So my grandmother found out this week that she has cancer. They don't know what kind yet so there isn't really a timeline, but it has already been decided that she won't be pursuing treatment because she's too old/fragile to undergo surgery or chemo/radiation. She and my family have pretty quickly aligned to a mindset of hoping that she stays feeling good for as long as possible and that the doctors are able to make her comfortable when things get worse and just hoping that she doesn't linger in pain.

I've always been pretty close to my grandmother, she's my only grandparent left. I live a few hours away now but I still call about once per month to catch up and go see her whenever I'm home.

I'm feeling like I should be doing something though..? I've lost other people in my life but most of them were when I was very young, or the deaths were entirely sudden/unexpected. I've never been in a situation of knowing that someone I love is dying, probably in the next year or so. And I keep thinking that once she is gone I'll look back and wish I'd done something more. But beyond seeing her when I can, calling her when I can, sending her a thousand pics of LO... I just can't think of anything else to do.

If you've been in this situation-- did you do anything? Did you have a bucket list of sorts? Anything you wish you would have done?

Taking her out places is out of the question because she isn't mobile enough for that.

Anyways. Sorry for the super depressing post. I'm just processing. And feeling sort of helpless that I can't think of something more to DO in the time we have left.