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@mrskansas: I started journaling. At the end I write a couple things that I am looking forward to that are unrelated to TTC, and also a couple of things I am grateful for. It seems to at least help elevate my mood.

@mrskansas: I'm sorry you're feeling down lately. When we were TTC with our first I would do things that I knew I wouldn't want to or be able to do once pregnant, like whiten my teeth, perm my hair or meet friends for cocktails. It made me feel like I was accomplishing something at least. A couple of weeks ago at Disneyland (this was a few weeks after an early MC) I also enjoyed being able to go on rides with DS.

So right now I'm coming up with all the things I won't get to do when/if I get pregnant again, to pass the time now.

@Raspberry: I'm sorry for your loss That's a good idea though. I should start doing all the things I won't be able to do when I'm pregnant

@mrskansas: What I'm trying to do lately is to focus on the present. Dwelling too much on past TTC is sad and thinking too much about future TTC is overwhelming - I wonder how many more OPKs, BFNs, ultrasounds with bad news, etc there will be before a take-home baby. When I do have positive thoughts about future TTC I worry that I'm just getting my hopes up to have them disappointed again, and still feel blah. You know the mantra "today I'm pregnant." I think that works for TTC as well. So today I tried thinking "today I'm healing." And I'm trying to take actions to help with that as well, like eating healthy to restore nutrients. At other times I'm going to try thinking "today I'm gearing up to ovulate", or "today my body is getting rid of last cycle so it's ready to try again," etc. I don't know if it will help, but seems worth a try...

It is a very long day at work today, and I'm already totally spent. I definitely feel anemic, I started taking OTC iron yesterday and hope it kicks in soon.

I'm getting incredibly faint lines on my
Wondfos. I either Od later than usual due to b complex or it's another chemical I think. If it is another chemical I'd be given progesterone for "next" time... don't really know what to think.

@mrskansas: I think it may be in the feb poas thread.. lemme look

@knittylady: I have my fingers crossed for you I'm sorry it has been such a rollercoaster My current fantasy is to be one of those women who finds out at like 8 weeks and gets to skip half of the first trimester and know right away how things are looking, not that it's likely to happen. The limbo sucks, and I'm sure for you especially after the past few months.

@snarkybiochemist: Meditation sounds awesome - do you use any particular method?

@snarkybiochemist: That's awesome. I like trail running as meditation, but it doesn't really work in the middle of winter, or when I'm not allowed to exercise. I'm thinking maybe I should experiment with something more traditional...

I accidentally responded to mrs Kansas in by b complex thread- lists in case anyone's interested

And thanks for the good thoughts. It's really hard not to get invested even when it's not more than a shadow

Wooo! I'm in the TWW! This cycle is shaping up to be much better than the last one. I was able to get a definitive positive OPK and a temperature shift. Looks like I ovulated on CD 15!

@Tionn3:

It's another very long day at work for me. As I mentioned earlier, I'm trying to keep my mind in the present, but the present can seem hard and I wish I could feel like things with TTC would get easier. But given how things have gone so far, it doesn't seem very realistic to expect that. I still have some lingering physical symptoms, including a little bump that I'm sure no one else notices with loose clothing but it is a very noticeable reminder to me. And sometimes the emotions just hit me. It takes a lot of energy to go on with whatever work stuff I have to do pretending like everything is great. I'm drinking a cup of rooibos tea now (yum) hoping it will be a little pick-me-up.

@snarkybiochemist: Thank you

@periwinklebee: I'm sorry. The days do seem to drag on when you want something so badly and it just isn't happening in the time you had hoped.
I wish I had words of wisdom or something that you make you feel better, but I don't. I still struggle. Many days I think to myself, "well, I should be 17 weeks now..." and have a hard time coping. But I try to remember that it WILL happen and just to trust in your body and as hard as it is, be patient.

Cycle Day: 18

TTC Cycle: 1year

Ovulation Date: Today!

POAS Date: 3/6/17

Baby #: 2

What's up this month: First clomid cycle. Took 50mg days 3-7. At my second ultrasound I have one mature follicle! I got a positive opk last night, and it was still positive this morning. Will BD one more time tonight. Also, they called in progesterone, which I started two nights ago.

For Fun: What do you look forward to when spring begins? Nice weather!

@snarkybiochemist: yes please