...where you are in your current cycle with how far along you would have been if you hadn't lost the pregnancy?

Because it SUCKS. And I never want to do it again even though I'm sure I will.

At a barbeque yesterday, a friend announced she was 11 weeks and due in November. My first reaction was to be excited for her, but hearing she has a November due date made my stomach drop since our due date was October...And then I realized that I would have been 16 weeks this week. As in, first anatomy scan, finding out the sex and whether everything was okay, etc. Omg, I didn't realize how far along I would have been, and now I'm feeling so, so sad that instead I'm at the beginning of a tww I was already dreading this tww, but so much more so now!