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I didn't. I straight up removed them from my facebook stream.

I wish I had any good advice right now. As much as I can, when I can, I'm trying to radiate warmth, light, and good-will. And when I can't...I try to escape...or vent (usually to you all or to DH). I hope you can take whatever time you need to heal.

When I was facing this, I tried to remember that there is no limit to the # of babies that can born. That another woman being pregnant is not taking an opportunity away from me. That helped me be happier for them.

I struggling with this recently. With my IUIs, I was always distracted by the process. Now that I'm in the IVF process and I'm currently on BCP before stims, it's a lot of time to think things. Jealousy has come full force. It's really hard. My sister is newly pregnant and a lot of people on my FB feed are pregnant. It seems like everyone is due March or April 2015. (Really! A friend just posted her ultrasound today. WTF!?! Really?... There goes another hidden friend.) Usually I can be strong and keep them in my newsfeed but I have been hiding people left and right. Yup, I hid my own sister. I feel bad saying this but I'm even getting jealous of fellow IFer who are now pregnant with #2. I think it's the ones that started TTC when I started are the ones that are starting to hurt the most. Just so jealous lately. I've even stepped away from HB because of it. Trying to pull away from the baby talk. Especially during this lull in IVF.

This IVF process and all this waiting is really testing me. I'm trying to be strong but not doing a good job. Trying to be positive on all the other aspects of life. If you see my IG account, I'm posting a ton on my dogs. My dogs and my DH is how I don't go insane.

I feel guilty with these jealous thoughts. I want to be happy for people but it's so hard.

I don't have any advice. I'm in the thick of it right now. I'm hoping this is a weak time for me and the jealousy will go away with other distractions. Hugs!!

I'm so sorry for your loss and I agree that it is so hard when you are surrounded by other pregnancies and babies... Sending prayers and hugs for you and your family.

@jaguar: @bluestripedbee: my heart goes out to you both. My IF was nothing compared to yours and it still killed me everyday until we got our bfp. I just pray good things for you both. Do whatever you need to do to stay sane.

I wish I knew. Facebook is killing me right now and I hate myself for it.

@travelgirl1: "I wish I knew. Facebook is killing me right now and I hate myself for it." I came to post exactly the same thing! No advice, just lots of hugs!