I posted on here a few days ago that I'd had THE CONVERSATION with my husband the previous day. We'd decided to TTC in May 2013 but a number of factors - most notably baby fever! - made me want to bring it forward, right forward, and start NOW! We had a brief discussion that night and then he said he'd think about it and the TV went back on......

Well, days went by and he didn't bring it up again. I felt physically sick waiting for him! Last night, I met my best friend for a drink and sobbed, actually sobbed, to her about it. She suggested I bring it up again.....

So, tonight I was waiting for the right moment to bring it up again myself. I had butterflies in my tummy.... "After this Olympic event", I thought, "no, after this one" (he's glued to the coverage on TV) "after he's finished playing with his phone" "after...." then his phone rang....

It was his younger brother, telling us that his girlfriend was 5 weeks pregnant!!!!!!! We're gonna be an Auntie and Uncle! Great news, huh, only I was GUTTED! Devasted! I was just so jealous! Hubby looked at me, baffled, as I fought the tears back..... so I told him. I told him I was going crazy waiting for his answer, I was desperate to start trying and I just wasn't fair that I was being made to wait to even know if I could stop my BCP (yes, I had a full childish tantrum!).

Turns out, he didn't realise I meant I wanted to start now, just, perhaps, a little sooner than planned and he had been thinking, a little, but hadn't given it much concentrated thought - and certainly wasn't planning another big conversation about it- because, in his words, (get this!) "What is there to think about. We said we'd try in, what, nine months? That's not long. What difference does it make if we start now or wait nine months? Start now if you want to, we may as well!".

I was astounded! I apologised for being a bit crazy and he replied "I think you were being a bit unfair to me, really, you thought I'd freak out or something". And I did!!! I did think that!!!

So I guess I was wrong to get so bent out of shape abut it!!! Oh and..... I'm changing my status to TTC! Yippee!

Thanks for all the support ladies! I can't wait to get trying!