Today marks the day my third baby was due. This year they would have been turning two. I'm feeling sad today, and kind of angry too. This baby was a surprise and felt like it was meant to be to me, so the loss was really hard and really confusing. I wish that I had this little one sitting on my lap today. That loss basically meant I was not going to have a third child and it makes me really sad. October is pregnancy and infant loss month, so hugs to all of you that have experienced loss.