I have been really moody and just bla lately. Normally I am a very up beat person. I haven't been my self lately. I keep trying to get out of this funk but nothing I do seems to help. I hate wallowing but I just can't stop. I lost a bunch of weight last year and I am gaining it back ... It is just frustrating, I have no ambition to do anything... It has been 2 months since the MC and I just don't know how to move on. AF showed on sunday and it just ..... sucked. On to the next cycle... (Sucked isn't even close to the right word about how it felt when she showed. I don't even know a word to describe how I felt.)

I need to do something and eating boxes of Christmas Chocolates is not helping... I know I should work out again and I have tried I get about 2 days in and then I find my self laying on the couch just drained.

I just really needed to get that off my chest. Thank you for listening.