs your way. :heart: </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899683 Tue, 15 Oct 2019 18:48:25 +0000 crazydoglady 2899683@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@CatchAFallingStar: I am SO happy to read this update. We care about you and want you to be well. I think finding a new therapist for after your out-patient care is a great call. I'm sure they will have recommendations, too! </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899678 Tue, 15 Oct 2019 18:21:30 +0000 Mrs. Champagne 2899678@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@CatchAFallingStar: glad you’re getting some help and that your husband is home. So hard doing the solo thing. Thinking of you </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899662 Tue, 15 Oct 2019 14:44:54 +0000 CatchAFallingStar 2899662@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I’m feeling a bit better today. My husband just got home after being out of state for 4 days. I’m getting into an intensive outpatient program that’s like inpatient but I will just be there 3 hours per day. I have to make sure insurance covers all or most of it. I’m also considering finding a new therapist because my current one apparently isn’t helping much. Thank you all for your concern and support. I’m not suicidal and I would never harm my children, so please don’t worry about that. I’m just going through a rough time in my life. I’m also 15 weeks pregnant and still breastfeeding my 19-month-old. So hormones may be playing a role. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899627 Tue, 15 Oct 2019 12:20:52 +0000 Littlebit7 2899627@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I'm sorry this is still debilitating you so completely. I know you've been dealing with this for quite a while, but it seems as though the urgency and the severity has increased over the past few months? What is your therapist telling you in these times of crisis? Do both your therapist and psychiatrist know the extent of the crisis you are in right now? Have they suggested some sort of inpatient treatment program? I'm worried for your health and safety, and also worried for the health and safety of your children; this particular post in particular makes me very concerned. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899601 Tue, 15 Oct 2019 10:59:39 +0000 MrsMom 2899601@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@CatchAFallingStar: I am so sorry you're going through this. I know its so hard to find the happiness in this world, especially when you have your health tested. That fear of even testing for cancer can be horribly debilitating, let alone coming back from that state when you find out you're fine. It's very hard when your heart was already starting to mourn the life you wanted. Make sure you're expressing those feeling instead of keeping them bottled. Talk to someone about how it made you feel and how you feel now. You may not have Cancer, but your mental health is just as important as a cancer diagnosis. Sending you Big Big hugs!! </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899595 Tue, 15 Oct 2019 10:39:37 +0000 Silva 2899595@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@CatchAFallingStar: hope you are okay. :heart: </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899590 Tue, 15 Oct 2019 10:11:08 +0000 LadyDi 2899590@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Just wanted to send my support. The whole HB community is behind you. I agree with what others have said, particularly @crazydoglady. Inpatient care might really help you. I hope you are reaching out to your therapist or psychiatrist today. :heart: </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899588 Tue, 15 Oct 2019 09:56:03 +0000 maybebaby 2899588@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>sending love. echoing what others have said above. this is not a normal bout of anxiety which is normal but still needs treatment. this is potentially dangerous to you and your children and you need help immediately. does your partner know where you are mentally? you have put this out in the world and i am proud of you. now you need to take action and get the help you need &lt;3 </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899566 Tue, 15 Oct 2019 07:35:07 +0000 Mama Bird 2899566@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Well for starters, are you getting enough sleep? Do you have too much on your plate? Your current treatment may need tweaking, but don't underestimate what being exhausted and sleep-deprived may be doing to your mind. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899565 Tue, 15 Oct 2019 07:10:33 +0000 LAZB 2899565@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@CatchAFallingStar: I am so sorry you’re going through this. I’m glad you will get help, you deserve to be happy again ♥️ </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899558 Mon, 14 Oct 2019 23:30:06 +0000 crazydoglady 2899558@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I know how have a psychiatrist and therapist, but do they know all this? I feel like (if they did,) they would be recommending in-patient care. </p> <p>I could be wrong, but I have a hard time believing that you are getting the best and most appropriate care for you right now. </p> <p>This really can be in the past and a turning point in your life. You WILL feel joy again. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899553 Mon, 14 Oct 2019 21:05:35 +0000 cyoung 2899553@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I’m so sorry you are going through this. I went through the same during my last pregnancy. I had to go up on my meds and that helps tremendously and I also did a few sessions of therapy. Again I know it’s tough when your mind doesn’t want to work with you and you feel zero happiness. I’ll be sending prayers your way. We are heat for you to vent and talk about anything you are feeling. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899551 Mon, 14 Oct 2019 20:15:00 +0000 pachamama 2899551@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@Mrs. Champagne: Can you share some of those tools she has you do with the health anxiety? </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899550 Mon, 14 Oct 2019 20:13:36 +0000 pachamama 2899550@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I am so sad for you. I know you're having a terrible time. I want you to get help. I know the feeling like your brain (and soul) is being hijacked. I also sat in my son's glider and sobbed. All I felt was darkness and I looked forward to NOTHING. but things for better (mine was pretty severe PPD). Thinking of you. I hope someone in your life will help . Xoxo </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899549 Mon, 14 Oct 2019 20:13:30 +0000 wrkbrk 2899549@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@CatchAFallingStar: if you have meds could they need adjusting? I was feeling overwhelmingly anxious for 3-4 weeks on end and I upped mine :/ One thing my therapist said that helped too was to try to stay in the moment not by focusing on your breath but just by narrating to yourself what you see. My daughters walls are pink. Her teddy bear is on the floor. The fan is on. It sounds hokey but works remarkably well once you make it a habit. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899546 Mon, 14 Oct 2019 19:18:57 +0000 Silva 2899546@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Please contact your therapist and/or follow the crisis plan that you've developed. Today, right now, not tomorrow.<br /> Your thoughts are symptoms of your mental illness, they are not truth and they will not be there forever. But it is extremely important that you reach out for assistance immediately. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899545 Mon, 14 Oct 2019 19:14:54 +0000 Mrs. Champagne 2899545@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@CatchAFallingStar: so sorry you’re struggling.<br /> I struggled last fall with bad bad health anxiety and it started to creep on again recently, but with tools from my therapist I feel like I can get a better handle on things quicker this time. Please seek your support (psychiatrist, etc) and be honest with them. I know you’re pregnant but I think you could find some safe anti depressants that would help so much. ❤️ Thinking of you. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899544 Mon, 14 Oct 2019 19:12:18 +0000 CatchAFallingStar 2899544@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@erinbaderin: yes, I have a therapist and psychiatrist... thank you so much for responding </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899541 Mon, 14 Oct 2019 18:47:09 +0000 erinbaderin 2899541@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>You need to talk to somebody about this - telling us is a good start, but I think you need to tell a professional. This is no way to live! And it sounds like you know this. Do you have a therapist you could talk to? Some kind of employee assistance program you could access? </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/hitting-rock-bottom#post-2899540 Mon, 14 Oct 2019 18:43:47 +0000 CatchAFallingStar 2899540@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I feel like I've hit rock bottom. I dread the time I spend with my kids. There, I said it. I'm very depressed and just went through a few months of thinking I had breast cancer (which I don't) and dealing with the mental health side of that. I have been a basket case in a lot of ways. Fear has been ruling my life. Fear of cancer. Fear of death. Fear of my kids losing their mommy. But, now I know it isn't cancer and for some reason I'm just extremely depressed to a point of standing in the middle of my daughter's room sobbing while she was at school today. I don't understand what's going on with my mind and why I can't feel the joy that I used to feel. I feel none. NO happiness. Nothing makes me excited (except maybe sleep). And the one thing I love most in the world is my kids. I'm dreading time with them I guess because I don't know how to fill it with happy moments when all I feel is darkness. </p> <p>I'm not really sure what the point of my post is. I just didn't feel like I could say these things to anyone in my life. I just feel like rock bottom has to be avoiding time with the biggest joys of my life. And, here I am. I've hit it. </p>