This is totally a woe is me post b/c it's been a crappy bf'ing day & doesn't look like a better day is on the horizon. (yea I'm being a total downer).

Apparently what I thought was a small milk blister that was clearing has turned into a NOT clear milk blister, not even near the surface milk blister (I've already tried pulling back the skin numerous times & nothing is "there"), and is now a super plugged duct! Infact I woke up with the milk spot alot larger (maybe a 1/4 of the nipple) and almost the whole top portion of my breast hard! ARGH!

I've gotten lots of tips & have been doing them all including pumping (which I loathe). Well it wasn't hurting when I was pumping but I put it on the highest setting I had (to really try & pull the clog out) and I guess it hurt my nipple b/c now my nipple is swollen & the rest of the afternoon it's hurt like freaking fire when P latches & nurses! ouch!

I'm going to try some essential oils tonight b/c it's the only thing I haven't done (hot shower, massage...even with a "massager", heating pad, nursing, hand expressing, pumping, and repeat) but I still don't feel all that hopeful to have this clear before bed. I'm so frustrated & being hormonal I feel so discouraged! I feel like with me being pregnant this is NOT the time for us to have issues that could affect my supply, I already run risk of losing it. Boo.

/endrant