So I'm currently typing this in the dark, with a sleeping baby on my chest because she won't stay asleep when we put her down. Lo is almost 6 months--one week away.

Our usual routine:

Bath, lotion, pjs, sing/read books, sleep sack, and then nurse. She usually nursed to sleep. Wasn't a problem because she stayed asleep through the transfer. She sleeps in a pack and play in our room. Well, then she got croup--slept for 7 days in our arms because of fever and coughing fits. Slept in her pnp Tuesday-Friday, then we went to my parents' house for spring break. Slept 6 hours straight in that pnp. Then went to a resort with the family and slept okay the first night, then lost it the next three nights. We ended up cobedding (just mom and daughter because dad was working out of town) and she slept. Came home, slept decently once we got back past the first sleep cycle. We went to our other place, where dh stays when he is working, and sleep was horrible. Like, up every hour screaming when she woke up. Everything. Look the next morning and she has her two bottom teeth cutting through. So, thinking that explains it. Get her some Motrin and Tylenol. Thinks everything will be okay. She is laying in the bed next to me now, touching me to make sure I don't move away.

I feel like a crap mom because she wants to be near me, but I don't want to co-bed. I did it out of desperation on vacation, but I'm too worried to do it now.

I feel like a crap mom because she is crying. Am I making her teeth worse? Will she remember this? Did I cause this by nursing her to sleep?

I feel like a crap wife because I'm so sleep deprived I snap at him and I resent the fact that he can't nurse her. She will take a bottle, but will always nurse afterwards unless she is at her sitter's.

Then I know there is a lot going on developmentally.

We are going to sleep train the next time dh is off so we both can do it. I just don't know how to get through it until then. Do I make it worse and just hold her? Do I let her cry? I'm so upset.

**sorry this is like the LONGEST post ever.