I promised myself I would not start this up again (stalking hellobee, obsessing with cycle days, etc., ha ha!) buuuut:
I’ve had a few symptoms that I am finding hard to ignore/dismiss. I’ve learned my lessons with symptom spotting (see blog, link in bio), but these are different. I’m too paranoid to really voice them all for fear of jinxing and disappointment, but one sign (not symptom, since I promised I would stop trying to “symptom spot”) is the fact that my mother-in-law saw me last weekend and exclaimed that I have a “glow”, and that “there might be something going on with you that you don’t know about yet” (while gesturing around my stomach region.) This was week one of my TWW. She’s always been good with intuition, and predicting things with dreams. If she is right about this, then I am sold on her “powers”, but I’m too afraid to be hopeful…
So the one thing that is making me afraid that she is wrong is the fact that my boobs are always outrageously sore right before my period, and they have been outrageously sore all week. I am on CD 23 right now. My cycles average with Day 1 starting between CD22 and CD 28. So, I am either late, or a few days away from AF (sigh).
I’ve correlated sore BBs with impending AF, since it seems to me that usually BFPs occur with a DEVIATION of NORMAL AF symptoms. A deviation of normal symptoms would also be dizziness, nausea, etc., something I am also NOT experiencing out of the blue. So in my mind: typical sore BBs, and NOT feeling dizzy etc. = AF around the corner. Am I really out already?
I know it sounds like I’m over-thinking things, but I’m really at a loss right now. I’m closing in on the one-year mark, and even though my husband’s morphology is now in normal range (YAY-NESS), I’m still feeling like I’m hitting some sort of mark in my TTC timeline. Oh, and am too scared to test and see stark-whiteness. Thanks if you’re read this far, any words of encouragement helps!