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Hellobee Boards Topic: weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half. https://boards.hellobee.com/ Pregnancy, Baby and Parenting blog, by Hellobee en Fri, 24 Apr 2026 05:14:18 +0000 thestairs on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half/page/2#post-2802574 Tue, 06 Feb 2018 21:33:44 +0000 thestairs 2802574@https://boards.hellobee.com/ I prefer to stay in my thread, eventhough it old thread. So I'll post this here. I'm blessed to have a smooth and uneventful pregnancy so far,and I'm low-risk. I'm 38wk3d (38wk4d tomorrow). I'm not in a hurry, as I want the baby to come when he ready, and as healthy healthy as he can. I been having Prodromal labor episolds since middle of the night Jan 31st/early morning Feb 1st till now. So it been a week, perhaps he is coming soon (since I'm due Feb 17th). My OB did check my cervix at 37wk6d evening (so 1 day before 38 weeks), I am 50% affaced and 3 cm dialate. The prodromal labor episolds did dialate me and I lost part of my mucus plug. I do want to met him, but he not born yet, so all I can is just look at his 2D and 4D ultrasound pics. As I was looking at a pic of my baby ultrasound taken back at 31wk3d, I have a question, I'll write it below: This is the only 4D pic I have of him, taken at 31wk3d. The rest are just 2D. [attach=6137/18/p3rds8.600x523.31weeks1day-4Dpic.png] My OB she offers and recommend a third trimester (around 31/32 weeks) growth and fetal well-being scan to ALL of her patients (including those who are not high-risk like myself). It optional. And I took the scan. As I do want to make sure everything is healthy as possible for the baby, and it gives me the peace of mind. Plus I get to see my baby on the ultrasound screen again. My OB practice, right in every appointment room has an ultrasound machine. It those new ones (that has high-resolution 2D, volumetric 3D, and real-time 4D all in there). She can just change the screen back and forth right there in the same machine. When I saw her for the growth and fetal well-being scan (back at 31wk3d), I did ask her if she can switch the screen to 4D and give me a pic. And she did. It free, so I'm not complaining. It wasn't like I have to go and pay a 3D/4D place to get the pic (so no complaints, eventhough I didn't get to see my baby mouth. Just his nose and his eyes closed). Everytime I look, I keep wondering what is that bar on the left in my pic. (That bar that I squared in purple). It is like a light tone bar of some kind? As you can see the bar at the top it really light tone and it gets darker as the tone come further down the bar.. It is those bar for lighter/darker contrast kindda thing, light tone bar? Where it can be use to change to whatever tone whichever clearer for the tech/OB to see the image on while doing the ultrasound? If you reading this, and if you don't mind, can you share a pic of your 3D/4D ultrasound? Did you also have that bar on yours? Thank you. thestairs on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half/page/2#post-2795259 Fri, 05 Jan 2018 13:27:28 +0000 thestairs 2795259@https://boards.hellobee.com/ Rehi, and belated Happy New Year 2018! to everyone. :goodluck: :heart: Times sure fly by fast, it been 6.5 (almost 7 months) since this thread posted with my BFP pee sticks. Everything is good with the baby, baby he very healthy. I'm 33 weeks now (33wk6d today), due February 17th. Can I share my bump pics? My 'under 5 feet' self is HUGE bump. It like due to my 4'11" short height, so my bump protrude out anywhere it can, lol. stick out both in the front and the sides, I carry high but WIDE. This pic below was taken at the began of my 25 weeks, and I was already HUGE (since week 25), considering I'm a FTM. I just blame it on my 4'11" short height, lol And baby it a Boy! :boy: [attach=6137/18/p23hxs.600x450.thestairs_Belly01.png] I'm not sure if we allow to post bare bump pics, if it not allow, I will delete the pic. In BabyCenter it allow to post bare bump.. But since this is HelloBee, so I not sure if it okay here. ---------------------------- Baby ultrasound pics is okay right? I omit out the top, due to it had my first name and last name, birthdate, and OB/GYN place, etc... [attach=6137/18/p23hxt.600x446.12weeksultra-maybenub2.png] This pic above was from the 12 weeks ultrasound (at the time the nub wasn't clear yet). What funny is ALL of the ladies in BabyCenter guessed it a boy. Both the nub, and the "square" forehead of my baby (which means a boy). But then the ladies in Ingender (the nub forum) guessed it a girl. Welp, it turn out the ladies in BabyCenter were right. ------------------------------ Fast forward to the baby 21 weeks anatomy scan, which very much confirm, he is all boy. My OB in her practice, right in every appointment room has an ultrasound machine. And my Chinese OB she is the one that does my anatomy scan (and all my ultrasound for me), and discussed the results in there with me herself. .......... And she get a very clear potty shot below: [attach=6137/18/p23hxu.600x564.anatomypic-02-pottyshot--1-.png] and my OB she said she 100% SURE he is a Boy! :boy: He is a boy right? There can't be wrong about the baby sex right? (I keep heard about ladies said they were told a certain sex but when born it another sex). We all buy boy clothes for the baby. My OB very confident in her answer that he absolutely is a boy. ----------------------------- And can I share one more, this below also was from the anatomy ultrasound scan at 21 weeks: [attach=6137/18/p23hxv.600x564.anatomypic_10_lung_stomach_arm.png] He laying flat on his back, that his head, tummy abdomen, and his little arm down by his side. Since anatomy is level 2 ultrasound, it shows organs, those black stripes is his 'lungs'. And the black hole is his 'stomach'.. I was worried about the holes, but then I learn it was just the baby's organs, and the dark area show he drinking fluid, and he practicing breathing. Baby he very healthy. I'll be 34 weeks tomorrow. I don't know when he will be born, as no sign of contraction yet, just the normal "practicing contraction" mild Braxton Hicks only. Mrs. Oreo on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half/page/2#post-2756229 Sat, 08 Jul 2017 09:21:36 +0000 Mrs. Oreo 2756229@https://boards.hellobee.com/ @thestairs: Exciting to hear baby's heartbeat! Hoping the rest of your pregnancy is smooth and stress free! josina on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half/page/2#post-2756077 Fri, 07 Jul 2017 14:46:58 +0000 josina 2756077@https://boards.hellobee.com/ Congrats on hearing the heartbeat, it is truly amazing. Wishing you a smooth/happy/stress-free pregnancy. thestairs on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half/page/2#post-2756067 Fri, 07 Jul 2017 14:11:24 +0000 thestairs 2756067@https://boards.hellobee.com/ Update on baby heartbeat Today I'm 7 weeks and 6 days. And yesterday June 6th was the day for me to see my OB for my second prenatal appointment. My husband went with me, and me and my husband was able to hear hear our baby heartbeat yesterday, as well as see it flickering on the screen. My baby's heartbeat is 130 beats per minute! My husband teared up, I also teared up, we both teared up. Our baby heart beat is 130 beats per minute. We feel very relieved, we heard our baby heartbeat! (We was worry last week that we only see it flickering and not able to hear it, but this week we able to hear it). We very thankful and happy. Everything is good, baby is in good size, fetus is measure good, the baby is fine, baby growing rate is where should be--at the begin of my 8 weeks, everything is fine. We all see the baby heart flickering on the screen and also hear the hearbeat.. My OB said my baby heartbeat 130 beats per minute, it healthy heartbeat, 130 beats per minute is a healthy and normal heartbeat for a baby that at the end of 7 weeks/begin of 8 weeks (where I'm at in my pregnancy). She rest assured me, everything everything is fine. She did scheduled me to see her 3 weeks from now, on July 27, as I will be 10 weeks and 5 days by then. My husband will go with me again in 3 weeks to my third prenatal appointment with her. I'm just so happy that I hear my baby heartbeat yesterday, as I was very worry since last time we only see the tiny heart flickering, not heard it, it was a relieved to hear my baby heartbeat yesterday. 2littlepumpkins on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half/page/2#post-2754082 Fri, 30 Jun 2017 19:17:58 +0000 2littlepumpkins 2754082@https://boards.hellobee.com/ @thestairs: there are no guarantees in this motherhood thing but *so far* it sounds about par for the course. Hang in there, eat as healthy as you can, try to remember to take your vitamins. And the rest is out of your and your doctor's hands at this point. Hope the week goes by quickly for you! thestairs on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half/page/2#post-2754078 Fri, 30 Jun 2017 18:57:55 +0000 thestairs 2754078@https://boards.hellobee.com/ Thank you very much for your replies help give me advice and thank for your reassurance words. I not sure if the word heard is the correctword, but what I mean is she wasn't able to measurement how many beats per minute. You know how there ladies said their baby heartbeat was xxx per minute. But mine couldn't measurement that. I guess the heart is still too too tiny for it to pick up the sound. We saw the tiny tiny heart flickering, it flickering and flickering, it jumps, so the heart is beating. We all saw it, the OB, me and my husband. For sure it flickering. BUT there No heartbeats that the ultrasound can detect as in how many beats per minute. Perhaps my OB knows I'm easily panic, so she tried to rest assured me. But she said everything is fine. She said the heart flickering, everything is fine. She said there pregnancy where women who was far into their 7 weeks, even into their 8 weeks in order to get the heartbeat per minute. I mean the heart it flickering so the baby is doing good right? Or else how can it flickering? She clearly saw the fetal pole, which she said is good. As some women their fetal pole don't show as much in 6 weeks 5 days like me, but mine show very clear. Baby is in good size, fetus measuring good, growing at the rate it should, yolk sac, fetal pole, everything is fine. And baby is measure at 6 week and 5 days. Tomorrow mark the end of my 6 weeks, I'll be at my 7 weeks. ....... She schedule me come back next week, and I'll be at the end of my 7 weeks, begin of my 8 weeks then. She said I will know how many beats per minute by then. She rest assured me. I just don't know why she can't detect the heartbeat count per minute like other ladies. Maybe other ladies more far into their # of weeks than me. I really don't know, she just couldn't get me the number of heartbeat per minute. I update next week see when I see her again next week. By then I be in my 8 weeks mark, and that is enough for her to detect a heartbeat heard she said, as I keep want to how know many beats per minute. I update again next week when I see her for another ultrasound. I'm just worried. erinbaderin on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half/page/2#post-2754070 Fri, 30 Jun 2017 18:21:32 +0000 erinbaderin 2754070@https://boards.hellobee.com/ I've never heard a heartbeat before my 12 week scan, always just seen it flickering on the screen. That is nothing to worry about. babypugs on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half/page/2#post-2754002 Fri, 30 Jun 2017 13:39:25 +0000 babypugs 2754002@https://boards.hellobee.com/ @thestairs: I'm happy for you and hope you are able to move past any issues you have with your mother and background to have a happy and healthy pregnancy and parenthood experience. EVERYONE worries about what-ifs in the first trimester and beyond. Just try your best to trust your doctor. There are no guarantees, but telling yourself that right now you are expecting a wonderful baby and trying to think positively is all you can do. 2littlepumpkins on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half/page/2#post-2753975 Fri, 30 Jun 2017 13:02:24 +0000 2littlepumpkins 2753975@https://boards.hellobee.com/ @thestairs: it can just depend on the machine she used too. My first OB measured hb but never shared it with us at that point, and my current OB just said there's a flicker and left it at that. I decided if she wasn't worried there was no point in me worrying and just tried not to think about it. My next appt was at 10w4d and we heard it then. T.H.O.U. on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half/page/2#post-2753967 Fri, 30 Jun 2017 12:57:59 +0000 T.H.O.U. 2753967@https://boards.hellobee.com/ Also, there is no link between bleeding and nausea for how a pregnancy turns out. Just because you aren't bleeding doesn't mean that something bad can't happen. It doesn't matter if you do/dont have nausea. T.H.O.U. on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half/page/2#post-2753966 Fri, 30 Jun 2017 12:56:50 +0000 T.H.O.U. 2753966@https://boards.hellobee.com/ @thestairs: If your OB said everything looks good then you need to trust her and try to enjoy this. You saw the fetal pole which is great! Stress and worry and crying all the time is not great for the baby either! So try to calm down and enjoy this time. There are going to be SOOO many bumps and turns and things that dont go exactly by the book in this pregnancy and in raising a child. You cannot stress at every thing. Focus on what you can control at this time. You are in charge of growing that baby. So relax, get some rest, stay healthy, eat what you can etc. thestairs on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half/page/2#post-2753950 Fri, 30 Jun 2017 12:37:39 +0000 thestairs 2753950@https://boards.hellobee.com/ Me and my husband we went to our OB appointment yesterday Thursday. My OB she Chinese like me so we speak Chinese to each others. It a large practice office, there more than one OBs in there, most are American OBs that speak English, but there Hispanic OBs that speak Spanish, and my OB speak Chinese. She has ultrasounds right in her office so she do one for me, and confirm how far along I am. And I'm worry of the result. I cried yesterday when we got to the car on our way drive home, and I cried again last night. I'm scare and worry of the result of my OB visit. I know the BCP mess it up since I miss a pill last month in May, which I just don't get it because I swear I didn't see I throw it back up when I vomit. And I thought your stomach digest it after you swallow it, so how can it counts that I miss one pill? I just don't get it. And even if it counts as I miss one pill, I just didn't think one pill can effect the whole pack of pills. I didn't know if I ovulate in the middle of May, or the end of May. But I ovulated and got pregnant. Well, I'm earlier than I thought, because after I see my OB and ultrasound yesterday. My OB said my conception date was took place in the weekend of May 27-28, so that is the last week of May. So I conceived in the end of May, not the middle of May. I must throw up the pill that day in May and it mess up my BCP pack and my body start to go back to normal ovulation, and I ovulated at the end of May and conceived. I was told yesterday that I am 6 weeks and 5 days pregnant, that the gestational age age. So I'm at the end of my 6 weeks. So a week ago when I post my pee thread, I was only 5 weeks and 5 days pregnant. And at the time I already feel fatigue and extremely nausea, nausea and nausea all day. Maybe I nausea more early than other women? My OB said it all depends on the individual women body, there women that nausea more than others (like my case). She said I'm due in mid-February, February 17 or 18. She put me down as Feb 17 due date. But she said baby can come few days earlier or few days later, she said rarely baby come exactly on the dot on the due date.. Everything is fine, the baby is in good size, fetus measuring good, growing at the rate it should, yolk sac, fetal pole, everything is fine. And baby is measure at 6 week and 5 days. She able to see the tiny tiny heart flicker, me and my husband saw it too, the heart flickering, it just very small and weak? But it flicker, you know like it jumps, it flashes. ..... We saw the heart flicker, we saw the heart flutter, BUT there no heartbeat heard, she was not able to get the measurement of how fast the heart beating per minute. No heartbeat heard, just the heart flickering, the heart jumps, we all saw it. Maybe it very weak? She was not able to get the measure of how much it beating per minute. I started to tear up because there no heartbeat heard. I was worried right there in her office and still worry. She said everything looks good, baby is in good size, fetus is measure good, there the tiny flutter of heartbeats, I mean we all see it flickering. She said I'm still early, not all pregnancy can hear heartbeat at 6 weeks and 5 days (my case). There pregnancy heartbeat wasn't heard to their far into their 7 weeks. Some not even heard till they into their 8 weeks. She said it is okay, as she know I'm easily panic. She has me schedule to come back next week for another ultrasound, and next week I will be at the end of my 7 weeks and begin of my 8 weeks. She rest assured me we will heard hearbeat by then. I am Not bleeding AT ALL. No crapming. So the baby is okay right? I have no bleeding at all. My baby should be okay right? How come she not able to get the heartbeat measurement how many beat per minute? I'm very worry, does no heartbeat heard mean the baby is not growing anymore? I'm very scare. I cried again last night. I don't know why my baby have no heartbeat heard. But just the flickering heart that we saw. How can the tiny heart flickering, but not able to detect the heartbeat per minute? I'm scare. May I ask when did you hear your baby heartbeat? Is my baby going to be okay? She already schedule me another ultrasound next week, where next week put me at the end of my 7 weeks, begin of 8 weeks, and she assured she can get heartbeat per minute by then. But I'm still worry and I'm scare. snowjewelz on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half/page/2#post-2753363 Thu, 29 Jun 2017 09:59:29 +0000 snowjewelz 2753363@https://boards.hellobee.com/ @thestairs: I wouldn't rule out a therapist NOT from your culture. Although I understand our culture presents some unique family dynamics/issues; ALL families have similar issues and I think once the therapist understands your history and current situation, she might be able to help just as much as a Vietnamese therapist. Good luck!! thestairs on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half#post-2752462 Tue, 27 Jun 2017 12:12:02 +0000 thestairs 2752462@https://boards.hellobee.com/ My husband is still excited for this baby, he still kiss and talk to my stomach. And still ask the baby permission to do everything, lol Last night he still ask the baby permission to go to sleep. He always kiss my stomach first and he put the side of his head and his ear on my stomach, he said to the baby if the baby give him permission to go to sleep today. He so silly, I said the baby can't hear him yet (I don't think baby can hear in first trimester?). But he said baby can hear him, and baby just answered him. And today baby said No, baby said won't give dad permission to sleep until dad rubs mom feet. So he said let him rubs my hands, legs and feet for 30 minutes before we go to sleep. He always rubs my hands and feet, throughout marriage life with him, even before I got pregnant. Especially in the winter time, when my hands and feet gets cold in the winter.. He opened mouth breathe into my hands and rubs my hands to keep it warm. When we in bed, he always rubs my hands and feet. We did tried to turn on heater; but when the heater stays on, after a while my nose start to bleed. He got worried, je said he doesn't want to see my nose bleed. So won't to leave the heater on long. He said let him rubs my feet and hands to helps keep it stay warm. When my hands and feet get cold again, he rubs my hands and feet again, he keeps do it till we sleep. That was how it is in the winter months. I mean I understand if he do what he do in the winter months. BUT this is the summer, I mean we in the summer right? I told him my feet is not cold. But he said the baby said dad can't go sleep until dad rubs mom feet. He so silly. I said the baby can't hear him nor can answer him. But he said he just asked the baby permission, and baby said rubs mom feet first, then baby give him permission to sleep. I let him have it his ways, obviously he not listening to me. He just so silly, I don't know if I should cry or laugh at my husband. My feet are not tired, I'm a Stay at home Wife, I don't work. I'm not on my feet like back when I work at Retail in the past. So really, he doesn't have to rub my feet, he just doesn't get it. He savings all his sick days, personal days, and vacation weeks all for my pregnancy. He said he wants to go to ALL my prenatal appointments with me. And he wants to be with me in my delivery and must cut the baby cord. ------------------------------------------------- And there something else he wants to do for the baby, he talks about this even back when I was not pregnant. He said it something that is important to him, and he really want to do it. So he ask me to let him do it. Is let him go vegan for 4 years. And he probably doing this it because of me. I'm a Buddhist follower. When it comes to major Buddhist holidays, and the first day of Chinese Lunar New Year. And the whole month of Ullambana Budhist holidays. We eat vegeterian, we don't eat meat.. Buddhist believe that when you don't eat animal meat, you eat vegeterian will give you blessing--(for not eat animal meat), you'll get blessed. So a year out of 365 days, I eat vegeterian for 40 days. And that is the best I can do, it the maximum of days I can go without meat. I personally love eating meat too much, no way I can't give up meat. Eventhough we have a huge cultural difference between us. But he very understanding of my culture and Buddhist religion. I explained it to him. And I told him the days I eat vegeterian, I will cook separate food with meat for him. I mean we do have plenty of meat in the fridge. But he said No, he will not eat meat while seeing me eat vegeterian.. He said he not gonna enjoy eating meat by himself when his wife is eating vegeterian food. He said he is my husband, the days I eat vegeterian, he will eat vegeterian together with me. And he eats it with me, that 40 days he just eat steamed rice, boil cabbage, or boil vegetables, and soy sauce. He happily eat it with me for that 40 days out of a year. My husband knows knows in my culture and religion that when you eat vegeterian/not eat animal meat will give you blessed, you get bestow blessing for not eat meat. Back then at the time (I wasn't pregnant), he said when I'm pregnant he will eat vegeterian, strictly vegan for 9 months of my pregnancy till I give birth and continue to eat vegan till our baby turn 3 years old. So that 9 months of my pregnancy till our baby turn 3, he will not eat meat.. So 3 years and 9 months, almost 4 years he will eat vegan; so that me and our baby will be blessed. He said he wants to start as soon as I get a positive on the pregnancy test, he wants the baby in my tummy will be blessed, and he will continue vegan till our baby turn 3 years old. ........... Perhaps he thinks that he eats strictly vegan, he not eat meat can bestow blessing/can bring blessings to me and our baby. I dunno, but he said it something he really want to do, and he asked me to let him it for 4 years (during my pregnancy and till our baby turn 3). And he said it will ONLY be him eat vegeterian (in that 4 years), 'him' only. He wants me to eat normally eat meat, and my pregnant tummy need nutritious foods, regardless during pregnancy or post pregnancy he wants me to eat meat. And the baby also need to eat meat, babies/toddlers need iron protein for growth, developed strong immune system, healthy development, brain cells, yada yada.. What he saying is the 9 months of my pregnancy till our baby turn 3 years old, me and the baby need to eat meat. He make it clear that he wants me and the baby to eat meat, it just him eat vegeterian. (not me or the baby). You know how when I offer to cook separate food with meat for him on the 39 days I eat vegeterian, he said No. He said he not gonna enjoy eating meat by himself when his wife is eating vegeterian food. He said he is my husband, the days I eat vegeterian, he will eat vegeterian together with me. But then look at it now, while me and and the baby eat meat, him eating vegan only. He doesn't want me and the baby to eat vegan with him in that 4 years. He wants me and the baby eat meat, eat nutritious food. Not just vegeterian in that 4 years, but he wants to go complete vegan, no dairy No eggs. So no meat, no fish, no seafood, No dairy no eggs, no milk, no fish or oyster sauce. He eats very easy, just a bowl of steamed rice and boil cabbage, or any boil vegetables is fine with him, and just soy sauce on top, and that it. But I worry he will not get enough IRON from just a bowl of steamed rice which is just starch, and a bowl of boil cabbage. Especially he wants to do this for 4 years long. He work a hard and dangerous job (day to day dealing with at least 80,000 gallons of Fuel which is highly flammable. Or Hydrofluoric Acid which is corrosive). I said No to the Hydrofluoric Acid, I told him work with fuel instead. I take the highly flammable fuel over the corrosive acid. A Tanker hold up to 13,000 gallons of fuel. He do 6-7 loads a day (deliver 80,000 gallons of fuel a day). Load fuel at the loading rack, deliver, unload fuel. Repeat at leat 6 times/6 loads a day. I do worry about his health, because of the stuff he inhale on a daily basis. The loading racks area where he load fuel look like this: [attach=6137/17/os7ug2.435x214.Refinery-_Loading-_Rack-1.jpg] A day he does at least 6 loads a day, so he in and out of the loading racks 6 times a day, and he directly dealing with 80,000 gallons of these stuff a day.. It the loading racks that full with fumes and vapors. And fuel contain Benzene. He work in the Oilfield before, dealing with crude oil so these stuff he got alot of experience in it. Past or present, he always work with fuel/crude oil, hazardous chemical factories/chemical plants. He been dealing with fuel and acid for the past 7-8 years of his life. I know he knows exactly what he doing, but I'm just worry about his health. I don't want him to go completely vegan. I need to talk to him about it, if he still insists on not eat meat so Buddhist can bestow blessing/can bring blessings to me and our baby. Then just be vegeterian, at least have eggs and dairy. Or if he must go vegan, just do it in the 9 months of my prenancy. Don't do it till our baby turn 3, that would be 4 years time, and I worry about his health in the long run. He already want to start go vegan, but I told him he has to eat meat with me until the meat we have in the fridge right now run out, then next grocery shopping, we buy less meat (just enough for me, since he wants me to me eat meat. Just him go vegan only). And buy more vegetables for him. I know he fine with just a bowl of steamed rice and boil cabbage, but IRON needs more than just starch and boil cabbage. American food vegan don't just contain rice and boil cabbage. He needs to be healthy to take care of me and the baby too. thestairs on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half#post-2752416 Tue, 27 Jun 2017 10:23:46 +0000 thestairs 2752416@https://boards.hellobee.com/ Thank you Ms. snowjewelz, I'm not in NY, I'm in California. There alot of Chinese and Vietnamese here in San Francisco. Alot of Chinese in San Francisco, and alot of Vietnamese in San Jose. Which "The Bay Area" is consist of 3 cities (San Francisco, San Jose, and Oakland). I do have a therapist that I been going to, a Vietnamese therapist where I talk to her about my mother abused me in my childhood and my strain relationship with my mother in adulthood. The Vietnamese therapist is okay, but I'm not making a huge progress. I'm thinking of get an American therapist, but due to the whole cultural situation of mine, I not sure if an western/American therapist can fully understand it, or maybe she just laugh at me. I do see my therapist twice a month, there only so much time a session can hold, once the time up I have to go, she booked with other patients sessions, not just only me. I can't sit there all day and talk to her about my mother. Maybe I need more than 2 times a month, and go every week instead? I been a SAHWife for the past 8-9 months now, my husband doesn't want me to work, I know he wants a SAHWife when we got married 2.5 years ago. So I compromise and work part time, but he say No to the part time too. As of Fall 2016, I don't work anymore, I been staying home. I agreed to stay home because we both Debt-free, and he make 167K a year, so life is comfy for us despite we live in the HCOL California. And with him alone by himself making 167K a year, that is still the above average income here in California. He very responsible with money. And Debt-free and we both are not big spender, so me stay home is do-able, plus he very adamant about me stay home. My husband he very important on when he comes home from work; able to see me first thing, have me sit down on the dinner table eat with him, have me watch News with him, have me go to sleep at the same time with him.. Have me eat with him before he go to work an after he gets home from work. Go to sleep at the same time and wake up at the same time with him. He make it clear that he doesn't want me to even work part time, he said why do he wants his "wife" to work? When he make enough for his wife to stay home. He said and asked that. Married to him as his wife (Perhaps I married a traditional man?)--he make it very clear and adamant he doesn't want me to work, not even part time. He wants me to be a Stay at home Wife SAHW. And when I give him his baby wish, he wants me to continue to stay home, be a SAHM. Well, he has his baby wish now. I'm fine with stay home, I do want more time with the man that is my husband. Since I stay home now, maybe I should aks my therapist to let me see her once a week now, instead of once every two week. ------------------------------------------------------------- The thing with my mother is beside the abused, she is a very controlling and dictatorship woman. She said it clear straight in my face face, If I don't listen to her, I'm no longer her daughter. If me and my brother don't listen to her command, we both are no longer her children. To her is about power to control us, we have to listen to her and obey her. My mother just have to be able to "control" us, control her chldren, whether it me or my brother. And me married a man with an ethnicity that she disapproved, that is not listen to her, see doesn't see me as her daughter. She make it clear, I am no longer her daughter the day I married my husband. My head and heart is very heavy, my mom gives me TREMENDOUS pressure. I can't even see my old father, my mother will remove me from her property, as she has the rights to, she owns the house. She won't met me visit my old father unless I sit through her lecture me and insult me all those words above, and spit in my face. Or another option she gives me is divorce my husband, then she will let me see my father and will welcome me back as her daughter again. I know my mother purposely give me a hard time, so if I can't take it anymore, I will divorce my husband. But No, I will not divorce husband, I love my husband. My mother said divorce my husband, and divorce here mean for the remainder of my life; until the day I die, I can't see his face again, under any circumstances. Until the day I die, I can't never cross path see him again. My mother always want to introduce and matchmaker me with other Chinese/Vietnamese friend's son of hers. She said divorce my husband, since I have no children with him, so divorce and shut my mouth don't ever let other Chinese/Vietnamese men know that I was married to a man with skin color like my husband. My mother just got a problem with my husband being a PURE blood West African man come straight from West Africa. She just can't accept his skin color. He really really dark, because he not mix, he FULLY African. And my mom doesn't like that. I have tried visit my father in the past, but in order to be able to see my father, I have to sit through my mom lecture and listen to her hurtful words about my husband, and curse my future children. Because I won't obey her, I won't leave my husband. She just won't let me see my dad. The only way she let me step in the house to see my dad is if I sit there and let she belittle me, insult me, lecture me of how dirty I am. Sit there and hear all the hurtful words she said about my husband; her comments about my husband it just so hurtful.. Everytime I think about my mother insulting comments, I just want to dig a hole and crawl in, or put a bag over my head; yes, it that terrible and hurtful. I don't want to be the girl that drive 1 hour on the freeway back to where my mom live, begging to see my father. And all I get is my mom lecture me, insult me, belittle me, and spit in my face. Insult me to the lowest and worsest level that she can. Everytime I come back to see my dad, I end up crying.. I know my mom just want to see me upset and cry. Perhaps she see me like this she happy, because I disobey her and married the guy she make it very clear that she disapproved. I feel that my dad is also ashamed of me, but I want to save whatever I have left with my dad. I'm grasping at anything that I can grasp, hoping in vain that still have my father--I didn't lost my father too; at least I still have a father that love me. But I don't feel that my dad love me, I feel that my dad is also ashamed of me. Because Not only my dad know my cell phone # and Never once he call me. What really hurt is when I visit, my mom lecture me, insult me, and my dad just walk straight into his room; just leave me out there in the living room let my mom continue insult me and lecture me. My dad just leave me there in the living room with my mom, NEVER once he stood up for me. It already clear where he stands, I KNOW this, but somehow I just can't seem to accept it. I just can't seem to accept the fact that even my own father abandon me too. I don't know why my life is like this. I'm not an orphant. I have parents, I have a father and a mother. But it like I don't have any. I don't know why my life is like this. Why both my parents ashamed of me and not care for me? I'm their birth daughter, it not like they pick me up from an orphanage, why treats me this way? My parent treast me like I'm some kind of disease. Why my parents treats me like this? Why? Why? I know my mom doesn't care for me, but what hurt so much is even my own father also doesn't care for me nor bother to step up for me. My father have my cell phone # and NEVER once he bother call me.. On Chinese New Year I wait and wait hope my father will call me, but nothing. I know my mom hate me, but why my father hate me too? Eventhough my father doesn't insult or me flat out say the word he 'disown' me. But him have my cell phone # and Never once call me, never once stood up for me, it clear that he also mind my marriage. Perhaps inside my dad also think I'm Dirty, he just doesn't want to insult me like how my mom did. Why my father have my cell phone # but never call me? Why never stood up for me when my mom insult me? Deep down inside I know he is ashamed of me too, he just doesn't want to insult me like how my mother does. Father's Day was a week ago, I miss and want to see my father, but I know my mom just won't let me. Unless I subject myself to her emotionally and verbally buse, then she let me see my father. I know my mom purposely give me pressure so I can leave my husband, but I don't want to leave my husband, why she keeps force me? My dad never phone me. Thanksgiving, Christmas, western New year and Chinese New Year passed, he never called me. And then Mother's Day passed, then Father's Day passed. And he never call me.. It clear where my father stand. I know this, I just can't seem to accept that I lost my father too. I know my mother said it very clear straight in my face face, If I don't listen to her, I'm no longer her daughter. I know I disobey my mother for married a man she disapproved, I only have myself to blame. I know both my parents are ashamed of me, I know I already lost my mother a long time ago. In fact, I don't think I ever have my mom at all, my mother never love me. I'm just hoping in vain that I still have my father that I still at least have a father that love me. But seem like I lost him too. It just hurts so much, it just hurts and hurts you know? But I can't subject myself to my mother abuse anymore, I'm pregnant, and I will NOT carry my pregnant stomach over and let she emotionally, mentally and verbally abuse me. I know I will bawl and cry when I'm there, I can't subject myself to her lecture me of how dirty I am, or how dirty my husband is, or how dirty my baby is. No. Before pregnant, I can suck it up just so I can visit and see my father. But now I can't, because I'm pregnant now. And I refuse to subject my pregnant stomach to her emotionally and verbally abuse. I don't mind suck it up just so I can see my father, but that was before pregnant. Now I'm pregnant, I can't do it. I don't want my mom to know I'm pregnant or know I give birth, I don't want her to show up at the hospital room. I know she will make a scene, and I will go to labor early, if I can't control my crying and if I bawl and cry. I think about this alot, and it best that she doesn't know I'm pregnant or give birth. IF one beautiful day my mother accept my husband, he more than just skin color, he bleeds red and he has feelings too. If one day she accept him, I will introduce her to her grandchild. I will NOT let my mother emotionally and verbally abuse my children. yoursilverlining on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half#post-2752365 Tue, 27 Jun 2017 08:22:03 +0000 yoursilverlining 2752365@https://boards.hellobee.com/ I think now would be a good time to cut your mother further out of your life or maybe completely cut her out. We don’t owe toxic people relationships simply because we share bloodlines. You are so worried about whether or not you are acting familial towards your mother – but has she ever acted that way towards you? Towards your family? Doesn’t sound like it. Mother or not, people earn respect and earn a position in our lives as adults. I also don’t think most mothers are in the delivery room with their adult daughters; very, very few people I know in real life had their mothers in the room with them when they delivered and these are all women with great relationships with their mothers. I think this is more of a movie-thing, not a real life thing. It’s not something I would fixate on as something you are necessarily missing out on. I think since you’ve quit working, maybe it’s a good time to focus on adding an additional therapy session to your week to help you navigate your mother, your relationship with yourself, and your feelings about pregnancy. Good luck! josina on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half#post-2752360 Tue, 27 Jun 2017 08:14:53 +0000 josina 2752360@https://boards.hellobee.com/ Your husband sounds like a really great guy and so sweet/excited about this baby. It sounds like your MIL is equally as supportive, and your brother too? Keep those people close and I agree with you on not telling your mother. She sounds like a toxic person, someone you do not need in your life, and you should not feel any guilt about that decision. Maybe you can meet your father at a neutral location? Being a mom is truly amazing, there is so much love for that little person, I hope you get to that place with your pregnancy soon. Don't let your childhood damper any feelings about this baby, you are not your mother. SugarMaple on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half#post-2752295 Mon, 26 Jun 2017 21:08:18 +0000 SugarMaple 2752295@https://boards.hellobee.com/ You and your husband are starting a beautiful journey and have every right to be happy. I'm sorry your mother and the past are shadowing what should be a joyful time. Focus on the love of your husband and know YOU get to choose the level of involvement (if any) of your mother. Congratulations! erinbaderin on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half#post-2752259 Mon, 26 Jun 2017 18:45:52 +0000 erinbaderin 2752259@https://boards.hellobee.com/ This is going to be hard for you to believe, but your mom is wrong. You are not dirty. You might be a bad daughter, I have no idea, but based on what you've told us she was not a good mother and does not deserve your love or your loyalty. She has not earned you caring about her. This new baby is a chance for you and your husband to make different choices. You are making a new family, and you can get on a new path. I'm glad that your husband is happy and supportive. I hope you can find some help and therapy and be happy. snowjewelz on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half#post-2752192 Mon, 26 Jun 2017 16:02:31 +0000 snowjewelz 2752192@https://boards.hellobee.com/ @thestairs: I am so sorry. I'm Chinese too and I completely understand the abuse and also the discrimination against your husband. And I understand how you're torn on needing to be a "good daughter" but also wanting to break free from her. I think that now that you have a life growing inside of you; maybe it will give you some of the courage you need to do what is right for you, your husband and your baby. You live in NYC area right? If you need referrals to maybe Chinese speaking counseling services, please wall me! T.H.O.U. on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half#post-2752183 Mon, 26 Jun 2017 15:57:24 +0000 T.H.O.U. 2752183@https://boards.hellobee.com/ Use this pregnancy as a good way to start cutting ties with your mother. Even though she may not be physically abusing you, she certainly sounds like she's still mentally/verbally abusing you and trying to control you. Keep her out of the loop about the pregnancy and if you can do that then she won't even know to show up at the hospital. 2littlepumpkins on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half#post-2752182 Mon, 26 Jun 2017 15:55:06 +0000 2littlepumpkins 2752182@https://boards.hellobee.com/ Aww my heart just hurts for you reading this. But it sounds like you are right to just cut her off. This is your life (and your husband's) and she doesn't deserve to be a part of it from what I'm reading here. I still definitely think some kind of therapy could help you prepare for the baby and come to terms with your mothers past abuse. And NO you absolutely do NOT need to let her into your hospital room! They won't force you, it's up to you. Let your nurses know your wishes. thestairs on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half#post-2752172 Mon, 26 Jun 2017 15:38:12 +0000 thestairs 2752172@https://boards.hellobee.com/ I share this before in my background threads. I born in Shanghai, China. When was in China (I was in China till age 12). My mom always abused me, she always took out her anger on me, she anger at my dad and she take it out on me. She would grab my head and push me to down ground. Or whatever objects she can find on the table and aim throw at my head. Everyday throughout my whole childhood, she belittle me by words, emotionally and mentally, she strip down all my self-worth. Physically, she would randomly grab my hair and push me to the floor. When we immigrant to the US at age 12, at the time she still hit me. Maybe she was new to the U.S and on a new land she even more stress, she anger at my dad and just hit me when my dad at work and not home. I came to school with belts mark on my arms, and her finger slap mark on my face. Ofcourse you know here in the U.S, that is abuse, the school teacher get the law involve, and I was remove from my mother. This went to Court for "domestic child abuse". She said how parents in Vietnam hit their children all the times. (My dad is Chinese, my mom is Vietnamese). But you see, excuse that parents in Vietnam hit their children, that don't work here in U.S. She has to take anger management classes, as well as classes where she learn the U.S. laws not to abuse her children here. I got taken away to Foster Home for about almost 3 years, and then they return me home, after she complete all the anger management classes, and learn all the laws about no abuse her children. She learned, she knows the laws, she Never hit me again. No more physical abuse. But she still emotionally and mentally abuse me, as I lived with her and finished my 12th grade High school. I did leave her house and it been over a decade since I leave her house. As I'm 33 now. I got married 2.5 years ago (it was after 3 years of his day in day out courtship, I thought I test his love and patience enough, I agreed to married him). My husband treats me really really well. I'm a Stay at home Wife, he doesn't even want me to work a day as his wife, he works his butt off just so I can live a comfy life not have to worry about financial. He knows all about my abuse, he accept me everything, including my childhood abuse, and my mother discriminate against him. He from another culture as me. I thought in my adulthood I can mend my relationship with my mom, but things got worst. Because my husband he is a Sierra Leonean. His homeland (Sierra Leone, West Africa) it a small country with 6 millions population, it a tiny country. He speaks his native Sierra Leoean homeland language (the language that his ethnic group/tribe speak). We communicate with each others in English, as English is my third language. (Chinese and Vietnamese is my native languages). The language is not why my mom disapproved him, it is his skin color that is why she disapproved him. She said it herself, she got a problem with his skin color (that he is a PURE blood West African come straight from West Africa). You know how the older generations of Vietnamese are, my mother just can't seem to accept it. She said I'm no longer her daughter, I make her "Lose Face" to the Vietnamese community. She pretty much completely cut me off, she doesn't even allow me to drive back to visit my old father. Which it her house, she owns a house in the Asian community where there alot of Chinese and Vietnamese older generation live there. She will make sure to remove me off her property if I show up to visit my dad. I mean she owns the house, it her property. She said she ashamed of me, ashamed of my marriage. Not only I make her lose face to the family, but also LOSE face to the whole Chinese/Vietnamese community. "Face" is something very important to Chinese and Vietnamese. I accept my life as it is. I love my husband. I just want a peaceful and quiet life with him, give him this baby, the baby that he always wanted, eventhough I'm not ready to be a mom. My mother just always said hurtful things to me, she always called me dirty, a dirty prositute, my baby is dirty. She said when I'm pregnant, don't ever bring my dirty stomach to see her. My stomach is dirty, because the baby father is dirty. It just all kinds of words to insult me. Dirty, dirty, I'm dirty, and my unborn baby is dirty. My dad never stood up for me. Eventhough my dad never call me dirty, but I'm sure deep down inside he probably thinks like my mom. He just doesn't want to insult me like my mom, so he rather just keep quiet. Never once he stood up for me. I cried alot, I struggle alot. But after 2.5 years marriage, here come this baby, I know I can't let my mom abuse effect me mentally and emotionally anymore. I know the baby is the most important thing now. I will do whatever it takes to bring this baby to the world, love this baby. Every words come out my mother mouth is I'm dirty, it like my mom ingrain it in my brain. I'm not dirty. I'm married, why is me sleep with the man that is my husband is dirty? Why is me have a baby with the man that is my husband is dirty? He is my husband. I don't want my mother at the hospital when I give birth. I know I will bawl and cry, and I probably end up in labor early. When I see other women pregnant, they have their mom make soup for them, care for them. But me? I don't have a mother make soup for me, because to my mother, I'm just dirty. And my children are dirty, according to my mother words. I don't want my baby grow up know that their maternal grandma think they dirty. I know my children don't have the blessing to have maternal grandparents love them like other children out there. If my baby grow up ever ask why grandma never see them, I will just tell my baby that their grandma is in Vietnam. ----------------------------------------------------------- My mother also curse my children, she said if I have children with my husband--(she use a Vietnamese word insult my husband by his skin color), my children grow up will be prositute.. Not only my children will be prositute, but my children will spit in my husband--their father face (she use a Vietnamese word call him, it an insulting word insult my husband by his skin color). She said his children grow up will not see him as their father. And not only spit in his face, but will also hit him, as in beaten their father. His children will be ashamed of him due to his skin color, too ashamed of him to see him as their father. Not only his children will be unfilial to him, but also beaten him.. Even till the day he die, he will never see a day of his children where they will be filial to him or accept him as their father. Every time I think of my mother words curse my children, I tear up and cry, and cry. I have not tell my mom yet that I'm pregnant, and I don't plan to tell her. I feel very unfilial, but I don't want her to know I'm pregnant, or give birth. I just don't want her to know, she will curse my children. Even if I phone and tell her, I will cry. I know I will cry when I heard she said the things above. Those hurtful words she said it just so hurtful, it cause me pain and make me cry. I know how much my husband sacrifice in this relationship/marriage. I don't want to hear my mother curse my children, or call me a dirty prositute and dirty stomach, dirty baby. Yes she call my baby dirty, a dirty baby. She said when I'm pregnant, my baby is just a dirty baby. So far I only tell my husband, my MIL. Which my husband and my MIL are both thrilled. I'm the only one that still coming around to acceptance that I'm pregnant. I also told my brother. I told my brother not to tell my mom. Which my brother never have a good relationship with our controlling/dictatorship mother anyways. And that it. I know I rambling alot on here because there things in my head and heart that very heavy, that write it out it help my heart and head less heavy. But in person, I'm a private person. My wedding was just a Courthouse wedding with 2 witnesses, that is my husband mom (my MIL) and my older brother. I don't even want a baby shower. I don't need those fancy stuff. I just want a peaceful and quiet pregnancy with my husband, and a peaceful and quiet delivery, with my husband by my side. I not plan to tell my mom about me pregnant, because I know everytime I'm on the phone or see her in person, I end up cry and cry. And I don't want my baby to be effect by my crying. I know my mood effect the baby mood. If, I said IF there that beautiful day where my mom come around and accept my husband, I will introduce her to her grandchild. Right now I don't want her to know about my pregnancy, or me give birth. And No, I don't want her to come the hospital, she will make a scene, and I will end up crying, I probably go into labor early if I bawl and cry like that in the hospital. I don't want my mom at the hospital when I deliver. I know how my mom is, she will make a scene at the hospital and I will end up cry and cry and I will go into labor early. I don't want her to know I give birth. Am I being unfilial to her? The hospital will give me my request that I don't want my mom come in the my labor hospital room right? Because I know if she there lecture me and curse me, I know I will cry. I just don't want to even have to cry during my labor day. 2littlepumpkins on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half#post-2752130 Mon, 26 Jun 2017 14:05:10 +0000 2littlepumpkins 2752130@https://boards.hellobee.com/ @thestairs: As others have said the ultrasound will tell you how far along you are. Fwiw you don't know how anything with your mom will turn out even years from now. You can't control her and you can't control all of that. So talking to someone IRL about that, and about all this, would probably be beneficial for you. ❤️ snowjewelz on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half#post-2752120 Mon, 26 Jun 2017 13:56:30 +0000 snowjewelz 2752120@https://boards.hellobee.com/ @thestairs: Don't dwell on how you possibly could get pregnant anymore... Because you did! I totally understand why you wouldn't want a baby when your relationship with your mom is so bad; that affects you emotionally and will affect the relationship between you and the baby. You should def look into seeing a therapist too; even if it cannot mend your relationship with your mom, at least it can help work through your own stuff so that mentally, you are better prepared to become a mom. lilyofthewest on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half#post-2752103 Mon, 26 Jun 2017 13:44:34 +0000 lilyofthewest 2752103@https://boards.hellobee.com/ @thestairs: An ultrasound will give you dating information. When you're on the pill you don't ovulate at a specific time in the pack or a specific time before/after your period -- you ovulate when the pill fails. You might've ovulated shortly after the missed pill, or your birth control could've failed at some other time. Birth control pills have a typical use failure rate of 9% -- that means that of 100 women using them, 9 get pregnant each year. Mrs. Pickle on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half#post-2752064 Mon, 26 Jun 2017 12:40:27 +0000 Mrs. Pickle 2752064@https://boards.hellobee.com/ I agree that you should discuss this with a therapist. Your OB will do an ultrasound to determine how far along you are and give you a due date. You don't have to pinpoint when you ovulated. Adira on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half#post-2752056 Mon, 26 Jun 2017 12:24:40 +0000 Adira 2752056@https://boards.hellobee.com/ @thestairs: I think this is something you need to discuss with your therapist. As you've said, your husband has very much wanted a baby and is very excited about this, but I know you don't feel the same way. Don't let your husband's view of this pregnancy pressure you to do or feel anything you aren't comfortable with. Again, talk to your therapist about this. And if your husband's words and actions are making you uncomfortable, you need to tell him. thestairs on "weird test line, the line upper half darker than lower half." https://boards.hellobee.com/topic/weird-test-line-partially-broken-upper-half-darker-than-lower-half#post-2752052 Mon, 26 Jun 2017 12:21:03 +0000 thestairs 2752052@https://boards.hellobee.com/ And I'm still trying to pinpoint down when I ovulated, since being on the hormonal full BCPills (not the mini pills, but the full pills. The combinations of estrogen and progestin). I know be on BCP, it mess my natural menstrual cycle up. The thing is when on BCPills, the period I got is not a natural period, but it a withdrawl bleeding from the placebo pills week, those are a hormonal period. A natural period is my period before I get on BCP. And that was almost 3 years ago, since I started on my BCPills almost 3 years ago. It not a long time, since there others that on BCP for decades, but it enough to mess up my natural cycle. Everything was fine, Never miss a pill. Until May last month, I ate something at Chinatown and it gives me servere vomiting, like I vomited a day straight, vomit my stomach upside down. I still took my BCP like usual, I swallowed it down for sure. So I thought my stomach would digest it and go in my system. I swear I didn't see the pill come back out when I throw up. Or maybe I throw up too much and tired and my eyes miss it. But I swear I didn't see the pill come back out of my stomach when I vomit. Let just say if that pill mess up my whole pack of BCPills for the month of May. I could have ovulate anywhere in between middle of May to the end of May. My period probably won't be like my old period timeline like before, because I heard that after you get off BCP or when BCP no longer work, it a new cycle of your period start all over, it starts all over again to ovulate an egg. So I really don't know if I ovulated in middle of May or the end of May. What I know is I did NOT get a period at all in May. And now the end of June, and still no period anywhere in sight. I mean an ultrasound can tell me how many weeks the baby is, then from that, it can estimate when I ovulated right? My last period was towards the end of April. But I didn't miss the pill until May. Let say after I miss the pills, hormones mess up, and no longer work. And my body began to ovulate. Then that leave me the timeline of middle of May to the end of May that I might have ovulated. If go by last period which is in towards the end of April, that would leave me at 9 weeks, which I think it too far along. ....... And doesn't it take 2 weeks after your period to ovulate an egg? That means if I did ovulate, it be the middle of May. The thing is I only started to feel fatigue and extremely nausea 2 weeks ago. I can't be 9 weeks along, that is too far. I guess I'm around 6 weeks, based on in May I throw up that tone day. I'm guessing I ovulated in the middle or end of May. Can anyone help guess when I can be ovulated? I will tell my OB/GYN when I throw up that one day in May, because I really think it was that one day in May mess up my whole pack of pills. I'm just confused, I just didn't think it could happen from just missing ONE pill, which I swear I didn't see I throw it up when I throw up that day in May. I'm just frustrated. I wasn't TTC at all.