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pear / 1881 posts
@waiting4you: oh my goodness..so scary. Congrats on the , but yes, definitely take care of yourself
nectarine / 2192 posts
@waiting4you: congratulations!
AFM, I'm really struggling. I don't know how I can go through all this again, particularly if we end in a total failure again with a BFN and no frozen. Based on my doc's percentages between IUIs, monitored cycles, and the first IVF, there was an 80% chance I'd be pregnant by now. Either two great looking embryos weren't great enough or the intralipids weren't strong enough to take are of the NK cells. I was already on follistim 375 and Menopur 75, and my doc said increasing them further is unlikely to do much. None of these problems seems very solvable, and i am feeling hopeless. DH thinks we are getting closer and we should do another cycle, and I just feel like it's hopeless. I'm looking for some reasons why this isn't working when one of our embryos looked the best of all of them, and some hope.
nectarine / 2192 posts
I just got a call that I'm supposed to start on the micronor again. I think part of what went wrong this time is that I was over suppressed. I did 3 weeks of micronor, then four days of estrace, then started follistim 375 and Menopur 75. I had a cyst during my check while on estrace- I never have cysts and suspect the micronor. AFC was 15-20 and he originally estimated 10-15 eggs. At the first ultrasound (day 5), there were six good follicles and some smaller ones, and he changed the estimate to 5-10 eggs. Does this sound like I was over suppressed? I've read that it doesn't cause over suppression if you overlap with an agonist, but my RE doesn't seem too keen on this. I really wish I could do the wtf appointment sooner.
pear / 1881 posts
@AmeliaBedilia: I really don't know and I'm SO sorry that you are having a hard time with this. We have all been through this, I think. Would it maybe make sense to push back starting a new cycle by a month? That way, you can have your questions answered and be OK with the plan going forward? It's so much money that I hate to have you questioning everything and to be positive that you are on the right path.
apricot / 365 posts
@AmeliaBedilia: I don't know the answers to your questions, but sending so many good thoughts your way while you work through a plan that you're comfortable moving forward with. I also agree with Northstar that it might be good to wait one cycle to make sure you are completely comfortable with what's happening med-wise so you don't have any regrets looking back! That's what we're thinking for our next cycle, anyways. We're meeting with our RE and a local second opinion which will push us timeless, but I'm only doing this one more time, and so I want to know that we're at our best place before moving forward.
pea / 7 posts
We had our baseline last week and I had 4 follicles. Got my blood drawn for AMH and it was low -- .732. Anyone out there with DOR? What did it take to be successful with IVF? How many rounds?
We have male factor also, so we are doing ICSI. This is our first cycle, so far my team (a doctor, a fellow) are still following a pretty standard protocol (they say). I just really want this to work out for us, but right now I'm feeling pretty negative
apricot / 344 posts
Just got done at the RE: Borderline hospitalization. Have to go home and drink 2+ liters of water/fluids a day. Have to measure liquid input and urine output. Has to become close to clear too. Running a bunch of labs and may send me to hospital later to have my abdominal cavity drained. Measured so far and I'm holding 1.5 L in my abdomen. Have to stay in bed and propped up to keep the fluids down. good news is, we'll find out for sure today if it's positive. Doctor said 80% or more of OHSS cases are due to pregnancy.
pear / 1881 posts
@waiting4you: oh my goodness! I'm so glad that you went in..i hope you stocked up on Gatorade or protein shakes. Hang in there - hopefully, this is the worst of it.
@helloimkate: Welcome! I wish that you didn't need to be here, but we are a great group of supportive ladies. I'm going to private message you something that might be of resource to you..
pear / 1986 posts
@waiting4you: Oh my gosh, I am so sorry you are dealing with this! I'm really glad you decided to go to the RE this morning. Hoping that all that drinking and resting does the trick and you don't need to head to the hospital this afternoon.
eggplant / 11408 posts
Delurking to say: @jaguar: !!!!!!! Sending you all the stickiness in the entire world. Come on, little one, GROW!!
@waiting4you: that sounds so scary!! Congrats on the positive, but take care of yourself!
apricot / 344 posts
Got the call from the dr.... !! Since it was done early because of all this OHSS stuff (7 dp5dt) it's at 116. I have to stop my progesterone and estrogen because they are high. Have to go back tomorrow to measure fluids in abdomen and do bloodwork again (including beta). Super excited for the positive but feel terrible physically!! So after 2 IUI's and 2 rounds of IVF, we currently have a bean on board!!!
pomegranate / 3764 posts
@AmeliaBedilia: Our first cycle was the same. One 3 day embryo transferred, nothing to freeze. But the cycle after that was G, and 2 frosties. They can be like chalk and cheese. xxx
Too scared to pee this morning. Had a dream it was all negative. Really hope this doesn't turn out to be another early loss where it doesn't take off.
pear / 1881 posts
@waiting4you: YAY! Will they keep monitoring the progesterone so that it doesn't drop too low? I hope that everything goes smoothly from here on out. How are you feeling as compared to this morning (besides the obvious elatement of being pregnant!)
grapefruit / 4045 posts
@waiting4you: Woo hoo! I only ever hoped for my first beta to be over 100, so I think your number is perfect! Congrats, lady!
@jaguar: I'm hoping all the best for you!
apricot / 344 posts
@NorthStar: yes, back tomorrow and most likely they'll watch me close till this resolves. Not sure what the progesterone # is (can go back and look), but estrogen was over 3000. I'm feeling terrible. As bad or worse than this morning. Dr said if I throw up or if my urine is dark yellow, to the ER I go. another appointment tomorrow and he'll decide if I have to go to hospital or come back again next day. Says I'm dehydrated which seems ironic but I get it. Times like this it's nice to have a hubby who's a firefighter/paramedic. Now to try to sleep sitting up and drink all this fluid. I'm almost to a L and I have to drink 2-3. Yuck!!!!!
Update: estrogen at 3230 and progesterone at 495
apricot / 344 posts
Ugh, an ER visit...some morphine and some zofran and I'm back home and only slightly better. Back to my RE: tomorrow morning to measure fluids again and see if they need to drain. Honestly, I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy!
persimmon / 1132 posts
@waiting4you: Oh no! OHSS be damned! I'm glad you, your RE and your DH are staying on top of it. Yikes--1.5L in your belly cannot feel good. I'm surprised your E2 wasn't even higher however everyone's body reacts differently, I guess! My OB/GYN had a girl on just Clomid get severe OHSS! So hoping you have seen the worst of it. And congrats again on the official !
@jaguar: Ohhhhhhhhhh so hope your line eye is just playing with you!!!!
@AmeliaBedilia: So sorry this is so rough going right now.
@helloimkate: Welcome! I know we have had some DOR IVF grads. Wishing you a ton of luck!
pomegranate / 3764 posts
Is this too faint from 11dpo? This morning was a shadow, this was this afternoon?
pear / 1558 posts
@jaguar: lurker here, just wanting to send you every ounce of hope & sticky dust I can!! I think your line's looking good, but of course the beta's the real deal.
apricot / 343 posts
@jaguar: Lurker to this thread too, I just wanted to say that is what my BFP looked like for LO3 at 11 dpo... Mine may have even been a tad fainter. We are 25 weeks now. All the sticky dust to you
persimmon / 1114 posts
@jaguar: lurker here as well. On both my successful pregnancies, my line has been that light (or lighter) on 11 dpo. I am also someone who consistently gets darker sticks in the afternoon. I will also say I think I am someone who does not metabolize (?) hcg well- even on my successful pregnancies my hcg starts pretty low and never doubles exactly in 48 hours which I think also can explain wonky/ slow darkening tests (mentioning in case you are similar).
Anyhow- I am so guilty of those tests driving me crazy (and have certainly personally seen them go poorly more than once) but I also think that you really just can't tell much from the sticks and have to abide by "a positive is a positive" and unfortunately wait it out- which I know is easier said than done and not necessarily something I ever managed to abide by! This whole infertility game sucks and I hope so much this is your sticky baby. Wishing you lots of strength and luck as you wait!
apricot / 344 posts
@jaguar: that line definitely looks darker than the last we saw! I'm crossing all my fingers, toes and everything else that Olaf is your sticky bean! How much longer till beta? I definitely have a good feeling for you!!
cherry / 120 posts
@waiting4you: congrats!! I hope this OHSS has reached the worse and it only gets better for you.
@jaguar: that line is absolutely darker than the prior test you posted. When is your beta? Fingers crossed for you
Eta; I see it's not until the 9th, plenty of time for that line to get darker!
hostess / papaya / 10219 posts
@jaguar: not too light at all. That's a good line. This was my 10 and 11 dpo with this last baby. I think yours is darker. My 14 dpo beta was 141 or something and more than doubling.
persimmon / 1114 posts
@jaguar: just looked up my old tests to compare after seeing @travellingbee: and both of yours are definitely darker than mine was! It actually gave me heart palpitations looking at it seeing how light it was, comparing it to yours and I had to remind myself that I am currently sitting here 28 weeks pregnant. That infertility ptsd really never leaves!
Anyway, all that to say- the darkness of lines can mean crap and I hope it does for you too!
pear / 1881 posts
@jaguar: It's definitely darker, but I completely understand why you are guarding your heart. Sending you strength and love to get you through to Tuesday and your beta
@waiting4you: oh no!!! I hope that you can get some rest and start to feel better today..so, you are obviously missing work? Have they been understanding?
cherry / 107 posts
@helloimkate: Welcome! I have DOR. AMH 0.3, AFC 5. I'm on my first cycle, so I'm not much help, but am here for support. We have severe MFI also. My DH has azoospermia (he doesn't make any sperm). He'll need a mTESE surgery before my egg retrieval to try and find sperm (20% chance) and then if we get sperm we'll have to do ICSI as well.
@waiting4you: Hope your OHSS subsides and that you are of that 80% too!
@jaguar: Hoping so much that it's real and sticky!
cherry / 107 posts
As for me, stims may not be going well? It's hard to say after my estrogen fiasco. My E2 was 17 at baseline, before I added the Ganirelix due to the false E2 tests, so it was likely close to zero when I began stims. E2 was 21 after 3 days of stims and 27 after 5 days of stims. My ultrasounds were cancelled because my E2 is so low. I have my next blood and first ultrasound tomorrow, after 7 days of stims. I'm hoping the Ganirelix I took 2 days before stims because of the false estrogen is causing the slow rise or that I'm just a slow responder- which is not uncommon in DOR ladies. I'll know more tomorrow. Cross you fingers ladies, I really don't want to have to cancel my cycle.
kiwi / 613 posts
@jaguar: Looking good! Hoping with everything I have that this one sticks for you!!!!!! Congratulations on the BFP! That looks as dark or darker than my 11dpo tests, as far as I can remember!
persimmon / 1132 posts
@Aqualov: Oh so hoping that your u/s and labs come back nice and strong tomorrow. What dose of stims are you on? They had me on the max (not because of DOR but because of borderline high FSH).
apricot / 344 posts
@NorthStar: we got the confirmed yesterday :happy:. Dr. Today said he wouldn't be surprised if twins based on my day 7 beta of 113. They did another today since I had to go back in because of the OHSS. Last nights trip to the ER wasn't fun but at least I was able to sleep from the morphine they gave me. Got weighed at the Dr. This morning and gained 2 1/2 lbs of fluid since yesterday. They aren't going to drain but have to watch it close. Going back on Friday unless something drastic changes.
As for work, I work from home and I work for family, so I'm SUPER lucky. I work for a dermatologist (dads wife) so luckily there are others in the office that can cover for me. I'll be back to working tomorrow from bed.
grapefruit / 4045 posts
@bloved: Ditto on infertility ptsd never leaving.
@jaguar: That's definitely a line!!
grapefruit / 4545 posts
@jaguar: Another lurker her - praying so hard for you! With this pregnancy my 11dpo test was negative...yours is how my line looked at 12 and 13dpo - I'm 35w now...everything is crossed for you!
nectarine / 2192 posts
@jaguar: that looks great! Your response that your second IVF was so much better than your first made me feel somewhat better, so thanks!
@helloimkate: welcome! I have a low AMH - 0.27 but follicle count 15+ and FSH 6. I just had a failed IVF (first one) and gearing up for another round. How many ivfs is a good question that no one knows. It only takes one egg, a I'm hoping we get it this time.
@waiting4you: so excited for you that it worked, but OHSS sounds miserable! Hope you feel better soon!
@Aqualov: you've had such a rough go! I'm hoping it is just your weird estrogen testing. I responded slowly- estrogen was 47 on day 3, and only got up to 1010. Sending prayers you get to retrieval and transfer!
AFM, I'm in my IVF failure funk, IFF for short. I emailed the nurse last night who responded very quickly that my concerns are reasonable and she is off today but will talk to RE tomorrow and get back with me. I'm hoping a natural start will work and that RE will approve. AF came and she's a bitch! My normally regular cycles go to 20-21 days after being on progesterone, so my guess is that it will line up fine on its own since stims start 2/27. Of course, that was on a lower dose of progesterone and I'm not positive my body will do the same thing.
DH and I had a long talk last night about how long to keep going. We both have trouble seeing how we'd be happy without biological kids. I know we've only failed one IVF, but it's hard to believe this will ever happen. How do you keep the faith and keep going?
In other news, I have a work trip tomorrow through Saturday which I'm looking forward to. I think it will help me get mind off things, except for when I get an answer about micronor. We are probably moving into the back three rooms in the new house in two weeks. Then we will try to stage our old house to sell. RE office is currently 10 minutes away and will increase to 25. I know that's still less than many, but it's so hard to get there before work already and it's so often! Does anyone have PTSD symptoms when RE office calls or for appointments? I seem to get so much bad news, that I get anxious whenever they pop up on caller ID or I go for an appointment.
pomegranate / 3764 posts
@AmeliaBedilia: *hugs* I understand that feeling.. it's so hard to breathe when we're talking IVF disappointments. Oh I have been there, I know. It's actually one of the reasons that I sought out therapy, because my heart would quite literally skip beats panicking when my IVF clinic rang me. Always expecting the worst.
@Mrs D: @YogiRunner: @agold: @Amorini: @momazon: @Aqualov: @bloved: @NorthStar: @Aqualov: Thanks ladies, I appreciate you guys weighing in, I really do.
I'm so sorry if I seem a mess (I AM!) - I just.. have hoped so hard this one would go differently, and the pee sticks have lied to me in the past. My anxiety is raging right now! Mr Jag won't let me pee on a stick today... so we're going to try again tomorrow (Friday) afternoon and see how it goes.
It's really hard to imagine this going anywhere, you know? I'm petrified.
nectarine / 2192 posts
@jaguar: this is a place where it's ok to be a mess. I definitely am! I think Olaf is making a very nice line. Hope you can distract yourself!
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