Oh mamas, I'm at a little bit of a loss. Long and rambling post/vent ahead...

My first LO was extremely colicky. At 4 months, his pedi confirmed that he had a milk protein allergy. Until that point he was exclusively BF, but my supply was dropping since returning to work and I was SO done with the fussiness, so I switched him to Alimentum and only continued BFing 2x per day for one more month. He was a new baby on that formula and I was at peace with my decision. But I did hope to BF any future babies for longer.

Fast forward to LO2, who is now 10 weeks. I eliminated dairy from my diet when he was born. The few times I experimented with ice cream, he reacted badly. He hadn't been colicky like big brother, but he's been getting fussier with each passing week. From the first week, though, he's had bad gas, reflux, and congestion. Starting around 5 weeks, he's had consistently explosive green poops. His pedi confirmed what I've been suspecting - MSPI. Maybe big brother was intolerant to soy as well, who knows. Anyway, I'm pretty bummed. Eliminating dairy is one thing, and totally doable. Eliminating soy too though? I don't think I want to do it.

I purchased a can of Alimentum on Saturday and have started him on that. My original plan was to pump frequently to maintain my supply and to combo feed - bottles of formula during the day and nursing for the dream feed, the overnight feed, and first thing in the morning. But on Monday, he puked the dream feed all over me! Now I'm paranoid to nurse again. So I'm EPing, dumping it out, and only feeding him formula. I'm just pumping because I'm not 100% at peace with weaning yet.

He's doing really well on the formula. It takes him forever to finish a bottle, but he drinks 5-6 oz. I'm pumping anywhere from 25-30 oz per day, so that seems about right for 5 feeds.

But I miss nursing, and he's always rooting around. But I don't want to continue pumping all the time - I SAH now with a toddler and a newborn, and maybe some can find a way to make it work, but I'm not one of them! I don't want to do an elimination diet.. I can try to limit my soy and continue to keep off dairy, but I'm not doing anything more restrictive.

I think I'm probably just going to try to get in one last nursing session so our last time is hopefully better than Monday night, and then slowly wean off the pump and let the Alimentum do its thing.

I'm just sad and guess I wanted to vent. He's snoozing right now, but when he wakes up I'm going to try nursing and hope he keeps it down Any advice for weaning?