I can't believe I'm posting a cry for help with BFing...From the first time H fed, she had a great latch, and we had a pretty easy time BFing. On top of that, I really LOVE that time with her. So we were 2 peas in a pod.

And then she got Breastfeeding Jaundice and I was forced to switch to formula to see if her Bilirubin numbers would decrease. I pumped and froze in the meantime....The numbers did go down, although they're not all the way down and we're still monitoring it, her ped says the drop was enough to solidify that BF Jaundice is definitely what it is, and that I can go back to BFing because after a temporary switch to formula to "cleanse" the bilirubin out, it typically doesn't go back up again once Bfing is restarted.

Well since we restarted. It's been a hot mess. I think she got lazy with bottles, and her latch doesn't feel super strong all the time. If anything, I think she loves to suckle on me, and she has just been doing it to soothe herself, and not trying really hard to actually feed bc she now associates feeding with the easy-peasy bottle.

Needless to say, she's hungry and cranky all the time. So I started pumping and trying to feed her a bottle that way - just to get us through the Bilirubin clearing up bc it's so crucial that she eats often to move the Bili out of her system. For whatever reason, I am now only able to pump about 2 to 2.5 oz per session (I pump every 3ish hours). Last week I was pumping 3.5 -4 oz every 3-4 hours. I have no idea what caused my supply to dip.

What should I do? I had a long talk with the Ped today about all of her feeding issues. He basically counseled me that MOST of the time when a baby gets BF jaundice, it is really hard to get them back on the BF bandwagon after exclusively bottle feeding for multiple days. This bummed me out to the MAX! I don't want to have to give up BFing! He told me that BFing is best, but it's okay if we can't get her back to where she was, and we have to go to formula. He said if she's still a hot mess on Friday, to call him and I can bring her by to weigh and see if she's losing weight. And if she hasn't gotten the hang of it again by Friday, I probably need to look at going to FF. Again- PANIC! Today is Wednesday!

I am thinking of having BF Bootcamp starting tonight. I was considering feeding her every 2 hours on the boob - getting rid of ALL bottles since that's what got us in this mess - and trying to get her back on board again. BUT, what about my supply? If I'm only pumping that much - does that mean that I won't be able to satisfy her? I am so confused!

I read somewhere that babies can get more out of the boob than a breast pump can...But I find it hard to believe that my Medela Freestyle Cadillac of pumps can't get more out than my 7lb newborn.

Any advice? Can I rebound from this nightmare? I'll do anything to make it work!

ETA: I"m drinking a crap ton of water and started eating oatmeal for breakfast to try to help with supply!