kiwi / 614 posts
There are so many words for how TTC has made me feel: disappointed, angry, sad, jealous, impatient, obsessive, hopeful, joyful (that one was short-lived)...
I got a bfp after 2 months of TTC in July. I then miscarried at 5 weeks in August. Now I'm on cycle 3 post m/c.
I'm feeling pretty pessimistic this cycle, I'm just trying to convince myself that it won't happen so I do not get my hopes up and test 20 times only to be met with AF. For the moment I'm on CD21 and waiting to O...I guess we'll see what happens. There is still a part of me deep down that is hopeful.
coffee bean / 40 posts
I am feeling a little unsure of myself and confused...we are only on cycle 3, so I know that is not too long, but at the same time both of us are healthy, I am 25 so I am not sure why it isnt happening as quickly as I thought it would. I went into TTC very optimistic, and now i am starting to think more realistically. I am trying not to stress or worry, and just relax, and if I get pregnant within the next couple months I will be happy. Remaining positive, but more realistic. I am in the TWW now, so if this month is a fail, next month I am going to try preseed and charting my BBT.
GOLD / wonderful apricot / 22646 posts
I'm so excited to go home and start reading TCOYF! YAY for Amazon Prime - 2 day shipping!
I went to the gyno yesterday for my annual exam and he said "go home and have sex tonight; you're mid-cycle!" LOL. Unfortunately, some things came up and I had to spend the night at my parents so it didn't happen.
But, I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S ALL HAPPENING.
hostess / wonderful apple seed / 16729 posts
@mrsjyw- Haha, that's funny what your gyno said.
I'm feeling good to be on my first cycle of TTC. It would be great if we do get pregnant but I'm also not getting my hopes up just in case we don't. I'm just happy that we are finally starting.
persimmon / 1085 posts
Uh, depressed, sad, angry, jealous, worried, scared, anxious. That pretty much sums it up! 17 mos. trying, 1st month of IVF just cancelled Monday...not going well at all. I keep telling myself that if this does finally actually happen for us, it will all be worth it. That's the only thing that keeps me going with this infertility battle.
blogger / honeydew / 7081 posts
Today I'm not doing so great (AF just arrived after a 30 day LP that had me convinced I was preggo). Everyone and their sister seems to be pregnant around me, so its tough. But I know that there's a reason for everything, and the last 10 months of trying sure have taught me something about patience.
pomelo / 5628 posts
@RedSmarties - Sorry! A 30 LP...wow. Are you sure? Are you charting?
blogger / honeydew / 7081 posts
@MrsGreenGrass, yep, I'm sure. Charting obsessively. I took 5 tests @ home and 2 at the doctor, all were negative. My FIL died suddenly two weeks ago though, so I'm wondering if the stress had more of an impact on me than I thought. That's the first time its happened, for sure.
blogger / wonderful cherry / 21628 posts
TTC has been a roller coaster for sure. I get anxious before ovulation, excited around ovulation, nervous post ovulation, and then sad and sometimes depressed when AF arrives. I am currently at the end of cycle 6, 16 dpo, and AF is one day late.
Knowing that my mother, aunts, and friends have all gotten pregnant on accident, some more than once, makes it a little bit harder. I always thought once we decided to have a baby, getting pregnant would take a month or two.
On a happier note, I did read TCOYF this cycle and I feel like I have a better grasp of charting. So now I am feeling more optimistic for this cycle and for future cycles.
persimmon / 1465 posts
I am in a different mindset to you all! I have a beautiful 6 mo LO and we are trying for #2. I actually WANT AF to show up! I am nursing my LO and waiting for my cycle to return so we are back in the game. Due to my age the clock is seriously ticking, we really only have a small window to work with.
pomelo / 5524 posts
Hi ladies! First time poster on these boards!
Right now, though I'm feeling at peace for our own journey month 14 w/ a MC in between), I'm very sad for our family. We just found out that my SIL is miscarrying and it's the second in a matter of 6 months for us. I's frustrating that so many people can get pregnant and have kids so easily and it's such a struggle for others.
persimmon / 1114 posts
@2peasinapod - I'm sorry for your sister. I know that is so hard to go through.
I am in my 7th month trying. Last month hit me really hard because it was tough mentally going over the 6th month mark. Since I have some known fertility issues (endo), this month we are moving onto some fertility treatments so it makes me a little more hopeful...
pomelo / 5628 posts
@2Peas - Nice to see you here, but so sorry for your sister!!
I'm getting excited again...just because it's that part of the cycle when I actually have a shot again. In general I'm not too hopeful this month thought b/c of what the doc said about my progesterone and lining. But it's at least exciting to know that next month will be different. (Planning Clomid + IUI.)
pea / 9 posts
First time posting!Im feeling really down a the moment, I tested yesterday,AF was 2 days late,and got 2 BFN`s and one invalid result (frustrating much?)Although this is our first cycle TTC we have spent over 12 months NTNTC (not trying not to conceive) and I stupidly had set my heart on this being our month. So at the moment Im disappointed and I know my husband is too,although Im not totally giving up until AF shows up!
pea / 16 posts
AF showed up Friday and I have to be honest....I was pretty upset. I am now moving on to our 3rd cycle and am worried that our age is going to be more of a problem than I had hoped (I am 36..he is 41). If we don't get PG by the begining of the year I will make an appt. to discuss issues with my Dr. I am on CD3 right now so I have a way to go this month...hoping to have a BFP by xmas!
pear / 1650 posts
AF showed up "early" (13 days coming off BC) last Friday, and I was really upset because I'd heard that you can get pg right after coming off BC. I hoped I'd be one of those lucky ones. Now I'm trying to figure out if this counts as Cycle 2? I'm not sure if it was a real period or just a weird coming-off-BC thing. Now that AF is gone. I bought one of those OP kits and used one this morning. Never try something for the first time ever when you are a zombie just haven woken up. ha!
GOLD / wonderful apricot / 22646 posts
@lilybugg78: I'm still waiting, 9 days late, BFN, cramping like hell. I bought OPK strips from Amazon, but haven't started using them. I don't even know how... LOL. How is it working for you?
pear / 1650 posts
MrsJYW- the cramps are unREAL aren't they?! I thought I was going crazy at the airport. I bought the ClearBlue month supply. $40 bucks, yikes! Well, this morning I tried it and I was inserting the strip the wrong way. It took me like an entire 3 minutes for me to figure out how to get the thing to "click" into place. Yeeeah, you line up the triangles. Not rocket science. ha ha! I got a blank circle, no smiley face yet. If my AF was a real one, then I'm thinking I won't see the smiley for at least another 10 days. I bought it because my sister started using one coming off her BC and got PG her first cycle trying!
persimmon / 1202 posts
Very down. My husband let me know last night that he may have to deploy as early as next week (he got back three weeks ago.) This would've been our first cycle, but now I'm pretty sure my emotions are too volatile for it to work, even if I WANTED to get pregnant right before he deploys.
coffee bean / 38 posts
We are Cycle 7, CD 6 and I'm kind of ho-hum right now. I was very optimistic Cycles 1-4 because I so naively started out thinking that once you had unprotected sex during your fertile time, getting pg was pretty much automatic.
I was really depressed and emotional during Cycle 5. Since it hadn't happened already, I felt like we would never get pg. During that cycle, Mrs. Green Grass, Running Elley, and MrsMCK and a few others gave me hope and encouragement from their stories and support (some of them have been trying for a lot longer than me and they still remain so positive most of the time!)
I didn't have my hopes up for Cycle 6 and I'm kind of feeling the same for this one. Timing wasn't ideal (ok, but not awesome) and this month is looking to be about the same. There's been nothing we can do about it, but hope and pray...so if Cycle 7 turns into Cycle 8, we will be hoping and praying for a BFP in 2012!
Best wishes to everyone TTC, whether its your first or your 14th month. I think we all go through the depressed, excited, nervous, anxious, happy, and sad times and I'm happy that we have each other for support.
pomelo / 5720 posts
4DPO in cycle 1 TTC, cycle 3 NTNT. I am loathing the TWW even more than I thought I would. I am obsessively reading everything I can about symptoms, etc. I wish I could just be okay with letting things happen when they will but I'm finding that pretty impossible. Next week cannot come soon enough...
pear / 1650 posts
@cyneswith: I'm very sorry that your husband is being re-deployed! I honestly think there should be some type of national recognition for army wives/girlfriends. You are very brave to deal with their being gone so long, and I appreciate what your husbands are doing. (I know this is waayyyy off topicbut I just had to add that little tidbit.) Good luck TTC, think of how great it would be to surprise him with a BFP while he's away
cherry / 151 posts
I just got "broken" (my period) today. I'm feeling hopeful for a December pregnancy, though! *sprinkles baby dust on everyone*
GOLD / cantaloupe / 6703 posts
3 DPO and feeling anxious, hopeful, and paranoied becaused I know that I'll interpret every feeling as a potential symptom.
pomelo / 5628 posts
@Tejbee - That's what my bff calls it too, "broken."
I started AF today too. Cycle 16 sounds like a good number, right? : /
Excited to be trying something new for the first time; starting Clomid on Day 3. Appt with RE on Day 11 to see how it has worked. Very exciting!
Good luck to everyone...And I posted this on WB too, but let's all take a day off from worrying, symptom-spotting etc. on Thanksgiving k? We can make a pact...and drink our wine.
Aussie and other country ladies, you should join us too...it's on Thursday : )
blogger / honeydew / 7081 posts
Oh, @MrsGreenGrass - I was hoping this might be your cycle. But super exciting about this next cycle - its so nice to try something new. Hopefully the Clomid is exactly what you need.
And I'm Canadian, but I'll take a day off of worrying. Except...it might be Friday, because Thursday is projected O-day.
pear / 1517 posts
I'm getting worried. We've been ntnt and plan to begin actively trying next month. Of course my perfectly regular 30day cycles are now 37 days long. I hope the quality over quantity rule applies to my cycles!
blogger / wonderful cherry / 21628 posts
@tejbee, I am hopeful for a december pregnancy too. I'm feeling more relaxed this cycle. I haven't o'd yet though. Maybe the holidays will make the tww not so bad?
blogger / apricot / 427 posts
Trying to keep feeling upbeat this month. CD19 right now...11th high day in a row on my CBFM (crazyness!). FF has me O'ing on Thursday - so I'm really interested to see what CBFM does on that day.
I'm really hoping that the new things we're trying this month (PreSeed, Royal Jelly, Grapefruit Juice, CBFM, BD every other day) end up working out for us - but I also want to stay very realistic with myself and just let what will be, be.
pomegranate / 3764 posts
I'm feeling.... over it. But then trying to stay positive at the same time!
pomelo / 5720 posts
@Mrs Green Grass: Sounds good to me! I could use a day (or two or three) where I relax a bit about the whole process. A small glass of wine sounds wonderful right about now
kiwi / 614 posts
@Mrs Green Grass: Yes to taking the day off! In my case, I'll be taking Fri, Sat, and Sun off. I'll be with friends celebrating Thanksgiving and having a good time and a few glasses of wine.
apricot / 307 posts
I'm sitting here at CD7. I went to my OB/GYN yesterday. Everything is good other than making sure to work out to get my weight down. She said to not let the weight discourage us from trying especially since she said that it can take on average 8 months to get pregnant. I'm relieved that my appointment went well. I just need to work on the working out part of it.
persimmon / 1202 posts
Doing better - husband isn't due to deploy again until next fall. O day came as expected/on schedule. 3 DPO, Debating now whether to test before honeymoon (in 10 days), so I'm not disappointed when AF shows up during honeymoon.
blogger / honeydew / 7081 posts
@cyneswith - I'm 3 DPO too! Fingers crossed that you get your BFP before/during the honeymoon - wouldn't that be a great gift? I'm trying to hold out testing until like 14DPO so I won't get disappointed.
cherry / 181 posts
It was a rough weekend. I have never had increased emotions immediately following ovulation but this weekend... wow. I was a wreck. I didn't think I ovulated (no positive OPK- CM dried up a day or two before my temp spike) and the jury is out until my end of cycle blood draw (FF gave me solid cross hairs). I told hubs I didn't want to try anymore this cycle (so we just BD once) and that I wanted to take next cycle off. We'll see how i feel a week from now, but I was overwhelmed my the emotions. Talk about a roller coaster ride.
pear / 1639 posts
Wishing you all luck and baby dust. I know how hard it can be, but you have a lot of support and aren't alone Try to stay strong and positive.
GOLD / wonderful apricot / 22646 posts
I am on pause. DH is on antibiotics for an unexpected infection and has caused a minor hiccup in our journey. Frustrated at first, now it's just a waiting game...
blogger / honeydew / 7081 posts
@ParkerHaus - I've totally been there. It just gets so frustrating after awhile, and so emotionally draining, that sometimes you need to just take a break. For me, it was right after my father-in-law was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer - I couldn't take all the emotions at once. Then when he died a few weeks later, I felt as though I needed to start trying again (I think my grief-stricken brain figured that if we conceived that cycle, it would be a boy, and we could name it after him).
Anyhow, long rant to say, I get it. And a roller coaster is only fun when you know you'll be able to get off shortly.
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