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  1. 2PeasinaPod

    pomelo / 5524 posts

    @jaguar: Wanted to pop in to wish you lots of luck. Saying lots of prayers for your last frosty!

  2. MaryM

    pomelo / 5129 posts

    Hey Girls! Major love and luck to those getting anxious and losing hope.

    I'm afraid I'm joining you. I'm pretty sure I did O yesterday (my temp took a nosedive this morning, which is usual for O day). Our timing wasn't great this month because I thought I still had a day or two to go! We hit O and O-4. But I'm trying to remind myself that when we did get KU last december it was one and done.

    I'll probably start on the Progesterone Wednesday night. I'm hoping my body won't hate me for that.

  3. mrs bunchy

    kiwi / 533 posts

    Ok .. Cycle day 3 labs are in.

    AMH- 1.8
    FSH- 5
    TSH- 2.3
    E2- 44

    Per dr- all normal any input??

  4. FliegepilzHut

    pomegranate / 3533 posts

    @mrs bunchy: No input, but hooray for normal!

  5. mrs bunchy

    kiwi / 533 posts

    @FliegepilzHut: Thx!! I could have thrown up answering the phone.

  6. FliegepilzHut

    pomegranate / 3533 posts

    @MaryM: FX for you this cycle! The progesterone may make you feel a little more PMS-y than usual... Otherwise, hopefully it won't be too bad.

  7. MaryM

    pomelo / 5129 posts

    @mrs bunchy: YAY for normal!!!

  8. FliegepilzHut

    pomegranate / 3533 posts

    @mrs bunchy: I bet! I hate waiting on labs... What are your next steps?

  9. mrs bunchy

    kiwi / 533 posts

    @FliegepilzHut: probably the hysteroscopy for possible septum seen on HSG.. And got the ok to keep trying...

    This has been the longest road ever.

  10. FliegepilzHut

    pomegranate / 3533 posts

    @mrs bunchy: That's right. I hope you have good results from your hysteroscopy! I agree...waiting and wondering is the pits!

  11. jaguar

    pomegranate / 3764 posts

    @mrs bunchy: Is this the first time you've had figures drawn? I always find results on their own hard to read, but it's good to compare them.

    @MaryM: Welcome to the evil progesterone club. Am so over it already. It makes me feel pregnant, when I'm not. Yuck.

  12. jaguar

    pomegranate / 3764 posts

    @2PeasinaPod: Thank you lovely lady. x

    @ValentineMommy: I really am hoping this cycle is it for you.

    @simplyfelicity: Yep, I think it's just gearing up for the negative to protect my heart a bit. If i left it and hoped for a miracle, it just seems cruel.

  13. mrs bunchy

    kiwi / 533 posts

    @jaguar: yes- first time for cycle day 3. I've had everything else drawn a ton..

    Every time cycle day 3 rolls around it's impossible for me to get away to get to a lab.

  14. simplyfelicity

    cantaloupe / 6634 posts

    @jaguar: I hear ya. I tend to not get my hopes up either...I would rather expect nothing and then be pleasantly surprised.

  15. Tidybee

    nectarine / 2834 posts

    @jaguar: this was such great news when i logged on today!! I think that little emby is going to be your baby!
    @simplyfelicity: i try to expect nothing each month...but it never turns out that way. I always get hopeful. it hurts. But we all have every reason to hope.

    I'm BACK! We had such a nice break. I recommend it to alllll of you. It was just 3 days of sitting on the beach, drinking very (overpriced) tasty cocktails, and watching sunsets over the water. And plenty of BDing! I'm not convinced I ovulated but I've never not ovulated, so I'm just going to say that I missed some of my signs. I didn't take any opks. but we BDed for 5 straight days, so I'm just not going to worry about timing. I'm just going to say I ovulated on day 17 since I have done so every month of ttc #2. So I'm officially in the TWW! STICKY baby dust to us all

    ETA: We saw the doctor today who ran a bunch of tests. Everything was normal. He thinks we got unlucky 3 times but he is a little concerned about my FSH and AMH...but only because they haven't tested for that yet. I'm scheduled for that on next CD3 but I'm hoping I don't have to do it. He also thinks I don't have a problem with low progesterone but that my body was trying to get rid of the pregnancies and that's why my progesterone was falling.

  16. jaguar

    pomegranate / 3764 posts

    @Tidybee: Welcome home, it sounds like exactly what you guys needed.

  17. simplyfelicity

    cantaloupe / 6634 posts

    @Tidybee: Welcome back! Your vacation sounds amazing! Hope you are feeling well-rested.

  18. ValentineMommy

    pomelo / 5791 posts

    Hey all. I had a major temp drop (below coverline) this morning, so it looks like AF is on the way. Devastated is not even the word.

    Last month was our first TTC since the mc. I wasn't thrilled with our BFN that month, but I had no symptoms or anything, so it was expected when af came. This month, however, I was positive was it. I had every symptom that I had with DS. I don't GET pms symptoms. EVER. I have no idea what's happening with my body, but I am really just....devastated. I don't have another word for it.

    I know it's only been 2 months and that doesn't compare to the length that many people TTC at all. The waiting isn't what gets me. It's the unknown. I'm really, REALLY scared that the d&e I had messed up my insides. The 2 months that I bled after the procedure....and then the passing of the leftover tissue.....my doctor said the tissue was holding on to my internal c-section scar. What if that scar was made worse and is now preventing me from getting pregnant? That's my biggest fear and waiting like a year to even pursue finding that out.....I just can't.

    I'm not sure of everyone else's age in here, but I'm 33 (and will be 34 in January). I don't have years on end to be waiting.

    Ladies, I'm really in a bad place and I feel like you are the only ones who will understand.

  19. travelgirl1

    cantaloupe / 6630 posts

    @ValentineMommy: I have to run but will come back to post later. Just wanted to give you a big cyber hug. I'm 34 now and we're on cycle 4 with known infertility issues, I understand how scared you are. It will be okay in the end, honest

  20. ValentineMommy

    pomelo / 5791 posts

    @travelgirl1:

  21. FliegepilzHut

    pomegranate / 3533 posts

    @Tidybee: I'm glad you had such a lovely trip!

  22. FliegepilzHut

    pomegranate / 3533 posts

    @ValentineMommy: Our birthdays are the same month! I will be 34 also. I think you have some justifiable concerns, knowing that you did have some scar tissue from your c/s. Do you think your OB would be willing to pursue some imaging (a hysterosonogram maybe?) to check things out? Also, do you think it would be useful to talk to someone (a counselor or similar)? Sending big hugs to you!

  23. MaryM

    pomelo / 5129 posts

    @Tidybee: Welcome back! Your trip sounds awesome! I'm so jealous. DH and I haven't been able to get away for more than one night in TWO YEARS! I'd die for a (real) vacation

    @ValentineMommy: I'm really sorry you're having such a rough go of it. I agree with @FliegepilzHut: that maybe you should talk to your doctor about your concerns? Either they'll think your worries are possible and take steps to find out more, or maybe they'll be able to set your mind at ease by talking to you about what they think is NOT wrong? And I think a counselor wouldn't be a bad idea too.

    Also, I might suggest walking away from FF next month (except for tracking temps and CM if you plan to). I got my hopes up SO MUCH the months I was tracking symptoms, and have been much more level headed since I stopped. Sure I don't get as much feedback from FF, but I also don't get the false hope that goes along with it. It's made me much more sane!

    It was hard to break the habit (I struggle with anxiety too so once I start something...like temping or using OPKs...it's hard to let go and just let things happen). But I'm really glad I did.

  24. ValentineMommy

    pomelo / 5791 posts

    @FliegepilzHut: I'm not sure if the OB would be willing, but I guess it can't hurt to ask! He didn't say there was "extra" scarring or anything, he said the remaining tissue "probably stuck to my csection incision" to be more precise. Soooo, I dunno. I think he was just trying to deflect blame for my prolonged pain and bleeding. As far as counseling, I'm not sure it would help. I've gone before and I just feel like they tell me things I already know. "Letting things out" or whatever doesn't make me feel better, it just makes me harp on it more, if that makes any sense.

    @MaryM: That's exactly what we plan to do. Charting just isn't for me. I'm way too OCD (diagnosed) for it, I think. I know I ovulate, and approximately when, so I just don't think I need to. DH agrees and hated that I was doing it. Sooo, we're going to go the more NTNP/TTC route, which is how our son was made.

    thanks for the support ladies. Just having a really hard time.

  25. Tidybee

    nectarine / 2834 posts

    @ValentineMommy: I also got obsessed with charting. I at least charted until I ovulated and then stopped. The first time I did that, I got a BFP. So I couldn't even tell you what a bfp chart looks like...except apparently all of my charts when I wasn't pregnant were triphasic and typical pregnancy charts. Even my OB was stumped. I think you're making a good move.

  26. FliegepilzHut

    pomegranate / 3533 posts

    @ValentineMommy: NTNP sounds like a good approach for a few months. If not counseling, maybe some guided relaxation, like yoga? Do you feel like your cycles are pretty much back to normal? I hope your OB is helpful...I can imagine knowing that your lining is in good shape after your D+C would be a huge relief (it has been for me)!

  27. ValentineMommy

    pomelo / 5791 posts

    @Tidybee: @FliegepilzHut: Yea, I definitely think it's the right move. Staring at other people's charts that look like mine, yet led to a bfp is also not helping. Lol

    @FliegepilzHut: I am doing circle and bloom's guided meditations daily, yoga 3-4x a week (at home), and acupuncture. I'm still a ball of nerves, but I try really hard not to be!!!

  28. FliegepilzHut

    pomegranate / 3533 posts

    @ValentineMommy: It sounds like you've got it tacked down! More hugs!!!

  29. jaguar

    pomegranate / 3764 posts

    @ValentineMommy: Just want to send you some big hugs. I know how scary it is. I wonder about the state of my uterus after the d&c too, and ours was a lot more straight forward than yours.

    Also, I get the age thing. I'll be 31 next year, but the fact that it always takes us SO MANY YEARS to get pregnant makes me really nervous.

    I've officially made myself a crazy person. Testing early and thought I saw shadows, but today's VERY obvious white negative zapped the hope away pretty damn quickly. Why can't this just be easy for us all? I'm just so sad.

  30. MaryM

    pomelo / 5129 posts

    Starting the progesterone tonight. I'm pretty certain it's 2dpo (since I've had 3 days of negative OPKs). Cross your fingers for me!

    I'm pretty sure it won't be helping a pregnancy this time, but at least hoping it'll help my body get back to "normal"?

  31. jaguar

    pomegranate / 3764 posts

    @MaryM: Good luck! Can't hurt, that's for sure.

    I'm waiting on a delivery for the rest of my pessaries to arrive. Getting stressed. It didn't show today, and I only have one left. Trying to decide if I should do it this morning, or tomorrow.... and just hope the parcel shows tomorrow!!!

  32. simplyfelicity

    cantaloupe / 6634 posts

    @ValentineMommy: I am so sorry. Do whatever feelse right for your heart. You have been through so much in the past few months...you deserve a break.
    @MaryM: @jaguar: Wishing you all the best with a my fingers and toes crossed.

  33. FliegepilzHut

    pomegranate / 3533 posts

    @jaguar: No local pharmacies can spot you a couple of doses? I hope your package arrives soon! I guess on the plus side, though, you did ovulate this month, so you actually have some progesterone on board!

    @MaryM: FX the progesterone treats you well!

  34. MaryM

    pomelo / 5129 posts

    @simplyfelicity: OMG!!

    @jaguar: and anyone else who's taken progesterone, I posted a question in another thread if you wouldn't mind helping me out. Of COURSE the morning after I start taking it I get another smiley OPK. arg.

  35. ValentineMommy

    pomelo / 5791 posts

    @FliegepilzHut: Thank you!

    @jaguar: I also wish this could just be easy for everyone. This just sucks so hard. FX for you this month!

    @MaryM: Good luck with the progesterone! I hope it helps

    @simplyfelicity: Just saw your news! Congrats!!!

  36. HappyBluebird

    clementine / 957 posts

    I was away for the last few days and tried to unplug during our little get away so I missed a bit and there were too many to reply to all but I have my fingers crossed and am saying lots of prayers for everyone in this group, whether TTC, waiting, or in the TWW. Lots of positive thoughts for all of you!

    @simplyfelicity: I commented in your other thread but yay!! So very happy for you! I will keep you in my thoughts!

  37. MaryM

    pomelo / 5129 posts

    @HappyBluebird: I hope you had a great break!

  38. HappyBluebird

    clementine / 957 posts

    As for me, I got back our final pathology report and it was as expected. It was a partial molar pregnancy. I thought I had prepared myself but it was hard to hear. Dr says it is the "better" of the two molar pregnancy types and that since my levels were low and are going down quickly that's all a good sign. Once my levels hit 0 then we will have to wait at least 6 months before TTC again. That is the worst blow of the entire thing. We are trying to stay positive but its just so very hard. I'm sure you ladies understand.

  39. HappyBluebird

    clementine / 957 posts

    @MaryM: Thank you! It was a great mini getaway and it was needed after all of the stress the last month. Quiet and relaxing plus quality time with DH, I couldn't ask for a better weekend away!

  40. Jess1483

    nectarine / 2641 posts

    @HappyBluebird: I am so, so sorry about that news. It would be very hard to hear.

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