https://boards.hellobee.com/ Pregnancy, Baby and Parenting blog, by Hellobee en Sun, 26 Apr 2026 16:57:11 +0000 https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread/page/2#post-793412 Sat, 18 May 2013 21:08:02 +0000 T-Mom 793412@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@Katrocap: I'm sorry you are having a rough time! It has been a few years now since I went through PPD but it does get better. Actually for me it got better, and then worse, and then better again. I went on to have another baby without going through it again (i was worried PPD would strike again) so that just shows you how having more experience and confidence can really help. Hopefully some moms who have been through it more recently can chime in, but keep your chin up. I hope you have a good support system, but even if not we are all here for you! </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread/page/2#post-793349 Sat, 18 May 2013 19:56:02 +0000 Katrocap 793349@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Just hoping to hear from some moms that survived PPD. I'm having a pretty rough time right now and feel that I'll never feel like myself again. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread/page/2#post-777745 Mon, 13 May 2013 11:36:02 +0000 Katrocap 777745@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@ googly-eyes: Thanks for letting me know you were on the same meds as me, and that they helped you. It's great to hear that. Also, I know what you mean about not feeling like you deserve to celebrate Mothers' Day. I still feel so much guilt for being such a crying, zombie-like mess around my DS.</p> <p>@ skibobrown: Thanks for your post awhile back about intrusive thoughts. I have had the same visions of bumping my LO's head into sharp corners or dropping him down the stairs. It's terrifying and makes me so ashamed.</p> <p>@ mrscheckers: Your post awhile back really hit home about missing your old life and worrying you'd never enjoy your new one as a mom. I still struggle with that. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread/page/2#post-777488 Mon, 13 May 2013 10:14:49 +0000 googly-eyes 777488@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@yoursilverlining: I'm ok with things now, in fact happy with life. :) But I just feel like I failed lo earlier on, which leads to the need to prove myself. I know it sounds lame but I know I'm capable of much more than I did for lo months 2-4... </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread/page/2#post-777474 Mon, 13 May 2013 10:13:28 +0000 googly-eyes 777474@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@meredithNYC: I do feel confident now, but I just feel guilty about what happened before. Lots of people have ppd, most don't need the amount of help I did, and now I'm questioning whether I needed ALL that much help or if I just gave up. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread/page/2#post-777192 Mon, 13 May 2013 08:00:13 +0000 yoursilverlining 777192@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@googly-eyes: Big hugs to you!! You don't have to wait another year to "prove" yourself as a mother, and you *do* deserve to celebrate Mother's Day and be recognized. I went to counseling too; and it took me a while to feel ready to be be a mom, it was not an instantaneous thing at all. I had a lot of things I had to work through; resentment towards DH and LO and myself for how my life was going to change. For many months, I felt like I was just going through the emotions as a mom; I didn't really "feel" like a mother, and certainly not like a good one. Keep plugging away, you'll get there too mama.</p> <p>Also, I think that the fact that you reached out to your husband, your family, your friends and your doctors for help already "proves" you are a good mother. You don't have anything to be ashamed about, or to make up for. Don't beat yourself up because you asked for help, it takes a strong person to realize they need help and to actually ask for it. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread/page/2#post-777178 Mon, 13 May 2013 07:51:54 +0000 meredithNYC 777178@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@googly-eyes: Aw, I'm sorry you don't feel like you deserve a Mother's Day celebration because you most definitely DO! It's not your fault that things were a struggle, as some things are beyond your control. I hope you get to feeling more confident about your abilities as a mom because I know it can be really tough during the first year. Best of luck! </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread/page/2#post-776881 Sun, 12 May 2013 21:12:43 +0000 Lindsay05 776881@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@T-Mom: I actually weaned LO fully at 6 months and I think that actually made me happier (it was a struggle!). </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread/page/2#post-776850 Sun, 12 May 2013 20:54:56 +0000 googly-eyes 776850@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@skibobrown: I thought I was the only one. When I went through the worst parts I needed tons of help with LO and I am feeling a lot of guilt about that which lead me to ask DH not to celebrate Mother's Day just this year. I was in a class all day today anyway. He says he ordered flowers but thy haven't arrived yet so he was annoyed about that. I just sort of feel like I need another year to prove myself since its only been a few months since I was ready to "really be the mom" as my therapist put it. Then on the other hand I think I went through this difficult time "for" her and so I do deserve it. It's just a little confusing! </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread/page/2#post-776842 Sun, 12 May 2013 20:51:06 +0000 googly-eyes 776842@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@Katrocap: yeah I was on Ativan and lexapro and the Ativan was the one that I needed for anxiety until things leveled out.. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread/page/2#post-776839 Sun, 12 May 2013 20:48:11 +0000 T-Mom 776839@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@Lindsay05: I'm sorry you are going through this! Did you happen to wean your first LO recently? Some women experience PPD like symptoms at that point (I did). Or even if that's not the case I'm sure the raging pregnancy hormones are no help to you! Hang in there.. And talking to your OB sounds like a good plan too.<br /> @Katrocap: I was definitely still in the throes of PPD at 4 months... So don't be disheartened!<br /> @skibobrown: I love your update! </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread/page/2#post-776828 Sun, 12 May 2013 20:40:04 +0000 Lindsay05 776828@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@meredithNYC: Thank you for your response. I'm assuming it is hormone related too and so does my husband. It is really hard because I did not get like this during my first pregnancy at all. I will ask at my appointment which will be at about 8 weeks. Thanks again!</p> <p>@Katrocap: Thank you for sharing your history. It is really hard to be unhappy when you know you should be really happy. That feeling of guilt is so strong and just kind of makes things worse. </p> <p>@skibobrown: I am so happy to hear that you are feeling better. It is really nice to have a support system on HB. Happy Mothers Day! </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread/page/2#post-776812 Sun, 12 May 2013 20:24:03 +0000 skibobrown 776812@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Just saw this thread pop up again and want to share my support again with the women on this thread. I know mothers day can come with some very mixed feelings for those experiencing PPD. I am fully recovered from my extreme case of PPD from last year, but even so, today I spent a lot of time thinking about where I was at a year ago today. I am so happy being a mom now, but I still think a lot about how much of a struggle it was for me to get to this point. </p> <p>Lots of love and courage to you all! </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread/page/2#post-776807 Sun, 12 May 2013 20:14:38 +0000 Katrocap 776807@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@ lindsay05: I'm not a PPD expert, but my understanding is that PPD can hit anytime during the 1st year, like Mrs. Checkers said a few weeks ago. I'm sorry things are rough for you right now. I have PPD myself. My baby is 4 months and I was diagnosed when he was 4 days old. One of my biggest fears was that it would affect my relationship with my husband, so I completely understand your feeling about that.</p> <p>I already have depression and was taking Lexapro, so my midwife prescribed me Ativan in addition. It helped at first a little, but it still took until about a month ago for me to start feeling like myself again. Then this weekend I stupidly ran out of my Ativan. I've only been off it for 24 hours but all of the PPD symptoms returned today: anxiety, nervousness, fear, and, worst of all, intrusive thoughts. I was hoping to be able to go off the Ativan sometime soon, so it's been really distressing to experience this one day withdrawal.</p> <p>I'm really glad this thread is here. It does help to know I'm not alone. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread/page/2#post-776806 Sun, 12 May 2013 20:13:19 +0000 meredithNYC 776806@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@Lindsay05: I'm definitely not an expert on PPD, though I did go through it after the birth of LO, who is now nearly a year old. My guess is that maybe your feelings are hormone related? If it's really escalated since pregnancy, that would make sense. I think if you're worried, it's definitely something to bring up when you visit the doctor. Are you going at 8 weeks? </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread#post-776554 Sun, 12 May 2013 17:43:15 +0000 Lindsay05 776554@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Does anyone think PPD can affect a person 11 months postpartum?</p> <p>I have always had crazier emotions since about day 3 of having LO. However, the past month or so, I have been on such a rollercoaster. For about 3 or 4 days, I love everything about being a mom and life. Then I have a really bad day where I cannot focus on anything positive. I have to keep reminding myself that I have the perfect life and I really should be grateful. I feel like it could ruin my relationship with my husband. He is really good and trying to help me out but has a hard time because everything he tries to tell me, I know already. He just offers support and basically a shoulder to cry on but doesn't know what else to do. </p> <p>Let me also mention that I am 6 weeks pregnant with #2 so i'm not sure if i'm just getting an overwhelming amount of hormones. Although I did still have these days before I got pregnant, it just seems much worse now. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread#post-699434 Mon, 08 Apr 2013 13:34:00 +0000 DillonLion 699434@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I'm glad this thread is here! </p> <p>My mom had really, really extreme PPD and a lifetime of debilitating mental illness ever since, so I've always been on the lookout for symptoms in myself. </p> <p>At 3 weeks PP when I was still sobbing most of the day and felt like I was having daily panic attacks come nightfall, so my OB put me on an Rx of Zoloft. I had never taken an anti-depressant before but it was like a light switch. I pretty much never cried again after that (besides a normal, circumstantial reason). At 4 months PP I decided to try and wean myself off of it, under the watch of my doctor. Weaning did not go well, so as of yesterday (4 months and 2 weeks PP) I'm back on the Zoloft daily. And again, I feel almost completely better in every way. I should have just left things as they are. My plan now is to continue the talk therapy I started last week, and stay on the Zoloft until LO turns 1 (or whenever we are done breastfeeding after that) and then reassess from there. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread#post-699326 Mon, 08 Apr 2013 13:13:41 +0000 Mrs Checkers 699326@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@ladyfingers: @googly-eyes: Yes, we have definitely been there and no lie, it does and it WILL get better! You are in the thick of it, and believe it or not, you are doing a great job. Praying you find relief soon. Each day is a new day. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread#post-697449 Sun, 07 Apr 2013 14:06:52 +0000 googly-eyes 697449@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@katiew92081: Summer is pretty close so I can totally see where you're coming from on the job front! I'm assuming your DS is in a full day kinder too? I think you're doing really well holding it all together! As for projects I guess it depends what you're into.. You could volunteer at DS' school if you feel comfortable being there... I bet they'd love the help. I've even moved furniture out of need to do/change something, lol. I also cleaned a lot before LO... A lot! </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread#post-697147 Sun, 07 Apr 2013 08:19:27 +0000 Dandelion 697147@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@beachbee: I'm in the Carolinas, so there's plenty of sun. :)</p> <p>@googly-eyes: Yes, I need to find projects...I have been totally expecting to have a little girl to fill up my days, so when she passed, all my plans were totally gone, and I've felt seriously lost. DS is in Kindergarten, so my days have been quiet since August, but in planning for the baby, it filled my days. Now I gotta figure out something. I'd like to look for a part time job, but with DS's summer coming up, that's a harder thing to do than it really seems. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread#post-697132 Sun, 07 Apr 2013 08:09:36 +0000 googly-eyes 697132@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@katiew92081: Errands do help! I'm always thinking up a new project to look forward to... </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread#post-697116 Sun, 07 Apr 2013 07:59:18 +0000 beachbee 697116@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@katiew92081: yes, get out of the house!! Even if you don't have errands to do, maybe take a walk. I'm not sure where you live and what the weather is like, but I often spend time outside to collect myself and it really makes me feel better. Sun therapy :) </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread#post-697074 Sun, 07 Apr 2013 06:58:49 +0000 Dandelion 697074@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@beachbee: Thank you so much for sharing this!</p> <p>I get frustrated, cause I prepare myself and try to amp myself up. I just think, "ok, tomorrow he goes back to school. You're on your own, you can do this." and I make a to do list, even if it's not all chores, but then the day comes, DS goes to school, DH goes to work, and I think "now what?" I think I need to start having more errands out of the house! </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread#post-697053 Sun, 07 Apr 2013 06:09:14 +0000 beachbee 697053@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@katiew92081: thanks for sharing! I too suffered a loss during labor and my story is a little different because I delivered a surviving baby also, but I wanted to let you know it does get better. The first few weeks I was surrounded by family and had so many "distractions" that I was doing great (well besides the hormones!). It started to hit me anytime there was a change in our routine.. When my husband went back to work, then my mom who was staying with us went back home, and then when I went back to work and had much more quiet time to think about things than I did at home with a newborn. I had a regression in my grief process at each if these points. Went through periods of just sobbing and wondering how to go on. Like you, I don't know if it is technically PPD, or just grief. I'm now 5 months pp and still have good and bad days. </p> <p>I am not on any medication, but I will tell you that counseling has done wonders! My husband and I see our counselor every month, we started out weekly, and its really helped open up our lines of communication so we can talk if one of us is having a bad day. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread#post-696783 Sat, 06 Apr 2013 20:24:14 +0000 Dandelion 696783@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>I'm gonna subscribe to this thread. I don't really *have* PPD, but I'm at a huge risk for it, since I suffered a loss during labor. I'm 3.5 weeks pp, and so far I think I'm doing ok, but people have been around me the entire time. </p> <p>There was one day a couple weeks ago, though, that was rough. It was a Monday, the first day that DH had to go back to work, after being home with me for 2 weeks. He did such a great job at keeping me happy for those 2 weeks that I never fell apart. I cried all that Monday and then told my MIL to stay with me the next couple days, at least until DS got home from school.</p> <p>DS has been home from Spring Break this week, so that helped, but he goes back to school on Monday, so hopefully this time I can handle it better. </p> <p>So, I'm know it's mostly grief, and partially hormones, but I'm not sure if I could even identify it if there's any PPD. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread#post-696671 Sat, 06 Apr 2013 18:50:03 +0000 T-Mom 696671@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@googly-eyes: it's definitely a process! You're doing great. </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread#post-696279 Sat, 06 Apr 2013 12:56:32 +0000 googly-eyes 696279@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@T-Mom: It has been a rough road and every now and then I still have to talk myself down off the ledge but not all day every day like before which I am so grateful for. :) </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread#post-695828 Sat, 06 Apr 2013 08:09:53 +0000 T-Mom 695828@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@ladyfingers: aw.. We've all been in the trenches so know that you're not alone. Hopefully you get some relief soon and keep talking about it. It really helped me to talk about it with someone I could trust to not judge me (friend also happened to be a pediatrician). We are here for you...</p> <p>@googly-eyes: it's great to hear how well you are doing.. Proof again that things get better! </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread#post-695599 Fri, 05 Apr 2013 22:38:35 +0000 googly-eyes 695599@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>@ladyfingers: you sound just how I felt when this thread was started 5 months ago. Guess what? We're now talking plans for #2 (not yet though, just talking now.) but my point is.. It really really does get better. Babies get older and things fall into place. You wake up one day and something new has changed about LO. I dreaded taking my DD out until 4 months about. And suddenly she started being able to sleep in the car. Little things like that change and you bond and it gets better. If you can just tough it out a little longer day by day the meds will hopefully work and things will get better!! You're doing a GREAT job hanging in there! Go you! </p> https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/postpartum-depression-support-thread#post-695571 Fri, 05 Apr 2013 22:17:40 +0000 ladyfingers 695571@https://boards.hellobee.com/ <p>Thanks for bumping. I have been struggling with PPD and postpartum anxiety. I appreciate everybody sharing their stories. I've had multiple little panic episodes every day for the past few weeks and have been obsessing about LO's nap schedule, feedings, night sleep, to the point where I am panicked every time people are coming over or I have to take him out. When he won't sleep (which lately is often) I cycle through rage, depression (sobbing with tears just streaming uncontrollably down my cheeks) and guilt. I love him more than life itself but sometimes my brain says, I wish I didn't have him, and then I want to die from having thoughts like that. I feel worthless and like there is no light at the end if the tunnel.</p> <p>I also have a history of depression and anxiety. I was on meds before becoming pregnant. I can't take either of them now since I'm breastfeeding but my doctor started me on Zoloft earlier this week. The lowest dose is 50 but she has me breaking them in half for 25 the first week. I'm hoping for some relief soon. </p>