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TTC #2 and getting past the one year anniversary of losing our little girl

One week ago it was money. I lost my job a few days before I had LO and while we were *fine* while I was staying home, it was only because my student loans were in deferment and we weren't saving anything. Obviously that was not going to work forever and I've been looking for a hopefully part time but no-more-than-40-hours-a-week job for about a year now.

Now it's time.

Monday I was offered a job (45 hrs/week in office, which honestly is as good as it gets in my field, sigh) for much more money than I ever thought I'd make working reasonable hours. I accepted. Friday my husband was offered a promotion to management that he has been working so hard for for over a year, and he accepted. So in a week's time our income more than doubled and I'm VERY grateful that money is no longer something I need to worry about. But I am absolutely terrified of going back to work and sending my 18 mo old to daycare. She's never been watched by anyone but my mom and she's not an easy-going person. I'm so concerned about all these huge changes at the same time.. my going back to work, her going to daycare, my husband taking a much more challenging position that will require more time in the office. I feel like before I had MORE than enough time at home and no money. Now I'll have more than enough money but no time. I wish I could work half the hours for half the pay, but that's not how these things work

Money. Although we are doing considerably better than ever before, still a long way to go!

Pregnancy. I have difficult pregnancies, so we will all be very glad with DS arrives.

My mom. She's s textbook narcissist, so even with many miles between us it is always a lot of work to be related to her.

@Mae: congrats!!! I hope the transition is seamless!!

Money! We make a good living but life is expensive and things always come up. Feels like you can never get ahead. I feel very fortunate though, I know that we have it better than many.

@Mamasig: for sure. and I *think* (hope hope hope but we'll see) that it will cover having cleaning people. Which is a huge weight off because if I'm already feeling like I don't have enough time with LO, I don't want to spend the time I do have home cleaning the toilet.

@Mae: That's how I feel exactly. My time with them is precious. I'm not spending it cleaning! So yes, my house is often messy but that's how it is. We have someone that comes monthly but on an every day basis it's half picked up.

@GingerBebe: Exactly the same, but with my inlaws. I am starting to resent them, and a little bit my husband for enabling them. He actually paid for my FIL's golf membership, when we had a newborn! I don't give a sh*t about your "quality of life." That is a luxury that you shouldn't ask your son for. Mortgage payment, or money for prescriptions, is another matter.

@Mrs. Sunshine: Hugs to you! I hope you and your hubby work through it. We've had a few rocky points in our marriage the last few months, as well. Funny how having kids makes everything so wonderful, yet so much harder. If you need a sounding board or a shoulder, wall me.

My weight. I am still 20lbs heavier than prepreg.

And how unorganized my life/house is. I hate the mess.

@oliviaoblivia: if anyone can handle this, it's you!

I worry about money but I am not disciplined enough to budget well so far. We're fine with money but took on a ton of expenses this year so we need to get more serious.

My biggest source of stress is my husband's anxiety and depression. I feel like I don't always handle it well because I get frustrated. But at the same time I need a supportive partner and sometimes he can't be that in the way I need.

Like so many others, $$$. I just don't understand how even with two decent incomes and living extremely frugally it's still a struggle.

@Mamasig: this is how I feel. On paper we are fine and I'm very grateful to be in the position we are in, but I always feel like we could be doing better. Since I work freelance, I can have really great months and not so great months and I often wish I was contributing more/more consistently to the overall number.

Money, like others have said I just feel like we can never get ahead. We both have good jobs and make decent money but with unpaid maternity leave this year, unexpected car and home repairs, we just got hit hard. We are hoping 2106 will be our turnaround year so we can move into a bigger house like we want.

During my DH's last overseas business trip his boss (who is responsible for our big move and DH's remote arrangement) told him he might be leaving the company after bonus season. This is unsettling because even though he said DH would also get an offer from this other company nothing is set in stone. And if he doesn't DH's career could be in jeopardy. Of course we planned for this and financially we would be just fine, but the thought of making such a big change.. And not knowing what's going to happen is very stressful.

Money, always money. We're not behind, but some months it gets tight. We have a piece of lake property that is eating us alive and that we've been trying to sell for years, but you can't get a vacant land loan in our area, so unless you have serious cash to drop (almost no one), you can't buy vacant land. If we could get it off our backs, things would be great, but it's so much of our monthly income at the moment that I worry a lot.

@winniebee: I hope so!

Housework / to-dos. I always feel behind.

Money as a lot of other said. DH took his dream job but it came with a pay cut for the first 6 months, so now his 'better' hours w/o overtime, means he works a 2nd job to make up for it. And then to go with the paycut he NEEDS new tires on his truck and the 4WD went out of it last night. Lots of extra $$$ right at Christmas time.
Plus I want to start on baby 2 and we can't afford that 2nd daycare bill. Ugh.

pumping. I hate it & I don't get a lot which leads to the cycle of not pumping frequently (on a good day i average 4x a day, and none overnight, which I KNOW is bad) and its just a huge source of stress and anxiety.

and getting this history assignment done by 4pm, which I'm very nearly done (page and a bit to go!) but I get easily distracted