I am so sick of pregnancy and "doctor" appointments.

I am not excited about the baby anymore and I feel like this pregnancy has nothing to do with me. I feel like an object, and only very rarely do I really believe there is a baby in there.

I feel fat. I feel bloody (constant nosebleeds). I feel uncomfortable with food (heartburn, nausea, afraid to keep gaining over the normal amount). I feel uncared for--my husband rocks, but everyone else is far away and my doctor's office is a clinic that pretty much sends me out if anything actually happens and all they do is weigh me and check my blood pressure. My skin is worse than when I was a teenager.

Why am I so negative and so disappointed with my care?

I have had depression issues in the past and this seems totally different so I'm pretty frustrated.

Sorry for the long rant. Anyone in the same boat? Or have any advice?