We have had a really rough 2 weeks with our start of nanny care. Thank goodness we hired through an agency because we fired our first nanny (found out she smoked, and LO cried constantly) and then our second nanny just fired us because LO was still crying constantly and the nanny couldn't handle it. So we have a 3rd sub nanny coming tomorrow and we're interviewing for a new permanent one this weekend but she couldn't start for another couple weeks. This is so stressful! I had to stop checking the nanny cam at work because hearing LO cry was making me cry. I spent my pumping break crying. LO is happy once we're home, albeit a bit dehydrated and tired, but her routine with us hasn't been affected.

Someone tell me I'm not a bad mother and LO won't be in counseling for years for this! She's only 3.5 mo, no idea why she has such separation anxiety. And of course she really needs to get to know one person and cycling through all these different nannies is only making it worse. Ugh. I feel like I can physically feel my hair turning grey! Her grandparents watched her without issues when I first went back to work, but they're all back on the opposite coast now and we know no one local. I looked into last minute tickets to fly my mom back out but they were almost $700 even with flexible dates.

Sigh. Just needed to vent. Thanks bees! Anyone else with nanny issues that ended up with a happy ending? We need our Mary Poppins!!