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I am so, so sorry you're dealing with this. I lost my baby five months ago now and, even though I'm pregnant again, it still stings when I think about it. The rip roaring, all consuming pain has gone though - but it took time.

This post really helped me at the time:

http://boards.hellobee.com/topic/5-stages-of-grief-after-miscarriage

I really identified with the stages of grief mentioned in the post - although I experienced them in a different order. I started with grief - much like you, I cried day and night. Then, for me, came anger. I was furious with God, furious with all women who had healthy babies, furious with my husband, furious with myself. Grief and anger took it in turns for a while and then I settled on denial. For the rest of the month, I carried on as if I was still pregnant, hoping for some miracle, that it was all a mistake. 'so, when AF came at the end of that month, I was torn apart all over again.

I promise - it does get easier. But you have to heal in your own time and in your own way. You can't force yourself to "get over it" if your mind and body need to grieve. There are other posts in the miscarriage area on this site where people where shared what helped them to heal - perhaps have a look and see if anything rings true for you on there?

Please do come here to talk to us about it as often as you need. There are lots of ladies on this site who have been through this and we are here to support you.

I'm so sorry for your loss. We lost our first child, our daughter, at 20 weeks. I went in for the anatomy scan and instead of calling to say boy or girl, I had to call and say we lost the baby. Then, I had to deliver and everything.

I went through all the stages of grief, sometimes more than once. It just depended on the time. One thing that helped me was to think about how I was in different increments of time. At first, it was just getting through the moments, then gradually it got to be longer stretches of time. I still have good days and bad days. It's been almost a year since we lost her. I know that as we get closer it will get weird and hard again, but I'll take it moment by moment.

It is helpful to talk with others, especially on here, that have been through this. At least for me it was. Sadly, many of us have through this. You will have good days and you will have bad days. Sometimes you will have more bad days than good days, but you will get through.
I would search some miscarriage posts or even go to that board and read through some of the posts. When I'm having a bad day, that's what helps me.

Know that we are here thinking about you and praying for you. We are here if you need to talk.

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I'm so so sorry for your loss. *big tearful hugs*

So so sorry for your loss

For me it helped to have some closure. For miscarriage we don't get a funeral or anything, it's kind of like well all of a sudden your baby is gone and that's that'. I'm Jewish, and we put rocks on gravestones instead of flowers so I found a nice rock and wrote a message to my LO and placed it in my front entryway outside of my house. I see it whenever I go in and out, and I get to remember my LO.

That..... and I let myself grieve..... a lot. I cried and cried and cried. I woke up in the middle of the night crying for months. DH and I would be having a normal conversation and I'd just burst into tears. You just lost a baby, it's ok to be sad about it, it's a sad thing to go through!

It's been a couple of years for me, and I still think about the LO that I lost. Usually it hits me the hardest on my due date. I don't think the pain of losing a child ever goes away. But it does get easier, promise!

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I had an early miscarriage with my first pregnancy and it was very difficult. I didn't know if I could get pregnant again or if we would ever have children. I cried a lot and didn't want to talk to anyone about it. Then I sort of distanced myself from everything baby for awhile, which was difficult because I wanted to have a baby so very badly and all of my friends were pregnant or had newborns. Then, it really helped fo rme to speak with people who had had losses (IRL and via weddingbee, at the time). It got easier with time, though almost 2 years later, I do still think of the baby I lost.

Chin up and keep on truckin. It will get easier eventually.

I'm sorry for your loss.

First off I am so sorry for your loss.I had an early loss in January. Not sure if you are religious or not but this is what helped me. Here is my post about it. http://boards.hellobee.com/topic/what-brought-you-comfort

I still have moments where I break down especially when we go to mass. I see so many happy & healthy babies. I pray a lot for understand that it is God's will and not my will, and it helps.

I'm so, so sorry for your loss. It took me many, many months before even coming to terms with it. Let yourself grieve and cry all that you need to. Only as time passes does it get a little easier. Just know we're all here for you for anything you need. *hugs*

I'm so sorry for your loss hun. *big hug*

I'm so sorry sweetheart. Love and hugs and peace to you.

I'm so so sorry for your loss. When I lost my first baby I was was bitter and angry--I didn't understand how something we wanted so badly and tried for for so long could be taken away so fast. I was terrified that it would take us another year to pregnant again, and then I'd lose that one. I was furious at my husband for being relieved that we'd finally been able to get pregnant, furious at my traitorous body for not holding on to it. And all the while my heart was breaking and I cried myself to sleep every night. The first few weeks were especially rough.

I wish I could say there is any easy fix, a switch that makes it okay, makes it bearable, but there's not. The only thing that helped me was time. Time to grieve, time to forgive myself, time to realize I had nothing to forgive myself for, time to realize walking around pretending I was fine and crying all of the time when I was alone was straining my sanity and my marriage.

And eventually, I did feel better. It helped that we got pregnant again within a few months, and even now I'm still sad when I think about it.

I know how hard it is right now, but it's okay to grieve, but I hope you can find some peace. Much love.

I'm so sorry for your loss @Rosie Girl:. I went through it last year with my first pregnancy. We were TTC and I was so very excited, so the loss hit me really hard. What really got me through it (esp, since I wasn't telling anyone about it) were all the other women on these kinds of community boards and blog posts where I read stories. Stories worse than mine, stories that had happy endings.
Also, focusing on trying to be healthy during the months in between getting pregnant again and when the Dr. ok'd it, trying to get pregnant again. (Though my GF who went through it last year too, she just didn't even want to focus on trying to get pregnant again - so everyone works in different ways.) Like PP said, it's OK to grieve and feel sad. That's the one thing I think even the very very few people I told about it, couldn't understand or relate to. Even to this day, if I think about it for a moment, I will get sad and teary-eyed. But it does get better eventually. Those are just some of my tips, and listening to a lot of Florence! Seriously - I played "Shake It Out" on repeat for weeks! {hugs}

I am so sorry for your loss!

Oh gosh I'm so so sorry friend. Prayers your way.

I'm so sorry for your loss!!! lost baby in 2010 and now, I think the only things that really took off the sting were time and having my now 10-month twins... I think it was because I was so busy.... Do things to take it off your mind, but first, I would wallow in it and let it out.... For the first few days, I just kept reading other people's stories, cry my heart out, etc. I hope you have people around u for support! We r here for u too!

Just wanted to say you're in my thoughts & prayers. I'm so, so sorry for your loss.

@FutureMrsMcK: Wow, thanks for this. I cry myself to sleep after DH is asleep... it's all I think about. Good to know things will get better.