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  1. lilteacherbee

    cantaloupe / 6791 posts

    You are so strong and such an inspiration. Please don't feel like a failure!!! You're a wonderful mom and your LO is so lucky to have you. It will be okay!! I can't imagine how hard this has all been, but try to think of the positives of switching to formula. I'm sure you will be much happier in the long run!!

  2. chopsuey

    hostess / wonderful honeydew / 32460 posts

    You've done a great job trying to feed your LO and she's lucky to have you!

  3. lavender

    grapefruit / 4554 posts

    Hugs to you, you tried your hardest, don't let this get you down.

  4. yoursilverlining

    eggplant / 11824 posts

    You are NOT broken, mama! I think one of the best things about these boards is it is so clear that many, many women *cannot* breast feed, despite the insistence from some (here and everywhere) that you just need to put on a happy face and soldier through. You're not broken; you are providing healthy, nourishing food for your baby. It just happens to come from the store.

  5. Espion

    pomegranate / 3577 posts

    You've been through so much! I could not imagine continuing with all that you've been through/are going through. Little cherrybaby is going to be happy and healthy no matter what happens and no matter how she is fed. I also can't help but feel grateful for such a non-judgemental and supportive community as we have here!

  6. Boheme

    papaya / 10473 posts

    You're feeding her with love either way, so don't get down about it! You are a rock star mama to little E and now you can put all your energy into loving and bonding with her

  7. googly-eyes

    GOLD / pomelo / 5737 posts

    @Cherrybee: You are doing a wonderful job and your baby is lucky to have you! Eleven days feels like a lifetime in the beginning (and it is for your LO and for you as a mommy!) It sounds like you did all that any of us could!! And recognizing what is or is not working is NOT broken. Congrats on your new baby! Feel free to message me if oh have ff questions or need some support! There are a good number of mamas on HB who have had similar bf stories and if you post you will find support!

  8. MsLipGloss

    GOLD / pineapple / 12662 posts

    @Cherrybee: I don't know if you will read down this far, but I just want to say that your baby is thriving, and you deserve a chance to thrive too! You have done an incredible, admirable job . . . please don't let this rent space in your head for too long. Big (((hugs))) mama! You have already been so brave and strong for your LO!

  9. lomom

    nectarine / 2127 posts

    I am sending major hugs your way. I admire your strength and perseverance. You faced so many struggles and you've had such an amazing attitude through it all. I hope you find peace. You're an amazing person, a phenomenal mom, and I'm so glad I've gotten to know you. I hope you guys enjoy some wonderful snuggles with this huge weight off your shoulders.

  10. Dandelion

    watermelon / 14206 posts

    <<hugs!>>

  11. blackbird

    wonderful grape / 20453 posts

    Oh honey, you have already done so much. And I commend you for giving your LO formula-she will thrive on it! Fat and happy and everything! And your breasts will heal and soon, you will not feel sad anymore as you look into her smiling face or look at her grinning at your DH while he bottle feeds her. You are a GREAT mum and have done so much for her already.

    Ps my LO has a murmur too-as do I! Ours are 100% harmless and many babies outgrow them!

  12. T-Mom

    honeydew / 7488 posts

    Aw you're awesome. Kudos for giving it your all. Your LO is so lucky to have you!

  13. immabeetoo

    honeydew / 7687 posts

    Don't waste another thought on it mama, you went above and beyond and your baby could not care any less about where her milk comes from! Hope you're feeling better ASAP!

  14. cmomma17

    honeydew / 7811 posts

    Your baby girl is so lucky to have you as a momma. (((hugs)))

  15. Penny Lane

    nectarine / 2163 posts

    @Cherrybee: you did all you could, and then some! you should be proud of yourself for persevering through as much as you did!! I sure wouldn't have!

    your baby girl loves you no matter how you feed her. *big hugs*

  16. rachiecakes

    coconut / 8279 posts

    @Cherrybee: you are not broken! from your marathon labor to all you've been through nursing you such an amazing mom! I would've thrown in the towel much earlier. I hope the stress melts away & you enjoy every minute with your beautiful bundle, you deserve it!

  17. aprk

    pomegranate / 3452 posts

    You're a good mama

  18. Corduroy

    pomelo / 5258 posts

    @Cherrybee: You sound like a great mom and you're doing the best for your baby. Hugs!! As other posters have mentioned lots of heart murmurs turn out to be nothing. I hope it's that way for you. I had one as a kid through elementary school but it never affected me.

  19. .twist.

    pineapple / 12802 posts

    You tried so insanely hard. You should be proud. Your babe is healthy and happy and that is exactly how she should be. Now, you work on making you happy! You're a great mama!

  20. BlueWolverine

    pear / 1510 posts

    Hugs to you, mama. You've tried so hard through so many roadblocks. Enjoy your health, happy baby (and healing nipples!).

  21. 78h2o

    grapefruit / 4441 posts

    Hugs! You're a good mama!

  22. Cherrybee

    papaya / 10570 posts

    Aaw, thanks for the support everyone. You've all been amazing, through everything. I can't even contemplate being sad today, its 7.30am, I've had 7hrs sleep between feeds (kudos to EP mamas, that shiz takes time), the sun is shining and my beautiful angel is currently losing her one woman war against her nap. Good times.

  23. edelweiss

    grapefruit / 4923 posts

    lots of hugs. you went above and beyond to try and make bf'ing work--that kind of pumping schedule is amazing. it is weird how emotionally fraught breastfeeding is. sounds like your LO is thriving on breastmilk. i hope that in some way this feels like a weight being lifted off your shoulders.

  24. Adira

    wonderful pomelo / 30692 posts

    Considering everything you had going against you, I'm impressed you even tried for this long! Kudos to you, Mama!!! The most important thing is that your baby girl is happy and healthy - it doesn't matter how you feed her!

    By the way, my BFF was also born with a heart murmur. She ended up having surgery when she was 12 and has been totally fine ever since!!! Hope everything turns out okay with your baby girl as well!!

  25. mrsjyw

    GOLD / wonderful apricot / 22646 posts

    hugs mama you are an amazing mama and gave your 110% effort. with all of those hurdles, 11 days! wow. nothing wrong with formula! i was a formula fed baby and i promise, i'm 100%

  26. heartonastring

    pomegranate / 3895 posts

    I just wanted to pop in and say you are doing a GREAT job, mama!

    BFing isn't what makes someone a good mother. You are a good mother for loving your baby and meeting her needs...whether those needs are met via breast or bottle doesn't matter.

    Please don't get down on yourself for this. You tried SO hard, it didn't work, you found another solution. You are doing your best for your baby and that's all that matters. I hope you'll feel an immense weight lift and will be able to better enjoy time with precious E now that you've made this decision.

  27. nana87

    cantaloupe / 6171 posts

    aww hugs lady! you're a wonderful mama

  28. nana87

    cantaloupe / 6171 posts

    aww hugs lady! you're a wonderful mama

  29. nana87

    cantaloupe / 6171 posts

    eek sorry for the repeat posts! i really wanted to send hugs, haha

  30. littlebittyhouse

    pear / 1570 posts

    ::hugs:: you are amazing.

  31. Mrs. Twine

    blogger / nectarine / 2608 posts

    Don't be sad. I admire you intesely for knowing when your journey was done. There is never anything whatsoever to be ashamed of in trusting your baby and yourself to find the path that is YOUR path. You wrote such beautiful and heart-felt words; made me teary. I can tell you are a superlative mama with a spectacular little girl. I hope that you find support and information about your daughter's murmur that can put your mind more at ease.

  32. mrs. wagon

    blogger / watermelon / 14218 posts

    @Cherrybee: you are amazing and you are a TROOPER!!! I know no matter what you will be sad and disappointed but you really had so much working against you. I have a crazy supply (oversupply with my first) but when i got mastitis, despite the constant nursing and pumping to clear the blockage, my supply dipped to practically nothing. Your body has been through so much trauma since childbirth and now you get to heal and finally relax and enjoy your sweet girl.

  33. junebugmama

    nectarine / 2019 posts

    The first and most important thing is to feed your baby, by any means necessary. It sounds like you did everything you could for your baby. Hugs

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