M started day care on Monday and today is her 3rd day. My husband has Wednesdays off so we keep her out so they can have daddy daughter days.

Monday I felt guilty, Tuesday I was OK because she did really well Monday.

Today I'm just really sad and guilty. I was crying while pumping. I hate the thought that strangers are watching her even though my husband's cousin works there. So it makes me feel a little bit better.

I never planned on staying at home and was always 100% I'm going back to work. Because I love my job, it's a career to me not just a paycheck. But now I'm willing to put all that on hold for M. But there's just no way we can afford our mortgage on one paycheck.

Not really looking for anything...just rambling.