When I went in with my first, I had a birth plan and I decided to not even give it, I made all my decisions with my doctor (who I 100% trusted.) I'm glad I threw the paper away, it helped me give up my need to control (which was necessary for me to relax and not be anxious) and I think it helped to not have disappointment when I ended up with a C-section, ect. My second was a RCS so no need for a birth plan other than "show up on time and have this baby!" Did you use a birth plan?