I'm hoping the bees will be able to calm me down a bit, and help me stay positive.

I've mentioned a couple of times that I have a translocation, which results in something like a 25-30% of either miscarriage or passing on a terminal (as in, death soon after birth) condition. Anyway, we were incredibly lucky in conceiving our healthy little X easily-- no miscarriages, conceived without really trying, (we were just going with the flow) etc. Very lucky and very blessed.

Now, we're hoping to TTC for #2 sometime in the coming year. But since X weaned a year ago, my cycles haven't really regulated. They seem to be getting more irregular. I've had 2 anovulatory cycles in the last 4 months. My doctor suspects PCOS-- maybe fibroids. I have an ultrasound scheduled for this week to check for both-- or anything else.

So-- here I am with one issue that makes it challenging to conceive babies that will survive-- but now I'm looking at possibly having another. I know each of these issues can be overcome on their own-- but I don't know what happens in the event of both. And that prospect is making me so sad and anxious/scared. Help?