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I am so frustrated right now! The RE's office called me back and left a voicemail and were like "See you tomorrow for your CD2 blood work." And I called back and was like "I'm having this luteal phase issue that I never had before Clomid, and I feel like I should have a conversation about it with Dr. W---." And they're just like "Oh so you want to cancel the appointment tomorrow? You'll have to call the appointment line to see Dr. W---."

What the ever living hell? They had absolutely no help or advice to offer, just that sometimes Clomid "can change your cycle." I was like "to the point that my luteal phase is so short as to prevent implantation?" They're like "I don't know, you'll have to discuss that with Dr. W---."

I just don't get how the doc isn't already aware of my luteal phase issue - at least in the first month on Clomid! Is he even looking at my charts and results? Does he even know? Like, he is the doctor - he should be telling ME if I need to come in for an appointment. I just basically have to figure it out on my own.

I'm so frustrated and I hate my body and I can't stop crying at work and this is awful.

And on top of it my husband lost his phone this weekend so I can't even text him and tell him how I'm feeling and that I started my period today. I have to work late and I won't even see him until after 7.

@jhd: Thanks.

I know many people on this board have had even more frustrating and traumatizing journeys than mine, and I know I'm whining a lot today.

I am just so over all of this. And aside from you guys, I feel so alone.

@bizwitch: I'm sorry, this is a lot to deal with

I had also left a voicemail directly with the assistant of my RE doc. She called back and was like "yeah you should definitely come in to talk with him about that." She even offered me an appointment for tomorrow because someone canceled. But Tuesdays are the one day of the week that I can't leave work, so I'll have to stick w/ the appointment I had made earlier, on March 8.

@knittylady @snarkybiochemist @mrsbubbletea: Thanks ladies. It really helps to have you guys to vent to.

Today I am filling in for our evening news anchor so I have to pull myself together and talk on the radio knowing that something like 200,000 people are listening.

@snarkybiochemist: I am not going to do Clomid this cycle. Considering just sitting out altogether and doing a cycle of NTNP. I'll probably still want to BD around O but I'm not going to put pressure on myself or DH.

@bizwitch: I'm sorry, this sounds so frustrating, and you are not whining at all.

I feel like having to go through the stress of finding a good doctor just adds insult to injury when it comes to infertility. I'm sure this is true more generally for dealing with the medical system. I like the hospital my RE is at but have been underwhelmed by some of our interactions and may be in the market for a new one (in the same clinic, since that's what my insurance covers). Do you have an option to switch if you continue to be unhappy with yours?

@periwinklebee: I think there is at least one other RE in that office. Other than that my choices are limited. We live in a town where there is basically one big combined insurance company/provider and you get what they offer or you don't get care.

I was feeling hopeful as my friend got pregnant w/ this doc through IVF. It's a different situation but I guess I took that as a good sign.

I'm seriously ready to apply for foster-to-adopt. I can't handle the disappointment anymore.

@bizwitch: I have my fingers crossed that things come together soon, whether it's through biology or foster to adopt. I'm so sorry that it's been such a long journey

@bizwitch: Thanks! I also spent too much time crying at my desk today, I think no particular reason besides messed up hormones (sure I'm down about TTC but that's not new). Got that out of my system and feel fine now. Recovery has been pretty straightforward, I still feel a bit drained but to be expected...

I'm on day 4 of Provera and the first 2 days I was super tired, now I feel depressed and bloated. Not a fan of this stuff!! I'm thinking about stopping it but I'd like to get my period.

Af due tomorrow and I have the cramps for it so not feeling too hopeful. The good news is I haven't tested! I'm thinking of testing first thing so I'm prepared for af... also because of the b complex and acupuncture to lengthen my LP it's possible af won't come tomorrow but not because I'm pregnant. I don't want to get my hopes up in that case...

@knittylady: good luck!

@knittylady: good luck

CD 1... chocolate chips right out of the bag and Game of Thrones on the TV

@bizwitch: I may have been eating the same choc chips earlier today while grading papers. Hope the chocolate helps just a little!

I tried to drink this weekend for my bff's wedding and couldn't get past a sip of champagne. Ah well!

We've decided to NTNP moving forward. Getting my labs and pelvic ultrasound next week and I'm looking forward to answers. I'm over the stress of it all!

@knittylady: I'm sorry I hope that March is your month!

@knittylady: sorry about the BFN. We are all here for you and hoping for the best. Sweating it out at Bikram sounds fun, but then again it is 20F today, LOL.

@Properpie: Congrats!! Best wishes for a healthy pregnancy!!