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@simplyfelicity: @Autumnmama79: Thanks guys. I initially felt pretty numb about the whole thing- it was so early, and because its my second I was kind of distracted/never felt attached to it at all. But today I was definitely feeling more sad, and teared up a bit, which is probably contributing to my exhaustion. I like to be strong and in control and wanted to move on, and I think in my haste to process this I didn't leave room for the grief.

@catlady: @LCTBQE: @Nutella: I worked yesterday and today, and although I have a physically easy job (I literally sit all day listening to people talk) its definitely emotionally challenging (I'm a therapist). My husband was home Tuesday and Wednesday with us to help so I was able to rest a lot on those days- I think maybe I pushed it a bit much yesterday and today. My husband has to work this weekend, so my daughter and I are going to my parents house where I will be able to take lots of breaks! I'm headed to bed soon- you guys have me feeling somewhat optimistic that I will turn a corner and maybe even stop bleeding soon. I'm taking some supplements and trying to eat extra red meat/dark greens. I did end up calling the nurse today and she put in an order to check my hemoglobin on Monday when they check my HCG. I don't think I'm anemic right now, but its nice that they are proactive.

@Smurfette: Thanks buddy. I'm really okay, and in the scheme of things/how this could have gone its been about as good as it gets I think. So in that sense I feel kind of lucky. And for whatever reason I feel really optimistic that we will conceive again quickly. One of the things I'm most sad about is an increasing age gap, but lots of friends have reminded me that there is no perfect formula and life happens- so I'm trying to let go of my plans!