clementine / 833 posts
Ugh - just got home from my appointment with my RE, and apparently whatever this 3 days of bleeding is, it isn't AF
He did another US to check things, and the retained stuff is still in there. He put the color-flow doppler on over the endometrium, and there's lots of blood flow, so it's still "very active." Plus the corpus luteum he saw on my right ovary is still there and unchanged. If I actually was ovulating a week ago, that should look different by now. I had bHCG and progesterone drawn again today, but the results won't be back until around 8 or 9 tonight. If the bHcG is the same or up, it definitely means D&C. And of course, my RE is going out of town next week. If my beta is down, it just means more waiting.
Emotionally I am so frustrated and disturbed that my body physically won't let me move on from this last pregnancy. Even 8 weeks later, my body still thinks it's pregnant. There's something just so sad about that. Selfishly it's making things more painful, but it's like she's begging not to be forgotten or something. Of course we wouldn't forget her, but for our own sanity and health of our marriage, we just need to move on.
The worst part I was so excited to see what I thought was AF again this morning - but last night there wasn't much, and I worried I'd sounded a false alarm. I even entered my AF dates into FF and Glow. Now here I am with a false alarm and an app that's going to be assuming all kinds of stuff that's wrong.
pear / 1563 posts
Trying to get pg 6 to show up...
pear / 1667 posts
@yellowbeach: this is just the worst. I'm so sorry. I hope things move on soon
This glitch bugs me so much.
Ugh. So sorry this is still dragging out for you.
kiwi / 691 posts
I'm so sorry that this is taking so long to resolve. Why can't our bodies know what's going on? Not the same, I know, but i started spotting this morning like 30 minutes before my scheduled D & C for a missed MC. I was like, body are you fcking kidding me?
coffee bean / 27 posts
@yellowbeach: I'm so sorry. So, so sorry. There's no part of this that doesn't suck. I really hope it clears up for you soon.
apricot / 479 posts
I'm so incredibly sorry this is dragging on so long. Big Big hugs!
apricot / 425 posts
@yellowbeach: I’m sorry. Hang in there!
So my bHcg is down from 78-->47, so that means I don't need a D&C. My progesterone is down 10.5-->2.2, so maybe I just had some weird bleeding prior to real AF. I hate this rollercoaster.
@yellowbeach: Crappy roller coaster, but, going the right direction!
@yellowbeach: at least you're heading the right way and get to avoid the D & C. I hope this means AF will be there soon! Wishing you the ability to move on to the next steps.
Just spent the last 5 hours in the Emergency Dept with my LO. She's had a fever for >4 days and hasn't been eating or drinking well the last two days, and then this morning had decreasing urine output. Since she has a VP shunt, we can't exactly ignore fevers that don't go away. We got a battery of tests (shunt series, blood cultures, basic labs, cath urine, etc), all of which were negative, and eventually she decided she wanted to drink some pedialyte and eat some yogurt. She's upstairs sleeping now, but I am spent.
grapefruit / 4022 posts
@yellowbeach: I’m so sorry. When it rains it pours seems like. I hope things look up soon
Just a little update... still trending my hcg out of my system... had a level drawn today, and hopefully it'll be gone soon based on my not-so-scientific excel chart with only 3 data points
My RE needs to come back from vacation STAT! lol
GOLD / pear / 1673 posts
@yellowbeach: So once the HCG is gone, does your period start or is it straight to tracking for ovulation? Like I know you ovulate before you have your period postpartum, and I assume it works the same... But just curious.
@Sams Mom: Well, that's a good question. I'm not sure my RE and I are convinced this last 5-6 days of "flow" (really heavy spotting) was a true AF or not. I *think* the plan is to now monitor with weekly hormone levels and USs to see what the hell is going on in there. Not sure though - hence why I want him back from vaca
Schedule for a repeat HcG on Tuesday which I hope will finally be 0.
Bad news: Hcg today was 17. On the bright side, I did connect and made an appointment with a counsellor that specializes in infertility and loss. I see her next Tuesday, in the afternoon, after I should have my repeat HcG and potentially know a plan.
Just a little update with good news for once
5dp5dt of a PGS normal embryo
GOLD / pomegranate / 3004 posts
Congrats!!!!!!! So happy to see this
That's so amazing! Congrats!
GOLD / pear / 1990 posts
Oh hooray!! Congratulations!
persimmon / 1420 posts
@yellowbeach: Congrats! Amazing news!
pear / 1814 posts
congrats so happy for you
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pear / 1914 posts
@yellowbeach: this really made my night. Congrats. Its been full circle on this thread and this is just so so sweet to read.
Thanks everyone. I felt so lost and so stuck weeks ago during these posts, I'm not truly over everything that's happened, but now I feel I have something positive to focus my energy on and close the last chapter and start a new one.
Sincerely, I do want to thank everyone for their support on this thread, especially @labradorlover who went through the same thing right before me and was really open, honest and so helpful in getting me to be able to share my story.
I realize I'm in no way out of the woods, but this is such a great step in the right direction.
persimmon / 1465 posts
@yellowbeach: oh my Lord I am so happy for you. I felt like you were so positive about this one and things were gonna work. What strength you have. Everything aligned and I am so so thrilled. Let yourself enjoy this xoxo
pomelo / 5295 posts
@yellowbeach: congratulations mama. I am sorry I wasn’t online more to offer support a few months ago. I also TFMR and it was such a tremendously sad point in my life. I wish you all the best with this pregnancy.
Ladies I’m worried this one might not be sticking. Beta is on Tuesday.
@yellowbeach: A girl in my FB group had a superrrrrrrrr slow start like that. It took a really long line for her to even get to control dark, like 2 weeks! But it did work out so ya never know! fingers crossed. So hard these early days of not knowing.
Ugh and just like that this is definitely not my rainbow . Either AF or a MC presented herself for sure this morning.
Thanks for all the positivity. It’s nice to know so many others are rooting for me in this journey.
pomegranate / 3833 posts
@yellowbeach: So sorry to hear that!
@yellowbeach: I’m so sorry. Repeat losses are just a beating emotionally. Big hugs
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