So I'm still not doing great mentally. I'm all about emotional transparency and being open and honest about how I'm feeling but my kids (3.5 and 6 months) don't need to hear that I'm depressed. They need a mom who is a stable model of mental health and source of calm and reassurance (both of which I'm not). I know I don't need to be perfect but I'm having a hard time faking happiness and positivity. How do moms do it???
Are you moody/ irritable in front of your kids? Do you tell them you're having a rough time?
Holding in my toxic thoughts and bad mood is exhausting. My therapist said there's value in "faking it til I make it" but some days my fake smile almost kills me.