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@LindsayInNY: You're so sweet I'm not doing so hot. I actually caved yesterday and peed on a stick. I know, I know...even after you all told me not to. It was stark white. Took me right back to when I was in the thick of all of this before. I know there's a chance it could be too early. But seeing that lack of a second line yesterday definitely made me just want to sit tight until tomorrow morning. So, tomorrow I will confirm if I should continue to spiral down into my sad place, or try to climb back to the top of the happy mountain of BFPs.

This process is so hard...and now that we have achieved a healthy pregnancy before on an IUI I feel like I was doing everything in my power to replicate that very cycle again.

I want to stay positive. But it's so hard...the end of the TWW is the hardest part. Well, that, and a stark white stick.

@sweetooth: Ugh, I'm sorry. I hope it was just too sign and things look up tomorrow morning. Otherwise take some me time to wallow in your sorrows (or drink them like I usually do!).

@sweetooth: So sorry to hear this. Praying it was just too early.

I just got the call that this cycle was a bust. Not that I needed the blood test or phone call to confirm what I already knew...I actually started to bleed yesterday. I never bled early before when I was on the progesterone. Just another reminder that no cycle is like the other. And as hard as this whole thing is, I just have to keep going. I'm still sad though.

I'm using retail therapy to get me through it

@sweetooth: I'm sorry. I don't know what is harder than hearing the same bad news every month.

@lindsayinny: how are you? Anything good going on this cycle yet?

I got my progesterone done today and sadly it was only 11.9. It has been over 40 for that 2 months so I am pretty sure I didn't ovulate very well this month. I think I am moving on to injectable meds next month.

The dr said not to count myself out that I could still be pregnant, but considering it was so much higher before I'm sure I'm not pregnant with it so low.

@LindsayInNY: Thank you My retail therapy was really just me going in my closet, pulling down all things on the hangers that I was tired of looking at/never wearing. Putting them in a bag for goodwill, and then hopping on gap.com for some basics So nothing super exciting - but it will be nice to have some new shirts. Sometimes I wish I could have a whole wardrobe overhaul. Too bad our $$$ has to go towards infertility instead of shopping sprees

@fotolori1: Thank you - it is helpful to talk with people who understand. My husband told me it does bum him out, but it's not his body going through all of this. So he doesn't feel the pain/sadness quite as intensely as I do. And there aren't too many people in real life who I can talk to about this. // I've never known of progesterone to be tested in the midst of a TWW. Are you taking progesterone? If it's low, wouldn't that be something that could be boosted with actual progesterone increasing your chances? Sorry for all of the questions - just curious. I'm still sending positivity your way!

@kayakgirl73: Thank you for the hugs Yep, Shady Grove. I see you're in VA too, are you at Shady Grove as well? Hope you're feeling well in your TWW!

@fotolori1: I'm sorry your progesterone levels were lower than expected. But my RE said that anything over 10 is a great number. For this pregnancy, my progesterone was 17.7 & this was 3 days before I got my BFP! I was immediately put on progesterone suppositories once my beta confirmed it. All that to say, don't feel too down about the specific number as your levels confirmed ovulation & it only takes just one. Also, after the failed IUI last time, my next step would've been to go to injectables. I've heard that there may be higher success rate from that & the concern is the increased chance of multiples & having to terminate some of the embryos.

@sweetooth: I'm sorry about the negative betas. New shirts are always nice. I think Gap & BR should be having more sales coming up. My go to was my wedding wine during each failed cycle for the past year.

@LindsayInNY: FX that this is your lucky cycle!

@marionberry: Thank you for your support and your wishes I'm continuing to send wonderful thoughts your way as well for those two little babies in your belly

@LindsayInNY: You're right, shopping is shopping. And it's a nice, non-caloric, way to work through the emotions of all of this

@lazypanda: Thank you

@fotolori1: How are you? Any updates?

@kayakgirl73: How is your cycle going?

IUI went well today once they found my cervix. Ouch. Hubs had to give an extra sample at the clinic as the volume was low in the first sample and a lot had gotten caught in the cap and died. Thank heavens for the really great andrologist who chased him to the parking lot to let him know that he needed to come back and give another sample.

@kayakgirl73: I can relate to the "ouch" of the IUI! So many people said they didn't even feel it, so when I had my first one last month, I was like, WTF?! Haha. Good luck to you!!

I am just watching my OPKs again to call and schedule the IUI. I was disappointed that my OB doesn't offer more monitoring, but I guess the perk is that my costs are much lower than if I went through an RE and had all of the monitoring. My OB will try 3 IUIs and then we discuss other options, whether it's an RE referral or more testing or what. So I'm like 1-3 days away from my 2nd IUI. My Wondfos are getting darker, I'm having some cramping, my cervix is getting higher...ovulation is imminent, so I plan to test like 3 times a day as to not miss it.

@LindsayInNY: Yes, my OB is doing the IUI. They do three of them before they refer you on or consider other options. To be honest, I'm not sure why I'm not with a RE now except that my guess is my doc thinks she can help me without having to go through all of that. But it's getting tiring to not just get to the bottom of it all! But, I got my positive OPKs, and I have all of the ovulation symptoms I normally get, so I'm going in for IUI #2 today.

@sweetooth: We could have been in the DC waiting room at the same time.

Ya this IUi was much more digging around than my last one, not that bad but unexpected since my last was so easy. I just hope it doesn't affect the potential success. Now I'm sitting and waiting,

I hate the progesterone suppositories. Anybody do an HPT before there Beta?

@sarahnicole218: I just want to second what @LindsayInNY said about the RE and monitoring appointments. I understand that there is a cost difference, but there's a limited number of chances that you have to do medicated cycles before your chances of conception decrease. What price do you put on those chances? Not pressuring, just making sure you're aware of this. I really feel that OBs are there to help you once you ARE pregnant. And REs help you GET pregnant. My two cents... I hope you get pregnant on this IUI and don't have to worry about a thing

@kayakgirl73: I'm trying my best not to think about how this IUI compares to any other. I am focusing on how each one is unique, just like the baby that comes along with it So try not to think about the cervix difficulties and your success I know, easier said than done...

I hate those suppositories too. And I find that I don't have it in me to wait until a beta anymore. I typically make it until 12 days after the IUI and then I'm POAS.

@sweetooth: Yup trying not to think about the differences.

I'm so tired, I think it's the Progesterone. Ugh I went to bed at 9:45 and woke up at 5:00 am still tired.

It's kind of crazy how different every cycle can be. I got the call that with my follicle sizes and estrogen numbers I should come back in for monitoring once more tomorrow AM and then we may trigger tomorrow night and IUI on Friday. It feels so fast. Friday will only be CD11. That seems so early. I usually start my period on CD29 so with an IUI on CD11, I'd be going for a beta on CD25. WAY too early. Trying not to stress...but who am I kidding, I've looked at my previous IUI cycles and googled a bunch to determine if this cycle is doomed from the start. A CD11 IUI resulting in a BFP, is that even possible?

@bluestriped bee:

So what's up?
Hi! I am a new bee. I am starting IUI this month! AHHH! Haha.

Where are you in your IUI cycle?
My "O" window is supposed to be this weekend if that's what this question means!

How many IUIs will this be?
First one.

Diagnosis?
None. Married a chick

Medications?
None yet.

Other info?
After work I am going to back and read this whole thread to see if there are any tips from more experienced bees on how to handle the TWW to increase the odds!!

I'm so sorry I have been missing in action, but I have been soooooo busy! I work at night and have been in real estate school for the last 2 weeks. I am in information overload!

AF showed up early this morning so I am out this month. Moving to 150 mg of clomid this month and if not pregnant this month, moving on to injectable meds next cycle.

How is everyone else doing??

@wrkbrk: Welcome! You said that you're not taking any medications? I don't think I ever realized that you could have an IUI without any meds. I hope you have great success and one is all you need! Oh, and the best advice I have for the TWW - stay busy! That, and plan a reward for the end of it. A reward that's just as sweet if you get pregnant or not. That way, no matter what, good things await you.

@sweetooth: Gonal-F and Clomid got me my little one. This cycle I did Clomid and Bravelle.

@wrkbrk: Will you still have bloodwork and ultrasounds to monitor things? Or is it just OPKs and then scheduling the IUI?

@kayakgirl73: Bravelle and Ovidrel brought me my little one

@LindsayInNY: Wait, so is this the finale of your TWW?? Are you POAS or going for a beta soon? Lots of luck to you!

I have no choice but to leave this in the RE's hands. I got the call just now that I have ONE more night of injections and ONE more monitoring appointment tomorrow. So that should make everything a little, tad, more normal in terms of cycle days. My two strongest follicles are 20.1 and 19.8. I would think that's go time - but I'm putting my trust in them - and slightly losing my mind with three consecutive days of b/w and ultrasounds...this process is just nuts.