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  1. jaguar

    pomegranate / 3764 posts

    @Jess1483: YES!!!!!! Hooray for AF! Hope mine isn't too far off.

    @ValentineMommy: I hear you. I have a bunch of ladies from Georgia's pregnancy group that are pregnant right now (most due after I would have been, urgh) - and with all the CONSTANT complaints about being pregnant, I had to leave the group. I would have morning sickness every single day, all day every day, if it meant I could have a healthy baby at the end of it all.

    @2PeasinaPod: I'm glad you have a plan but I am SO sorry that you need one at all. *big massive hugs* I always found males better than females too, weird huh? My friend had her Asherman's scarring cleared up, and she's fallen naturally twice. I know, I know, one of THOSE stories, but I've heard it can make all the difference.

    @MaryM: You just pop in and out when you can. We'll be here.

    @Tidybee: I hope the appt went well today. It's a tough one, but I guess listen to your gut. x

    @simplyfelicity: I've decided to do a 12 week health program to make the next few months go by faster. At least I can shake some of this pregnancy weight... at least I hope.

    @FliegepilzHut: This dragging out is the worst. I'm so frustrated for you.

    @mrs bunchy: Still no period here. D&C was on August 12.

  2. jaguar

    pomegranate / 3764 posts

    My post mysteriously disappeared to page 16.

  3. Tidybee

    nectarine / 2834 posts

    Thanks everyone. I saw my doc yesterday, and he is convinced I've just been unlucky 3 times but he wants me to go to an RE for some testing, especially thyroid function just to be safe. As I expected, he (and DH) really wants me to take this month off to give my body a rest. I'm really sad about it. I know one month isn't a huge deal in the grand scheme of things but it feels like an eternity right now especially as we're entering the time to start trying this month. Our first due date will be here soon, and I won't be pregnant. We've been at this for so long now and it's starting to become the stressful process that we so desperately wanted to avoid since we had already been through it the first time.

  4. Tidybee

    nectarine / 2834 posts

    http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/5801492?ncid=fcbklnkushpmg00000037&ir=Parents
    Hopefully this link works -- nice article on miscarriages and the feelings that come.

  5. simplyfelicity

    cantaloupe / 6634 posts

    @Tidybee: Thank you for sharing the article. I wish miscarriage wasn't so hushed in our culture.

    I understand not wanting to wait and I am struggling with that, too. Maybe use this month to really invest in you? Make that your goal or something...a month just for Tidybee. Try a new hobby, get a massage, try that restaurant you have been meaning to...Just a thought. Also, I am "glad" it sounds like none of your miscarriages were related and one didn't lead to another. Sorry if this is confusing, I am pre coffee. In essence, ( hugs. )

  6. Jess1483

    nectarine / 2641 posts

    @Tidybee: Thanks for sharing the article. This whole process is so isolating that even "sharing" the experience with some random writer can be helpful. I'm sorry you're feeling defeated about waiting for a month. I would, too. Big hugs for you.

    @jaguar: One of my friends who has been really supportive is pregnant, due just a couple weeks before I would have been. She has the really awful morning sickness that Kate Middleton has (she was a bridesmaid in my wedding when she was pregnant with her second and carried a cup around to puke in all day...she really gets super sick). She wrote something on FB about how she really hates it, but she's still so glad because it means she gets her babe at the end. It's like, exactly the sentiment she should have, but for some reason it still pissed me off...

  7. Tidybee

    nectarine / 2834 posts

    @simplyfelicity: @Jess1483: Thanks guys! As crazy as it sounds, I hadn't even thought of the positive things I could do. I guess that speaks to how bummed out I've been. Thanks to you - I realized i have plenty of things to look forward to and keep me busy...including a long weekend away to a resort in Florida with just DH. Now I'll definitely be able to drink on the beach! Thanks for the lift...it was exactly what I needed.

  8. Tidybee

    nectarine / 2834 posts

    @jaguar: It'll be here soon jags. I know it!

  9. Crystal

    grapefruit / 4028 posts

    @jaguar: I know someone who complains constantly. They know what I'm going through, but they don't seem to understand that I would take whatever she has, times a million, and be grateful every single day to be pregnant with a healthy baby.

    @Jess1483: even when people day the right thing it can stillbe frustrating, lol.

    @Tidybee: I recently passed my EDD, so I know how hard it is. We'll be here to help you get through it. A month does seem to be an extraordinarily long time when all you want to do is get KU again so you can heal. I'm so sorry.

    @simplyfelicity: ugh, the waiting game is the worst. Hugs. How are you doing emotionally?

    I'm sorry for not participating more. I have a bad attitude towards ttc right now, I just feel like it's never going to happen, and the cost and process of going through fertility testing is overwhelming and intimidating. I haven't wanted to bring everyone down, but whenever I come on here to read, I'm reminded of how much you all understand and how supportive you are. ❤

  10. simplyfelicity

    cantaloupe / 6634 posts

    @Tidybee: I am glad you are feeling a bit better. Drinks on the beach sounds AMAZING...especially because I wasn't able to drink when we went to Maui a few weeks ago for our belated honeymoon (boooo....)
    @Crystal: I have actually been doing better emotionally the last couple of days. I am trying to not question it, just embrace it. I am still going to have good days and bad days.
    I hope you don't stay away because you feel like you might be negative...that's what this whole group is about, venting, worrying, crying, laughing through the tears...you would not be a drag by any means. It's just what we are all going through right now. It sucks, but it sucks a little less when you know you aren't alone in your grief and that others understand.

  11. Crystal

    grapefruit / 4028 posts

    @simplyfelicity: thanks, friend. ❤

  12. simplyfelicity

    cantaloupe / 6634 posts

    @Crystal: Anytime.

  13. Jess1483

    nectarine / 2641 posts

    @Crystal: Absolutely! Don't feel like you're "bringing us down." We've all had our good days and our bad. We're here to encourage on our good days and receive encouragement on our bad. I'm so sorry you're feeling overwhelmed about the possibility of fertility treatments. I can't even imagine. I'm wishing you peace and thinking of you!

  14. simplyfelicity

    cantaloupe / 6634 posts

    Anyone else having slight twinges and very, very mild cramps but no AF?

  15. jaguar

    pomegranate / 3764 posts

    @Tidybee: The waiting is THE WORST. *hugs* That article is very true. I have found myself looking at pregnant women I know, and wondering 'why them' all the time..

    @Jess1483: See, I feel bad for people with severe morning sickness... of course you would. But I'd seriously put up with it, and more, for what they're getting at the end. x

    @Crystal: GAH the complainers. Frustrating. I have the same fears as you, with fertility and money and TTC. You're not alone.

    @simplyfelicity: Those good and bad days you mentioned... I totally have those. I wish I could pick what sort of day it's going to be in the morning and know. Sometimes I just knocked for six with sadness.

  16. jaguar

    pomegranate / 3764 posts

    Ok.. confession time.

    When my HCG dropped back to negative, I decided to take my last batch of Clomid tablets. (I had them left over from 2012 - and they expire in December this year.) Clomid never worked for me before, so I figured ... what the heck.

    This morning:



  17. jaguar

    pomegranate / 3764 posts

    No guarantees that a) I'll actually ovulate, or b) It means anything - because our IF stuff goes both ways, hubby too... but I suppose at the very least, I'll hopefully get a period instead of having to take Provera?

  18. simplyfelicity

    cantaloupe / 6634 posts

    @jaguar: I have also used a couple of ovulation tests but they have been pretty darn negative. Here is a website I found super helpful about AF after m/c.

    http://www.pregnancyloss.info/waitingforaf.htm

  19. Tidybee

    nectarine / 2834 posts

    @jaguar: that looks great! I would still get some BDing in just in case! @Crystal: thanks for the sweet message. @simplyfelicity: I hate not doing stuff because I'm pregnant and then it ends up failing. it's like a double kick in the gut. I remember how I didn't order this awesome brie appetizer at a restaurant because oh gosh, it might hurt the baby. baby was already gone. It makes me feel so stupid. So yes, I'm happy I'll be able to really truly relax.
    I read another article when I was googling "3 miscarriages". Here's a little excerpt for all of us who feel that it is so unfair that people get pregnant/have babies easily:
    "The true, valuable concerns of fairness have less to do with entitlement and more to do with institutionalized racism and sexism and the history of marginalization and how to solve those problems as a modern, thoughtful society. That's something worth worrying about. But me not having a baby THE INSTANT I WANT ONE is not about fairness. It's not about anything. It is what it is.

    And, truth be told, do you know what's unfair? That I met my husband, who is great, when I was 22 and I only had to waste time dating, like, three or four horrible a**holes. You know what else is unfair? That I was born in a comfortably upper-middle class family and was afforded every opportunity. That I'm white and straight. That is unfair."
    and the full link - http://www.huffingtonpost.com/emily-kaye-lazzaro/6-things-i-learned-from-having-3-miscarriages_b_5174142.html

  20. jaguar

    pomegranate / 3764 posts

    @simplyfelicity: I am taking this with a grain of salt... but I just really want AF to hurry up and get here!!!!!!!

    @Tidybee: Thanks for linking that. I needed it.

  21. Ashleyf21

    grape / 92 posts

    Hi ladies! So I had an early miscarriage (4 weeks 4 days) on August 23rd. When I first found out I was pregnant I was having pressure around my pelvic bone and upper thigh (both sides). I looked it up and women were saying it can be normal in pregnancy. I then miscarried 5 days later and ever since I still feel pressure there. Im almost positive I passed the baby because it was pretty obvious...and my hcg levels went from 37 to 12 in 2 days. I was wondering if any of you ladies have/had this pressure even after you had a miscarriage? Now I'm really concerned because we BD on this past o-4, o-2, o-1, o, o+1 this cycle, and thats the same schedule we did last month when we did get pregnant. If anyone has any advice please let me know!! I called my doctor on Thursday, but havent heard back yet

  22. simplyfelicity

    cantaloupe / 6634 posts

    @Ashleyf21: Hi! I am very sorry for your loss. It's gut - wrenching no matter how early. As far as the pressure, I am not sure especially if it is on your thighs. It is possible that you are fixated on it and keep feeling the sensation? I think calling your doctor again tomorrow might be good. I wouldn't be concerned (and I have terrible anxiety!) Based on your HCG, it sounds like you did pass the baby. With my 4 week loss, I could see the sac though it was very very small, but I didn't get any betas done. (I also didn't with my most recent 11 week loss either so I am no help with betas. )
    As far as your BD timing, what are you concerned about? That it isn't good timing (it's incredible timing in my book) or because it's too soon (with very early m/cs you can try right away?) Unless you confirmed ovulation through OPKS and temping, don't be surprised if you have a long cycle this month or you don't ovulate at all. My cycles are usually 29 days and my cycle after my CP was 38 day long. Best of luck to you and feel free to come chat with us any time.

  23. Ashleyf21

    grape / 92 posts

    @simplyfelicity : you are so sweet! Thank you for such a quick response! I actually was wondering the same thing..if I'm so fixated in the pain that maybe I'm creating it myself? I believe our timing is great too, I'm just concerned because of the pressure I've been feeling..that maybe it wasn't the best idea to try when I don't know if something is wrong with me. I tend to worry a lot and look everything up on google (I know it's a very bad idea but for some reason I still do it) it was saying I could be having an ectopic pregnancy or endometriosis. So it just gave me cause for concern now. I didn't realize that there would be a chances that my cycle could be off... I actually ovulated (via opk) on cd16, which is when I normally ovulate. I'm so sorry for you losses, sometimes it's easier to talk to someone who has been through it and understands the pain. I'm always here to talk

  24. simplyfelicity

    cantaloupe / 6634 posts

    @Ashleyf21: Geez...I just posted the longest response ever and HB ate it. Basically, your symptoms don't point to endometriosis or ectopic pregnancy but it's not a bad idea to see your doctor for a cervical check.
    As far as the worrying, I completely understand. The brain is SO powerful. For example, if you keep thinking that your knee is itchy, that will become all you feel. I have personal experience with this and notice that when I get tired and bored of the fixation, it goes away. This is why symptom spotting and being convinced you are pregnant is often fruitless because our bodies can convince us of these things.
    Feel free to stick around and start a conversation at any time. It's usually a bit more "hopping" here on the weekdays.

  25. Tidybee

    nectarine / 2834 posts

    @jaguar: glad it helped. For me, it forced me to look outside of my little world and at the whole big picture and where my miscarriages fit into it all.

  26. Tidybee

    nectarine / 2834 posts

    @Ashleyf21: Hi -- I too am sorry to see you here. I don't think it would hurt to call your doc and say you've been having some pressure and cramping since your miscarrage and you'd like to be seen.

  27. FliegepilzHut

    pomegranate / 3533 posts

    @Tidybee: That is an interesting article...I imagine one that it's only possible to write after you're pretty sure you're in the home stretch. Still, it was an interesting perspective. Thanks for sharing!

  28. jaguar

    pomegranate / 3764 posts

    @FliegepilzHut: Agreed, I was a bit put off when I saw she was pregnant at the end of the article.

    @Ashleyf21: No real advice here, because I've not had an early loss or natural miscarriage - but I think if you're concerned, it's worth checking up on. For shiz! Better to rule out 'it's nothing' than be wishing you'd checked it sooner. I'm sure it's fine. xx

    @Tidybee: So hard to not be focused on MEMEMEME all the time.

    So a really good friend of mine got her BFP (bebe #2) yesterday and I'm so excited for her (she was IVF as well) but I'm also still so frustrated because I'm STILL not there. This has been the longest five weeks of my entire life.

  29. jaguar

    pomegranate / 3764 posts

    I got my smily face last night though.. so I think I might actually be O-ing (Thanks, sneaky Clomid!)



  30. mrs bunchy

    kiwi / 533 posts

    Arg!! Still no AF! I have a hugely busy work week today.. I picked up 20 hours of OT- it always sounds like a good plan until the day comes mind you- I work really long shifts.. 13 hrs 2x a week and 2 8hr shifts... So I pretty much killed my week! I'm a dork doggie mom and feel bad leaving this little dog home all by herself for those long days.. So I take her to my inlaws to hang out with their retriever. She makes sure I don't leave without her either.

    Her waiting by her "taxi".

    Ps- this was just a long mumble jumble that ends with a cute picture.

    Pss- does anyone else's DH think you are a dork for participating in hello bee exchanges? I mean- I get pretty into my gift packaging and shopping.. I can see where DH thinks I'm nuts.

    The end.



  31. FliegepilzHut

    pomegranate / 3533 posts

    @jaguar: Yay! I think I may have ovulated in the last day or so (heckuva lot of good that does me, usually), however at least that means things are on track for November!

  32. jaguar

    pomegranate / 3764 posts

    @FliegepilzHut: I hear you! We have hubby issues too, so ovulating (while is worth celebrating, since it NEVER Happens on its own) means nothing really. But yay, my November FET buddy! xxx

    @mrs bunchy: Gorgeous pup! I love exchanges too, shopping is awesome.

  33. FliegepilzHut

    pomegranate / 3533 posts

    @mrs bunchy: Argh. I hope your AF gets here soon and life gets a bit less hectic. Your pup is adorable!

    @jaguar: We're officially "unexplained." Oh well. Yay for November transfers and (hopefully) BFPs!!!

  34. jaguar

    pomegranate / 3764 posts

    @FliegepilzHut: I really hope November is our month.

  35. FliegepilzHut

    pomegranate / 3533 posts

    @jaguar: Me too!

  36. Ashleyf21

    grape / 92 posts


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  37. Ashleyf21

    grape / 92 posts

    @jaguar that's so exciting!! Bd everyday!!! I'll be crossing my fingers for a BFP this cycle for you! And ya I think it would be better to call him again, I just feel bad because I worry about every symptom and I don't want him to think I'm just crying wolf.

    @tidybee thank you

  38. Ashleyf21

    grape / 92 posts


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    grape / 92 posts


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  40. Ashleyf21

    grape / 92 posts

    @tidybee it keeps deleting my message to you! So weird!!! I was saying thank you I'm going to call tomorrow! I'm hoping it's nothing serious

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