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@FliegepilzHut: @ValentineMommy: I have done the very same thing and it bums me out because the odds of my last m/c were really slim, too. Buuuuuut...I have to remind myself that my losses have absolutely no bearing on this baby. When I get super freaked out, I just remind myself of how peaceful and joyful I felt at the ultrasound and imagine, at almost 14 weeks, what the baby must look like now.

@simplyfelicity: @FliegepilzHut: I have my appt today and I'm so nervous! Keep your fingers crossed for me that little bubs is ok in there. I'm also having my gender blood test today!

@ValentineMommy: Fingers are definitely crossed for your appointment today! I'll be 9weeks, 6days at my next appt (1/14)...and CRAZY until then!

@Jess1483: Movement so early sounds awesome! Maybe this is a 2nd baby thing? I hope you have a great check-up and a wonderful vacation in about a week and a half!

Doc found the heartbeat right away with the Doppler!! Everything went fine!!! He said since he knows what a tough year I've had, that I can come back in two weeks instead of four just to hear the heartbeat again. Love that man will find out the gender in two weeks from the blood test!!!

@ValentineMommy: Yay! Which blood test did you do?

@ValentineMommy: I was offered a similar cell-free DNA test...Verifi, I think?

ETA: I am all for this kind of testing!

@FliegepilzHut: I probably should have asked what test it was, but provided it tells me the gender, I just didn't care to ask lol

@Jess1483: Right??? My doc said they offer it to everyone and make sure they don't have to pay. However that works, it sounds good to me!

@GoGoSnoGirl: Yay! That's so great!

Nearly got myself into an awkward questions situation yesterday! I went for a massage, and the last time I was there was about 6 months ago, when I was around 7 months pregnant with R. The lady asked if anything had changed since the last visit, and without thinking I said, "well, I'm pregnant again, so it's both a change and not!" She already knew it was a prenatal, so there was no need to emphasize it. If she had done the math and realized I was 7 months pregnant 6 months ago, and 9 weeks pregnant now... that could have led to some questions I did not want to answer. Thankfully she either wasn't the type to ask questions or she realized there might be more going on, so she didn't say anything. But I was kicking myself for not thinking before I pointed that out!

Also, coming up on some big days the next couple weeks. I lost my first at 9.5 weeks, which I'll hit next week, on the same day that we'll have a midwife visit to hopefully hear the heartbeat for the first time. So that will be sort of an interesting day. Stressful until the appointment, but it'll make a hard day easier to hear the heartbeat. Then my first was due on Jan 11, so coming up on that anniversary too. Though like last year, it is easier with being pregnant again. As long as we don't get bad news at the appointment, that day shouldn't be too bad. And lastly, the blood draw for the genetic screening is next week too (though I'm not sure whether they'll reschedule it because I think it's too early. I told her I O'd late and not to base it on my LMP, but I don't think she listened). So very nervous about that, but also excited to find out the sex, and to hopefully get some peace of mind from good results. Lots of mixed emotions over here!

@Torchwood: That is a lot! It's so hard to get dates out of my head, too. I lost my first at 5 weeks and always wait for that and then my second was lost at 11 weeks, so I wait for that to be over. Then, my first due date was December 30 and my second is March 5th. By that point, I am hoping to be rocking a baby bump with little one kicking away. I know dates don't mean much but it's much easier to breathe once they are over.

@FliegepilzHut: @simplyfelicity: @GoGoSnoGirl: Thanks for the responses! It's good to know I'm not the only one dealing with these things, for sure. (Though, of course, I hate that anyone had had to go through it. Weird contradictory feelings there.)

Had sort of an interesting conversation today. I went to get my hair done, and I went to a new stylist. I mentioned I was pregnant (because even though we haven't told family other than my parents, I tell every stranger I get a chance to, who knows why), and of course got the, "is this your first" question. I had asked the bees already how they would respond when this came up, but I just didn't think to expect it and pretty much forgot everything I had planned. I wound up saying, "sort of...?" But thankfully she seemed to understand and rolled with it. I don't think she actually said anything other than, "ah" or something, but she came across as, "oh, there's more to this story but I won't pry, I get it" and just continued the conversation. And then later for some reason I really lost my "I don't like to talk to strangers about things" mind and when she asked if we were hoping for a girl or a boy, I said that we had lost a girl so a girl would be good since we had the stuff, but DH was really hoping for a boy. Wtf me?! I don't need to be bringing that up when I'm not prepared to talk about it! Thankfully she again handled it well and just said a sincere sounding "I'm sorry," and kept going. I'm really glad people are nice, because I really keep putting my foot in my mouth. I don't even really mind talking about it, if I'm prepared to. But not spontaneously like that!

@Torchwood: I feel like sharing my story is all I have of my lost pregnancies. Sharing it makes it feel real and like it really happened. When you feel compelled to share, share. It's your story.

I agree that sometimes it's MUCH easier to share with strangers or people I know professionally. I was shocked & annoyed with a family member who was scolding us a couple months ago for not sharing in real time that we had miscarried. We didn't even share our news of the current pregnancy until 8-10wks with most family, & her statement, after we defended the "late" news by saying we felt guarded since we had previously lost a baby, was that we "needed our support system" (these family members) & we "should have told" them we lost a baby. Whatever. I told who I needed to & it wasn't this younger, more fertile, drama girl. They pick & choose family functions to come to & aren't as close, anyway. I'd rather spill my guts to my massage therapist or stylist than her. *eye roll*

@GoGoSnoGirl: Yay!! That's awesome! I'm also super happy that I'm pregnant before my loss's edd....I don't know that I could have handled it otherwise.

@Torchwood: My loss's edd is next week as well. I'm not looking forward to it at all. I think you handled everything with your hair appt fine - I have totally awkwardly brought up my mc to random people and then thought, "why did i do that?!?" I think sometimes we just need to get it out there.

@Anya: I feel the same way. Since opening up, I've heard about a lot of other friends and random people that have been through a loss too. It helps to talk about it and is comforting to hear others stories...I don't know why we're made to feel like it's a taboo subject.

@ValentineMommy: When do you hope to find out?

@Jess1483: Sorry for the scary moment! This is why I haven't bought a Doppler, I just know I would freak myself out. But that's just me, I am sure they are super helpful, too.

Well, midwife appointment went well, but they didn't try to hear the heartbeat like they said they would. I'm 99% sure it's because I'm only 9.5 weeks so she was afraid they'd have trouble finding it and I'd freak the eff out. Which honestly I agree with. We'll go back in 2 weeks for an appointment solely to hear it. But I'm frustrated that they told us we could hear it now and then didn't. I was looking forward to it (and freaking out as well, to be totally honest), and DH did NOT have the time to spare from work and he wouldn't have come if he'd known. Oh well. Other than that it was a really good appointment so can't complain too much.

@ValentineMommy: Yeah, he was not happy. He's working 80+ hour weeks right now, and te last thing he needed was to waste an hour going to an appointment where all she did was talk to us and have me pee in a cup. It was good information, but I could have passed it along to him myself.