Just when you think you have it sussed, your boobs/baby will throw you a curveball.

It was all going great (after a very rocky start) and then A was put in a Pavlik harness and now positioning her is so hard! I can't even get the hang of football position so I'm trying to do a kind of cradle hold (which is what we did before the harness) while not putting pressure on her legs, which are strapped so widely apart it's so hard to get her close enough and sometimes I try feed her and she cries and I'm not sure whether she's not hungry or just frustrated that the position isn't good enough for her to latch properly.

So yesterday she got weighed (11 weeks) and she's dropped a percentile in weight. I had suspected she wasn't eating as much as she should so it wasn't a massive surprise. The resident at the doctors and the nurse were both telling me to supplement, but I don't think there is a supply issue - although maybe there is, I don't know. I could give her pumped milk to top her off but she won't take a bottle, at all! My actual doctor overruled the resident and was telling me not to worry about the feeding thing and she wasn't worried but it's hard not to when you know she's not putting weight on as she should. Also, when she feeds she turns my nipples a bit white, like a blanched effect, which I read is her cutting off my blood supply! I've been trying to offer her more all day but it seems like she's hardly fed at all and I just feel like such a failure! My let down doesn't seem as strong as yesterday either, but I wonder if it's all because I'm super stressed out about it. I bought some More Milk Plus so maybe that will help.

I called the hospital breastfeeding clinic today and they gave me some advice but that doesn't help me with positioning. I just feel SO helpless, she's not breastfeeding properly and she won't take a bottle so what can I do? Agggghhhh!

Ha I just had to vent, if you made it through to the end thank you and well done : )