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@Makingbabyw: I'm so sorry for your loss. I was a mess ttc after my m/c as well. I cried a lot. I tried to mark the loss the best I knew how, so it didn't feel like I was brushing it aside. I created a memory shadow box, wrote a letter, and chose a piece of jewelry to commemorate out little one. I tried to be grateful for the time I got to be LO's mom, even though it was so short. The first few months of pregnancy with my rainbow baby were very hard for me, too. I relied heavily on the women here who were going through similar things. I wish I had better advice, and I hope others can chime in here. Feel free to wall me if you'd like to talk more.

It takes awhile after a loss for your hormones to re-regulate. After my first loss, I felt like a total mess (would cry on my way to work every day). I was crazed at work and thought being busy would help distract me but I wasn't getting much sleep, taking care of myself, etc. After my second loss (a D&C), I felt like my hormones regulated much faster. I focused on taking care of myself and tried my best to stay upbeat. I listened to upbeat music, exercised, ate well, planned a last minute getaway with DH, watched funny movies, etc. It sounds silly but I watched the movie The Secret on Netflix about the law of attraction which basically said if you believe good things will happen to you then you will attract good things in your life. Clearly that theory has its limits but I figured I had nothing to lose by trying to be optimistic and opted for a fake it till you make it approach until I actually felt better. I got pregnant the cycle after my first post-D&C period and I'm now 27 weeks. Just try to keep the faith and be kind to yourself. Try to take comfort in the fact that you are not alone and that your body can get pregnant (it was just a bad egg or sperm, etc.) and your body did everything it was supposed to do. Best of luck and sorry for your loss.

I am so, so sorry about your miscarriage. I had a similar experience (D&C at 8.5 weeks) and it hit me very hard, I felt alone and frightened that I'd never be able to carry a pregnancy. The most helpful thing for me was talking to and hearing about other women who'd had losses, much of which I found here on HB. I was active on that TTC After Loss board with @Shantuck: and everyone there was wonderfully supportive--I wonder if you re-post there or start a new thread if you'd find some people in a similar spot?

Not sure I can advise on keeping calm, as I too was a ball of nerves and got a little obsessive about charting and opk's. I don't actually think it was such a bad thing, though--for some women, trying again is part of the healing process. It helped me feel better to think that I was doing all that I could. Maybe you'll find comfort in seeing that you're ovulating again, and knowing that you could conceive in the first place. As for re-balancing, agree with Shantuck that your hormones truly are thrown off and it might take more than the one cycle for them to re-set. In the meantime, do your favorite things when you have the energy, get lots of rest, and hang in there

Trying to eat healthy, throw myself into working out a lot, working some extra hours to stay busy. Seeing a therapist and going to group support. Making my grief work a priority. Making sure I make time for myself outside of my family.

We had a loss at 18.5 weeks - went through L&D. It's been a rough few months but I am having more good days than bad at this point. I do have two healthy living children so that is a huge source of comfort and strength for me.

I was a mess for about three months after my first miscarriage. After that, I was still hurting but the pain wasn't so much like a raw nerve and more like a deep ache.

When we started TTC again, it was very very difficult. Everyone around us was having their babies or was pregnant, it seemed like. I imagine watching your best friend have her baby was extremely difficult for you. Even after having our rainbow baby, I hate baby showers.

When TTC again, I didn't attend any baby showers, even for family. I took a lot of warm baths and read a lot of novels. I did not expect myself to be "better", or to be "normal". And my husband didn't expect it either. We just went with it, and dealt with things as they came, and if I had a bed week, I had a bad week. Find some distractions, and be kind to yourself and your husband. You have the strength for this - it doesn't have to be pretty, and you don't have to smile through it all. You just have to make it to the other side.

I second what @winniebee: said you have to make the work a priority, face it... and for me, therapy. Yoga, meditation, hot baths. I had a hard time picking running back up because it made my anxiety worse. I think you just have to try stuff until you figure it out. I'm sorry you're going through this.

My close friend and I were pregnant at the same time. My son was stillborn, hers was not. It took over a month before I could see him. Even now, a year and a half (and my rainbow baby) later, it's hard to see him sometimes. Give yourself as much space as you need.