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@Tionn3: I am totally with ya- the TTC journey has been a lot more stressful than I ever imagined. It also felt a little isolating to go through the ups and downs of getting excited for a new cycle and the eventual appearance of AF and feel like there was no one to talk to. Everyone's advise is always "just relax" but that feels next to impossible at times. Each month is a little easier to pass without a BFP to celebrate like I hoped for but it is discouraging at times as well. As much as I can see myself as a mother, the possibility of getting pregnant seems to get further away. Try to stay positive and glad we have each other's support through this journey!! It will be our turn someday!

Homemade pumpkin pie sounds amazing! Was it worth making from scratch? I think I'm going to make my Bailey's Irish creme fudge this year and my apricot white chocolate squares (always a big hit! Let me know if you want the recipe) and YAY for Hanukkah!!

@Tionn3: well I caved... I wasn't going to use my clearblue Opk anymore because I felt like it was stressing me a bit but they were a good deal on Amazon so I bought another one are you using an opk or monitor of any kind? I'm still undecided as to whether or not I will use it. I guess the alternative plan is BD every other day. I am also getting myself mentally prepared for a plan of when I will seek medical intervention.

You will had to let me know how the pie turns out with the can pumpkin instead!

Cycle Day: 21
TTC Cycle #: 19
POAS Date: 12/8
Baby #: 1
Your plan: Plan... hahaha. If we don't get PG this cycle or the next I am going to go on Clomid. It's been a year and a half of trying with no luck. But our RE says we are both perfectly healthy and fertile and he's almost certain I'm ovulating. So who knows what's up. Not particularly holding out hope this month as O fell right around Thanksgiving and I was not about to BD in my old bedroom at my parent's house, LOL! We got one in on CD10 so we'll see.
Favorite Holiday activity: Family white elephant gift exchange.

well with my BFN this morning I think i'll be joining this.

Cycle Day: waiting on AF
TTC Cycle #: 6
POAS Date: Jan 1
Baby #:2
Your plan: I have testing this cycle, so HSG and full cycle monitoring with daily blood work and ultrasounds. DH will do his SA. It's the holidays so things will be busy anyway!
Favorite Holiday activity: I love snowboarding but it's been too long since i've done it.

@Tionn3: haha!! That is a perfect summary of life these days! So I decided to follow instruction from another website about staying positive while ttc and made a bunch of sticky notes with positive phrases on them. I literally have a sticky note posted on my bathroom mirror that says "my uterus and ovaries are ready to make a baby" (per the website's recommendations) and "healthy cervical mucous" on my closet door lol as silly as I felt putting up all the notes last night, they actually made me smile today and I'm going to try to be positive about the process as much as possible! I feel like I have to make a choice each day to not let this ttc journey get me down. We got this!!

@Tionn3: I should add that one to the mix actually! We have to remind ourselves that this is totally a normal time frame. Despite that I am debating getting my hormones checked in a couple months if no bfp. My friend ended up finding out around 10 months TTC that her progesterone levels were too low and she wishes she would have gotten that checked out sooner. My new insurance kicks in in January and I'll have Kaiser so perhaps then I'll get it all checked out.

I got a BFN this morning at 11DPO. It was kind of a bummer, but I was a little relieved because it means I won't be pregnant while in Ireland. I imagine I would be super stressed out on my vacation knowing I was in a delicate phase of pregnancy. I'll hold my head high and move on to cycle 9. Should get my period on Thursday. Cycle 9 is the same cycle my mom got pregnant with me...Maybe we will conceive a little babe in Ireland, I'm set to possibly be ovulating while we are there, and a big bonus is that my entire TWW will be spent in Ireland with tons of distractions =] I guess that is a pretty cool silver lining =]

@Tionn3: Honestly.. ireland is SOOO much better if you're drinking! Fingers crossed for cycle 9, sometimes a change of scenery is all you'll need.

@Banana330: Maybe a good omen?? Fingers crossed!

I've been doing GREAT so far this TWW, mostly because we only had one BD in the window, at CD10, so it's not likely that we get knocked up this cycle.

But at T-minus 2 days to AF it's starting to consume me again! At least a two day wait is better than a two week wait I guess!

Oh, and my mom just for the first time asked us when she's going to have grandkids. Three of her four kids are now married and proclaim to want children one day. We marrieds range in age from 30-36 (youngest sister is 27 and has a long-term boyfriend who lives halfway across the country) and my parents are in their early 60s, so I know they're getting anxious as they see everyone we grew up with have kids, and all their friends become grandparents.

But then my mom immediately said "Just kidding! I don't want to be that mom!" So clearly if it did sneak out of her mouth she's been wanting it for a while.

She's a little bit (or a lot) of a control freak so I haven't told her how long we've been trying or that we've been to the RE. I don't want her to take this whole thing over. She's the person that will search for jobs for unemployed friends of mine - she literally takes on everyone else's problems as her own. I just can't deal with that. I just tell her that we do want kids and it'll happen when it happens.

Really you guys (and my husband, duh) are the only ones who know the extent of it. I feel like people who aren't trying or don't want kids at all (most of my friends who are close enough to confide in) just sort of glaze over when I bring it up. I mean it's really repetitive to just be like "not pregnant again." There's no update until there's an update.

I did have one friend, a couple actually who are close friends with me and my husband, who reacted very poorly when we told them we were trying. Or really, NTNP. I could not believe they said this to me, but basically how it was going to affect them. How I wouldn't have as much time to hang out and my husband wouldn't have as much time to dedicate to a project he and the other dude work on together. I was so hurt!! But I didn't really express that very well. I think about that sometimes now and I'm like... I bet she feels really bad for ever telling me that, since it's been a year and a half and I haven't gotten pregnant. Or at least I hope she feels bad! Sometimes I think I should bring it up to her again because I never really got a solid apology on that one and it still stings.

I had my day 3 tests done today. Nurse said everything looked good and there were no concerns so that's promising. Now on to the monitoring for ovulation.

One more day til AF is due. Not fixating, not going crazy, no, not at all...

@Tionn3: Stay strong! I haven't tested bc our timing was so bad this cycle.

You guys AF is due today and I did NOT test this morning! Holding out until at least tomorrow when I'd officially be late.

Just looked back at my charts for the last year and my cycle has ranged between 25-30 days. So really I should wait until CD31 to test if AF doesn't show. That would be Sunday. We'll see if I can wait that long!

But I'm like 99% sure AF will come. I mean that's what's happened the last 18 cycles so why wouldn't it happen again this time? Wahhh.

@Tionn3: 30-60 % is not encouraging after three whole years! If another year and a half passes and we haven't gotten pregnant I will probably start seriously looking into adoption. I can't wait forever to be a parent! Especially because we'd like to have two.

@bizwitch: sorry.. BFN aren't any easier even when you expect them.

@Tionn3: Ugh, sorry sister. Bottoms up for a little luck o' the Irish next month!

@bizwitch: =[ ugh, I'm so sorry.