My daughter is almost 11 weeks old and I have been breastfeeding her from day one. That has gone very well from the beginning and I am so thankful for that. My goal was to BF her until 6 months or once she started on food and then I’d be done.

My issue right now is that I only have one week left before I have to go back to reality aka work. Besides being totally sad to leave my child, I just don’t wanna pump. I’ll basically be away from her for roughly 10 hours between the work day and travel time. Pediatrician said I will need to pump every 3-4 hours to keep my supply up. The thought of having to lug everything back and forth every single day and take time to go pump is starting to give me anxiety and at the end of the day, I just don’t want to do it. I have been doing my best to stock up on frozen milk these past few weeks but even that has been a hassle because if I’m not BF the baby, I’m pumping and if I’m not pumping, I’m BF the baby.

With that being said, I have terrible guilty feelings about “just giving up” or choosing not to BF when I’m totally capable of doing it. I’m going to try and pump on my lunch hour at work and see how it goes and plan to nurse the baby whenever I’m home with her but I know if I only pump once in that 10 hour work day, my supply will likely dwindle sooner rather than later. I just feel bad/guilty because I know there are women who can’t BF or have a hard time with it and I don’t have a hard time but am just choosing to give up instead. If I could stay home with her everyday I would totally continue to BF and it would be no problem but I just see it as being a lot of extra work (even though I feel terrible just typing that out).

Anyway, sorry for the long, dragged out post, just looking for ladies who have possibly felt this way before and advice you may have. I’m not afraid to give her formula/supplement because we already do that as her bottle before bed (so I could save whatever I pump). Even though I know it is probably just my own mental issue, I don’t want to be a bad mommy for stopping early.

PS - I have discussed this with DH and he said he supports me with whatever I want to do.