I realize maternity leave is so different for everyone. I feel really guilty for feeling this way, but it am just not meant to be a stay at home mom.

Days when my husband works long hours and the weather is really crappy (which is when he has to work long hours, yay snow removal business owners!) are the hardest. I feel so depressed and trapped and I'm not an attentive parent. I mope around the house and don't get anything done.

When the weather is nicer I have an easier time getting errands and cleaning done, but DH is usually home too and I like to hang out with him if I can (even if he's trying to work in the office, I know! Baaaaad!). I clearly struggle with feeling lonely during the days.

I'm not great about making plans with people (but I have been trying). So I end up just feeling sorry for myself.

I am looking forward to going back to work. I don't even like my job, but I don't like being at home alone all the time either. I love my kid and want to spend all the time in the world with him and feel SO guilty for wanting to go back to work.

Anyone else?