if you weaned, did you know ahead of time which was going to be your last nursing session? how did you feel about that last nursing session?

if you didn't know at the time that your last nursing session was indeed the last, how did you feel looking back at it?

i don't have any point to these questions, just that i'm in the process of weaning (LO is 12 months) and going through some bittersweet emotions and just want to connect with others. i was planning on keeping the morning and bedtime nursing sessions until whenever, but i got mastitis and stopped nursing LO because i didn't want him to get side effects from the antibiotics (i know some people nurse through it, i was just worried about LO getting diarrhea), and after the antibiotics are over i don't think i'll go back to breastfeeding because while i like nursing, it just seems time. he's still getting some breastmilk from my freezer stash in bottles/straw cups, but i think that's it for nursing! sigh, i'm having mixed emotions.