I have a friend who is about 17 weeks, after having had 2 miscarriages, and she says at this point she really won't believe she's having a baby until she actually holds him/her. I feel like I'm going to be the same after having had just one. Do you ever get the excitement back? You can never regain the innocence of having never had things end badly, but can you at least get past the fear eventually? I feel like I really resent that loss, because I was SO happy, and now I don't know if I'll be able to feel that with future pregnancies. Anyone have a sort of light at the end of the tunnel on this one?