I've loved reading hellobee for a while. Since we've had trouble getting pregnant, I've cut back on baby blogs recently, but we got a call today that's got me down and feeling like I don't know anyone that can really relate.

We've been TTC for 8 months. I've spent that whole time wondering what could be wrong with me and doing and eating everything I could to increase our chances of getting pregnant.

Turns out the problem is with my husband. Got a call this morning saying his sperm count is zero. Not low; zero. I'm having a really hard time processing this. He's already made a urology appointment for next week.

On the one hand, I'm so relieved and astounded that I'm ok, but on the other, I really don't know how to react to this news. I'm trying not to over think things right now before we get more info, and I'm resisting the temptation to spend hours on google.

I'm stunned, shocked, sad, desperate, can't seem to function properly or get any work done. We got the call at work this morning and have only talked over the phone. How am I supposed to hold it together and react when we see each other at home tonight? This whole time I thought I was the problem, I was relying on my husband to be the strong one and remind me that everything will eventually be ok. Now everything's flipped around...

Now I'm rambling, so I'll close. I know hellobee has a reputation for being a great community, so I'm hoping to connect with someone who gets this more than any of my local friends and family. Trying not to cry...