Hi ladies, So one thing I am struggling with lately is the constant inability to make plans. I am an academic and attend conferences and speaking engagements throughout the country, and lately I have just been turning things down because I never know if they will interfere with my treatments. I also don't want to schedule my treatments around one stupid work trip, forgoing a whole month. During my IVF cycle, I also am sometimes gone at work, for instance I might have to cancel a class or miss a meeting. i just learned that one of my colleagues spoke poorly about my absence during a meeting last week. It is just so frustrating because I was in the OR at the time--something I wasn't going to tell my colleagues!

And then there is the social side. My friends ask if they can come visit during x weekend or to visit them, I never know what to say. Umm, maybe? I will know 36 hours ahead of time whether I will have to get my eggs retrieved that day but I am not comfortable sharing that kind of information (even to those friends who do know we are struggling). Out of town weddings months from now--I don't know whether I should accept or just decline because again I am not willing to rearrange my infertility treatment schedule around a friend's wedding (esp if we are not super close). It's all so frustrating. I feel like everyone thinks I am crazy lately because I am not committing to anything and will just disappear for awhile. Sorry for the long post!!!